Journal Entry 09.13.2015 – Lake Jubilee


Journal Entry 09.13.2015 – Out in Nature

Went for a hike today, my first actual “hike” of this year.  I know it’s a little late in the season, but that’s how the year has gone what with my trip, health issues and the HOT summer weather stretching into four months straight.  And it was a good place to be to allow the intense New Moon, solar eclipse energies move through the ‘ole body.

A friend and I visited a nearby lake, which is at about 5,000 feet elevation, in the Blue Mountains, Umatilla National Forest.  The campground had few people and the blue waters of the lake were gleaming serenely in the late summer sunshine.  There is a level path completely around the lake… yes, rather tame compared to some hikes I’ve taken, but plenty for today.  It was a lovely hike and good company kind of day.  Here’s snapshots:

:Lake Jubilee"

:Lake Jubilee”

"Pump truck at Lake Jubilee"

“Pump truck at Lake Jubilee”


Jubilee is a man-made lake and has a small earthen dam on the NW corner.  When we pulled up and parked in the large lot, a big tanker truck drove down the boat ramp to fill up.  The fire crews are still fighting the nearby Grizzly Ridge Complex Fire, which has devoured over 74,000 acres of wilderness, National Forest lands, BLM and private lands.  The fire was subdued a little by last weekend’s short rain, but it will take several days of good steady rain, and better yet, the autumn’s snow to soak the fuels enough to dampen down the fire for the year.

So, we were given a view of watching the pump truck load up its capacious tank with water and then trundle off up the gravel road towards Timothy Springs and beyond where brushing work is being done to keep the fire within the wilderness (Wenaha-Tucannon) boundaries and to protect various structures that might be in the path of the various tongues of the fire.

I showed my friend the basic outlines of where the fire has gone, using a forest map spread out on the picnic table.  I know the area pretty well even though I’ve lived here a relatively short time.

Great day, with some good exercise, lots of green trees, blue skies and waters.

Much love,


We are powerful beyond human comprehension.

Eliza Ayres:

Ah, you finally got your thoughts (some of them!) down in writing. Great article. Love ya, sistar!

Originally posted on LightLover Journal:


Why are THEY (the powers that THINK they are) SO afraid of us?

One of the hardest stages of remembering and awakening to our hearts is what I call the information stage.
There is a ton of information that assaults us as we awaken, and with the positive comes all the negative as well.
For me, due to my spontaneous awakening, this became overwhelming and sent me into a spiritual crisis.
There were so many things that I found out all at once, from fluoride, to chemtrails, to gmos, vaccinations…the list is definitely completely overwhelming for someone just starting their path.

I remember every time I found out information about yet another way that we were being unknowingly poisoned or harmed,controlled, I would go into major depression, full of hate.

When I found out about vaccinations, I cried for days.
I also had to…

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Journal Entry – 09.11.2015 (2) Day and Night

"Fish Lake at Dawn"

“Fish Lake at Dawn”

Journal Entry 09.11.2015 (Part 2) “Day and Night, Night and Day”

Wow!  Today I feel way different than yesterday!  And this morning… I think around 09:12 (PDT) I felt a dizzy wave go through me for a few seconds.  “We” were hit by something big… and interesting that it was one minute past 09:11 on 9/11, some 14 years later…

Yesterday I was in the midst of some deep purging of really old stuff from this lifetime (conscious memories) and probably a bunch of stuff that I couldn’t immediately identify… and didn’t need to go there.

The ego mind likes to pore over information, ask questions, bring up doubts, ponder, lay blame, feel shame and generally wallow in the mud of the lower energies.  I was able to shift the energies and now feel much lighter, probably with the help of my friends, you readers and the angelic light team that supports me at all times.

From night or inner darkness, I moved upward towards the light, all the while being grounded in my daily tasks.  And I feel so much better than I did last weekend.

It’s all about perspective and making that tiny shift from blame to gratitude for what you DO have in your life.  After that, it’s one day at a time, one moment at a time, and one decision at a time.  There’s no need to criticize yourself for not doing enough or making “mistakes”.

