Journal Entry 8.21.2014

Seven Devils Range from Zumwalt Prairie

Journal Entry 8.21.2014

It’s a pleasant evening, 82 degrees F, mild, warmish, with a light breeze.  Perfect summer weather.  And after what we experienced in July, very welcomed.

I’m starting a book on Chief Joseph: Guardian of the People, by Candy Moulton.  It’s a short book, but ample to re-experience that lifetime.  I remember standing on the slope above the Imnaha River, looking down at the steep-sided canyon lands arrayed in their early summer green and wondering just how it would feel to be fleeing for your lives down those slopes.  Of course, the people took well-established trails and followed the lines of creeks, reaching the waters of the Snake, whose confluence with the Imnaha was just out of sight behind a ridge and down about 5,000 feet below.  It’s a deep canyon and that was only one that the people traveled across during the course of their 1,500 mile fight and flight.

This encounter with self is bringing up yet another bout of grief, sadness and other emotions for clearing.  The story of the Ni-mii-pu, the People, as the Nez Perce called themselves, is a powerful one that has stamped its presence on the landscape for the last 130+ years.  As you drive through the vast landscape you can cross and re-cross the zigzag trail of the people.  And I have. 

Funny thing about zigzag… that is how I describe my journey in this lifetime, too.  I’ve studied many kinds of spirituality, been a “member” of different groups and left most of them behind.  Now I find that little of the New Age material out there appeals to me.  It seems designed for an altogether different person that what I feel like right now. 

Frankly, I’m tired and of late have little patience for those who come seeking answers to questions that took me years to discover.  Perhaps, like Joseph’s, my journey has been harder than many of you will have to face.  I don’t know… except that when I lie half awake at night speaking telepathically to my family, feeling their wonderful loving energy… I know that I am very content and happy to be going Home, again.

I know that this lifetime has been worth the effort, but it has been an effort… breaking trail for others isn’t easy.  Rananda Kumara (the Higher Self of Master Kuthumi) told me the other day that I’ve been a Wayshower, too. 

I’m a humble person and perhaps one who does not always exhibit a great deal of faith in self.  Seems hard to believe, doesn’t it, after some of the things that I’ve written?  Yet it is a pattern that is fairly typical of the highly sensitive, intelligent star seeds who really don’t “fit in” to what passes for “society”, especially in the Western world.

It was a difficult day at work today, for instance.  As my own Ascension day approaches, I find myself able to see through the games and deceits of others, even when they are not aware of doing or being deceitful.  It is SO evident to me.  It takes all my self-control to gather my compassion, to forgive and let go of any judgment that might creep in as I observe these actions around me.  Of course, not everyone is this way; I work with some very sweet, good-natured people, but still really do not relate to a lot of the things that they seem to value in life.  Home is where I belong and where I am going… soon.  Barely two months away.

I’m beginning to connect strongly with the Higher Self of Lady Tazjima.  No, I’m not going to share with you all just Who that is… other than Angelic.  There are too many people “out there” claiming to be married or the Twin Flame of some famous Archangel or Master, for me to add to the list.  Our Higher Selves share many soul aspects, some of whom are embodied here or have come in as walk-ins.  I’m hardly the only walk-in around; there are many, most especially in this critical time that one Archangel has described as the “Harvest”. 

One slightly impertinent reader on another website questioned who is harvesting whom during this Harvest?  Those whose souls have not planned to ascend in this lifetime will be removed, through death and other means to another world or worlds, even different timelines, according to the souls’ desire for experience.  This happens at the turning of every great cycle and is now going on, so there is an active vying for souls… those who go forward towards ascension, those who might remain at 4D for a cycle or two… and so on.  It’s not a race and it isn’t a judgment, against any soul.  Human beings do tend to judge these things in light of the competitive and unbalanced way they have been conditioned to view all things in their world including themselves.

I can say, unequivocally that I am proud to have spent several lifetimes as an indigenous tribal member.  Most the most part, their cultures were based upon living with the cycles of Nature, moving with the seasons, surviving quite well on the abundant game, fish, berries, roots and nuts available in the landscape through which they passed.  They did not live by the clock or appointments, but by the seasons.  It was a simpler life, a life free from restraint and abusive laws and regulations.

It is evident that after 200 to 300 years of abusing the resources of the world, that humanity is going to be required to make a great shift away from being a consumer society to one that lives with and nurtures the environment.  It is a matter of allowing the feminine energies of intuition and inner wisdom, peace and love to bring balance to a world that has been overheated by the unbalanced masculine energies.  I am not advocating a return to a matrilineal society, but rather a society wherein each individual is encouraged to discover their own inner balance.

Things are changing.  Despite the blatant manipulation of mass media, news is still getting out about positive changes going on in the world, yet there is much to be done by those whose mission and life journeys stretch out ahead of them… carrying them forth in the new dawn of the golden age.  That golden moment has not quite arrived and may take some time, so do what you can to hasten it by working on your self, clearing and discovering what makes you tick, what makes YOU smile; what gives you joy.