We learn by doing.  We learn through observing the actions of others.  I’ve come to an interesting conclusion about some people in my life who seem to be reflecting different stages of my consciousness.  When you observe quietly, the confirmations and understandings arrive on their own, like bees landing softly on a waiting flower.  There is no need to rush into judgment as all will be revealed when you’re ready to “see”, to “hear” and to “understand”.

I “feel” very different than I did just yesterday, therefore I can give myself a pat on the back and a mini celebration for making it through another upgrade.  Gratitude for little victories goes a long way.

Our late summer warm weather is back, along with deep blue skies.  Earlier in the week, the skies were crisscrossed with chemtrail overlays and pale icky clouds.  Today there aren’t any clouds in the sky, the mountains are well-defined and life is good.

Enjoy your weekend, everyone.  I am sending love to all.



Journal Entry 09.11.2015

"Strawberry Creek" near John Day, Oregon

“Strawberry Creek” near John Day, Oregon

Journal Entry 09.11.2015 – Rewriting the Script

When an inner situation is not made conscious, it appears outside as fate.” Carl Jung

We’re already feeling the effects from the upcoming partial solar eclipse in Virgo. This past week, there has been a lot of “drama” at the prison where I work. Due to privacy concerns, I won’t go into particulars, but accidents, health issues and interpersonal relationships seem to be highlighted right now.

Yesterday, I had a little incident where I left the lights on in the car after driving in to work. When I prepared to leave, I discovered… whoops! No start-up!  Since I have an older car, I carry a set of jumper cables in the car, from my days of parking in isolated trail head parking lots. Better to be prepared than not, I always say, and good thing, as none of the officers in Visiting / Staff Entrance had any cables in their vehicles. One of the officers came out to assist. I already had the hood open and the cables out. I was on my way in short order and took a little drive to ensure that the battery would be regenerated for an early morning start-up. Worked fine.  Of course, other folks are having to deal with far more intense incidents, circumstances, flood, fire, health, financial issues and the like.  My little blip is hardly worth mentioning save that everything that occurs in our life is symbolic to some inner state of being.  So… I’m turning the engine over with new energy, new purpose? 

Last night I had some difficulty sleeping (one of those insomniac bouts that occasionally happen) and when I woke up, felt a ton of pent-up emotional energy and memories surging into the open. After reading a piece about the upcoming eclipse (see: I realized that I was responding, in part, to the intensified energies of the Virgo influence, leading to a kind of purging of old memories, emotions and whatever else no longer serves.

I found myself thinking about the pathology of my birth family. There’s no other way to put it. When I was a child, it seemed like a normal family, but as I grew older cracks, fissures and hidden fault lines began to appear. Many a light worker can share stories of their dysfunctional families. I’ve shared my story about my father and myself on this blog. There is also a story about my two sisters and many cousins. Briefly, I was apparently written off several years ago and am in touch with only one cousin, who regularly sends me cards for Christmas and Valentine’s Day.

While at one point, I thought that I shared some common interests with my younger sister, she basically turned her back on me some ten years ago, after I told her that I would no longer financially support her with periodic infusions into her checking account. I couldn’t afford it. The money from the small inheritance I received from my parents as a result of my taking care of them in their final years was all but spent. To realize that I was being used was upsetting at the time and we have had no further contact to this day.  Same with the older sister, who blamed me for taking sides with my parents when all I was trying to do was to take care of them in their growing mutual infirmary and final years.  Neither sister did anything to assist me with the family issues, so the old energies of betrayal and abandonment occasionally reveal themselves to me as I am ready to clear them.

I have forgiven my father. It has taken longer to forgive my sisters. Obviously these were karmic relationships and it’s time to completely allow for the dissolving of the related emotions, thought-forms and memories.

Betrayal; it is a word that has powerful emotions and imagery behind it, yet it is something that all of us, at least in the old energies, have had to contend with in one shape or another. Whether small betrayals or large ones, we have had to come to grips with the fact that we create these “outside” manifestations in order to be able to purge the related energies from our bodies, minds and hearts, both on an individual and collective basis. Now is not the time to continue to hold others to blame for what is occurring in our lives. The past is done. The Now moment is staring us in the face and nothing that had anything to do with these old memories exists in front of us. Clinging to the old just holds us back and prevents us from successfully surfing and flowing with the cosmic energies that are arriving daily upon our planet, in successive waves.

So… by the afternoon, I am feeling much better about myself and my ability to move through whatever this new moon and solar eclipse will present to me. We have all been given the tools. Now is the time to use them.

I just started nibbling away at “21st Century Superhuman: Quantum Lifestyle” by Cary Ellis with Teddie Mulder. In this book, there are ideas about how to learn to flow with the energies rather than to resist and continue to re-create blockages. Cary has done a tremendous amount of research in order to write this book, but beyond that she lives the Quantum lifestyle every day.

Lisa Transcendence Brown also presents wonderful energy updates and realizations garnered through her interactions with the cosmic energies.

These ladies do not present their information to gather followers or start new religions. They are intent in living in the new energy and being authentic in every way. These ladies serve as gatekeepers and wayshowers and have gone on before even many of the light workers, light holders and light servers. We are all at different stages of moving into the new energy. There is no need to compare yourself with others, just realize that you have opportunities to expand and move beyond those things, those beliefs and constraints that you thought were obstacles. And it can be done with ease and grace… once you understand the basic laws that underscore the workings of the Universe.

I know that I’ve held within some resistance in moving fully into the new energies. Part of that stems from the fact that I’m still working in a dense 3D environment and its related energies. It is a choice. Yet, instead of becoming depressed about the situation, I do have the opportunity to work on a lesser scale to release the energies that I can work with, knowing full well that I am still adding to the light quotient of the planet by doing so.

First of all we are individuals and responsible for our own lives. Letting go of the shame, blame, associated anger and grief, resentments, jealousies and other fear-based emotions and reactive energies is the place to start, if you haven’t done so already.

And even though I’ve been on the path and awake for many years, I can’t say that I’ve fully committed like some to living beyond the boundaries of the 3D lifestyle. It’s enticing and to some degree, terrifying. Are you appalled at my honesty? Don’t be. As we all go through these different levels of upgrades there is more to release, more to discover that has been hidden from your awareness perhaps for even thousands of years.

Remember that while certain events that seem related to these energies have occurred in this lifetime, the base energies from which the manifestations have emerged can be very ancient indeed. The events that play out in this lifetime serve as reminders that you can now do something about releasing the old energies from your mental, emotional and physical bodies. You can rewrite the script of what is to become your life from this moment on.

I am grateful for the opportunity to share some of my experiences, observations and insights that emerge along this journey. I hope that others will take heart and remember my words when they are down. I’ve been there with you and together we can rise into the light of the morning as it dawns fresh upon this beautiful home world of ours.



Journal Entry 09.05.2015

Portrait of a Sun Flower

Journal Entry 09.05.2015

Oh, boy!  Got hammered today with the energies and upgrades.  I have been experiencing tightness in my chest, shortness of breath, fatigue (caused by the SOB), intense dreams at night, and dizziness.

In comparing notes with a couple of other lightworkers, we agreed that the energies were pretty intense.  Some days it takes a ton of energy and willpower just to get out of bed.  Until today, however, I’ve been able to get to work and stay there all day.  Didn’t make it today.  I only lasted a couple of hours and then felt like my nerves were on fire from the strain.  So, I left.  Good thing I have sick leave.

The upgrades have certainly reached a new peak, probably due to the combined energies of the planetary and stellar influences of this already astrologically packed month.  Reading one astrology blog, it seems that the Dark Goddess energy is responsible for some of the effects, perhaps dredging out some of the deepest remnants of our collective and individual unconsciousness.

Whatever the reason and season, it certainly pays to take extra care of your body these days, that is if you are endeavoring to make physical ascension a reality in your life.