For me… I would just like to visit with friends and family at Home and take a long time to become reacquainted with my mate.  We’ve known each other since childhood, but when a soul aspect is gone, it is evident that the person is “different”, not quite whole.  In re-blending with Lady Tazjima, she will become whole, again. 

Many adventures await me in the coming months.  Some of them I might be able to share with you, my readers, some I may not.  Not all that is given forth at 6D by those who sit on the great Councils can yet be made known to humanity, even the starseeded Ground Crew that works on the surface.  When it is time and you need to know… then…. and only then will some things be shared.  

In some ways, living in 5D may not seem so very different than what it has been in 3D.  Still, the air and water is pure, there are no standing armies at Home, the people are friendly and loving, everyone has fulfilling work… etc. 

I understand that some of you first encountering this blog may hope that I can answer your questions.  Perhaps, given some time, I could answer a few, but the questions are there for the sake of your own growth, effort and sense of discovery.  Listen to your inner voice, your intuition, follow your hunches or the messages that some of you receive from your guides or even your Higher Selves and find out your own answers.  Each of us comes from an entirely unique perspective; yours is your own to discover. 

I have followed my zigzag path, like Joseph and his people, over hills, mountains, up valleys, over passes and around, again.  Now my path is straightening out and I will be rejoining my people in the stars.  Think of me next Spring when you see Venus rising like a bright star just before dawn in the lightening skies.  Or as you gaze upon the Pleiades in the cold winter skies.  I will be there, with my own family, from whom I have been apart for a very long time.

Namaste,

Eliza Ayres (Tazjima Amariah Kumara VaCoupe)

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DL Zeta- Wayshowers Provide Alternate Means of Transport into the New Time

This is a timely message for all of those who read this and similar blogs; now is the time to begin to open to the possibility that YOU are a Wayshower for others. While I no longer post the work of others, for such an exceptional and timely post, I will make exception:

DL Zeta- Wayshowers Provide Alternate Means of Transport into the New Time.

Journal Entry 12.21.2013

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Lake StuartJournal Entry 12.21.2013

Powerful and potent Solstice time, Winter and Summer, depending on what latitudes you live in. For us Northerners, it’s a time to reflect on the past year and what a tumultuous one it has been. My life has been quiet, but around me there is a lot of change going on…and within me there is a lot of change going on, as well. However, the inner change is difficult to write about, except to mention that I seem to spend more time at night in partial meditation, dreams and conversations with guides. I have a difficult time remembering everything and I really don’t think it matters at this point. Hmmm, I just floating down the great river and rising in frequency level at the same time.

Today (the 20th) was a very entertaining weather-wise. We had a mild morning which turned into a fierce little snow storm and then a very sloppy wet melting snow on the ground kind of evening. Snow is coming down heavily in the mountains which make the skiers and other winter recreationists quite happy, although travel might be difficult for a couple of days until the roads are sorted out.

Although benign in appearance, the Blues can really pack in the snow, topping 6 to 7 feet or more every winter. That doesn’t sound a lot to many people, but this is a semi-arid part of Washington / Oregon, with plenty of sage brush blue bunchgrass steppe around. In the Blues, in the damper canyons and gullies, tall Douglas Firs, Subalpine Fir and Spruce grow in abundance, while the ridges are spotted with barren areas of lithosol soils which are dotted with abundant wildflowers in season.

No, none of this rambling has anything do with metaphysics and yet it does. I’m aware of the natural environment around me. I can tell you where specific plants, some rare, grow in the Blues because I’ve seen and photographed them. I would like to be more aware of the presence of elementals when I’m out in the woods, although I do make a point to acknowledge them and always bless the forest when I walk through it.

Winter Solstice is the shortest day of the year. From now on, the days will begin to get longer. I always relish the return of light and this year Solstice has a double meaning, for it truly signifies the Return of the Light. The planet has moved completely in 5D and now, our bodies will begin to reflect that transition, at least those who are members of the 5D Tribe (actively pursuing ascension). Others, our neighbors, friends and family members may be experiencing a lot of confusion, but that’s part of the reason we’re here; to assist them to make the transition when they are ready to do so. It is an individual decision, made at a soul level, and definitely not a race, as the Divine Mother so beautifully pointed out in Sirian Heaven’s (Isabel Henn) latest channel.

2014 should be another interesting year for the planet, the light-workers and those who are waking up. Keep breathing, keep calm and centered, laugh a lot, find things that bring joy into your life, spend time in nature and live the Love that you are in truth.

Hugs and kisses,

Eliza

Photo: Lake Stuart, Alpine Lakes Wilderness (from nwhikers.net)

The Sirians: In One Door and Out Another

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The Sirians: In One Door and Out Another

We are here.

And who is there?

The Sirian emissaries.

Welcome.

We come in answer to your call, as you came in answer to Gaia’s, so long ago. You are entering an intense transitional period as truly the last remainders of the old begin to disintegrate, much to the dismay of some and the joy and jubilation of others. Where do you stand?