I know that this summer has been a difficult one for me on many levels, as I continue to let go of attachments to the land that I have guarded for so long.  I see big changes coming in my life, certainly by next spring.  As they begin to unfold I may share more details as deemed appropriate.  Right now, plans and intentions are in the embryonic stages.

Our weather has finally cooled off.  It was only 61 degrees F today although sunny most of the morning.  We’re due for some rain by later this evening and into Saturday.  Our normal late summer weather should return next week.

By the way, the intense lunar energies that many felt this last week were played out in a big fight at the prison.  It was well-contained, but over 50 offenders were involved… gang-related activities.  Danger is ever present and our officers are well-trained in keeping fights and outbursts contained.  The only reason I’m sharing this now is to let you know what a physical strain it is to work in such an environment even though I do not witness the outbreaks of violence.  It will be a welcome change to someday turn in my keys and badge and walk-away forever.

Similar incidents and smaller ones will continue to flare, within personal lives, regional disputes, political disputes and the like as the energies intensify the separating out of timelines and worlds.  For many of us there is no going back now; we’re committed to going forward into the New World, whatever it takes.  And it takes dedication, physical, mental and emotional stamina, heart-felt clarity, allowance and acceptance at deeper and deeper levels.

I know that I’ve reincarnated many times on this planet, or at least it seems that way, so I have much to release.  And being a First Waver, Baby-boom sensitive, I’ve had to make major adjustments to be able to survive within this toxic environment and have being letting go of all the conditioning, and adaptations that no longer serve.  It takes time and a lot of patience, as well as letting go of any sense of intolerance towards the efforts of self or others.

Much is being revealed in our world.  So much more is yet to be revealed.  It is a time to remain calm, and safe within your own energy field.  You can observe or participate, it is your choice, but either way seek not to judge what is going on other than to realize that the darkness is being purged and it must be drained from the collective unconscious like pus from an abscess.  What has been hidden must be revealed so that all who look upon this information can make intelligent, heart-based decisions on where to go next in bringing healing to this planet and each other.

We are well into the Shift of the Ages as foretold by the ancients and have been for several decades.  Only now are we beginning to see real change as it has finally reached the physical stages, coming into manifestation before our very eyes.  These are exciting times in which to live.  Just how you choose to live through them is up to you and the choices that you make.

I choose to live in joy, peace, harmony and beauty.



Journal Entry 08.23.2015

Autumn Colors Cascades

Journal Entry 08.23.2015

This is a short update on the fire situation in the West.  We have unhealthy air quality (170) in Walla Walla today.  I’m coughing even inside my relatively clear house, as it is an older dwelling and permeable to the outside air.  Hopefully, things will clear up a bit tomorrow, but that all depends on getting some local wind to blow the smoke away… towards another community.

The West is on fire.  There is no getting around that fact.  This is one of the worst fire seasons on record and it is a couple of months before we may see some major relief thanks to cooler temperatures, shorter days and hopefully, some precipitation.

I’m doing my best to keep quiet and low key during this situation.  Will give periodic updates as conditions change.

Over and out.



Eliza Ayres:

Magnificent sharing by my Sistar, Maria…

Originally posted on LightLover Journal:


At the same time that our 3d Self ascends, our Higher Dimensional Self descends.

It is at this stage that many in the Heart Collective find them “Selves” in at this moment of this Divine Shift.

The descension of our Higher Selves.( Our lower dimensional selves have ascended and done the inner work to clear and heal and activate our lightbodies)

There comes a point when a high enough percentage of the personal inner work is achieved,when a soul reaches a frequency, a vibration, through the Heart connection to Source, that the human aspect of dimensional Self is healed and unified.

All aspects, physical.mental,emotional, spiritual, and etheric selves become One.

This is when the lightbody activates and when we step into our multidimensional selves, and fully into our Light.

Lightbody activation symptoms for me and those I am currently working with include:

Sense of no time, which can be very disconcerting.

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