What do you truly want to exist in a world of your own making? Have you given any thought to this? Or are you blindly following the same habitual patterns of behavior that you have etched out through a lifetime spent bowed beneath an unseen but definitely felt control matrix? Or have you lifted your head and sniffed at the wind; yes, it has shifted. The light is cracking through the layers of melancholy, bringing hope to those who can still dream.

Imagination is the key to making it through the transitional period, that and an ability to observe and make choices. Know that you have a choice now on how to approach any situation. You do not need to rely on the “steady and tested” for those methods will no longer pertain; the frequency levels have changed. The old can no longer function and continue into the new energies.

Change will become the only constant companion in a world filled with flux. Cycles are ending and new ones beginning. As the transition is made, there will be earth changes and disruptions in weather patterns. You will not be able to continue to rely on past knowledge of how things are done, as they will no longer be effective. The ability to adapt and to sense and decode the frequencies will become a valuable gift to anyone sensitive enough to feel the change in the air.Know that the only thing you will be able to count on is the wisdom and knowing that emanates from your own heart center.

You may find books, newspapers, social media and other communication sources making no sense or even becoming irritating to your sensibilities. You are not quite exited out one world and not quite entering the next, the classic betwixt and between experienced before waking up and after having dreamed. Yet we tell you that this is a time of power when you can most strongly connect with your internal wisdom, the great library of knowledge available through soul connection and through listening to your own body. Your bodies are living libraries of light, encoded into the facets of your DNA, the portions that are just now beginning to come online. Do you “feel” any different, beloveds? If you take a moment to tune in, you may discover that, indeed, you do feel different.

Perhaps your dreams are changing. You are still in the process of purging elements that will not pass into the higher frequencies. Much of the work is done in the multidimensional dream realm and beyond this physical world, but you are fully participating even if you are not aware of what is happening behind the curtain as yet. When the time is right, you will awaken, first gradually and then more quickly to becoming fully conscious of the various layers in which you already experience life. You will be amazed to realize that you are quite an extraordinary focus of the ALL THAT IS.

Our scribe can feel a sensation of being carried along by a strong river current if she closes her eyes for a moment. It is a strong, calm, smooth current moving her forward and upward. In letting go of expectations and plans, she is allowing the process to unfold organically, in the timing of her Soul’s desires for her.

Have trust in the process of ascension. Your body is naturally responding to the rising frequencies of the planet as it is a part of the planet; the Earth is its Mother. Your body vehicle is not you. We hope you have come to this realization for yourself. You are consciousness, pure energy; your body serves as a temporary abode in which you dwell for the purpose of exploring physicality on this particular planet. You exist in many other shapes, dimensions and frequencies throughout the Universe; you are multiplied many times over, yet retain consciousness.

Humanity is moving into realization of the unified field of consciousness. The shift will occur in the general populace as change becomes too apparent to be ignored. Those who have anchored their light bodies into their physical vehicles will be the ones who act as wayshowers and gatekeepers for the lost and confused. Many will have questions; know that you will be able to answer them, even just to say “Seek within and the answer will come.”

The ancient cultures of the planet contain much wisdom which has been partially hidden and overlooked by a materialistic society, but much of that knowledge will be applied as the world’s approach to living is simplified, out of need and a desire to let go of anything that abuses other people, animals and the planet itself. Wisdom and ways to adapt will also come through those who have brought their gifts into this lifetime, to be used for the good of all, not for the benefit of a few.

If you have concerns that you are lagging behind, let those fears go. Each of you has your own inner timing. Learn to let go of the concern. Use mild forms of exercise, such as Tai Chi, Qi Gong, and yoga to release bodily tensions. Rest and eat light foods. Spend time with animals and in nature. Go for walks. Seek the simple pleasures of life. Spend some time in creative activities and share laughter with friends and family members. Laughter carries a high frequency and eases hearts who hear it.

We are here to assist and guide. Know that all humans have the natural, inborn capacity of telepathy. You can listen and connect to your guides and mentors if you just allow some time to become accustomed to the fact that you are communicating with beings that you may not see. If you tune in, however, you can feel the connection through your heart, as a warmth and comforting energy. Use this feeling as verification that you have connected with beings of high frequency. And remember that you are sovereign; only those beings who you invite in can communicate with you. If you do not resonate with the message received, discontinue and ask that the beings depart. Cosmic law pertains to any being, seen or unseen.

We understand that many are concerned about their livelihoods and the state of the economy. We will not make predictions or give you dates. Just know that within a year, your world will be greatly changed. Where the last year has been spent purging much of the old, the next year will reveal that the world has, indeed, shifted into brand new territory. No maps of the old will suffice, but you will find your way forward using intuition and the compass of your heart. Go forth with love in your hearts and peace in your minds. The Universe supports and loves you and will provide for you what you keep foremost in your mind. Dream big, command your space, be the Masters you are.

We honor your efforts and stand by your side, ever vigilant, ever helpful, as you enter one door and go out another. No, your rational mind will not understand, but we know your heart will. Follow ever the rhythm and beat of your heart center; it will guide you well.

Namasté.

Thanks, dear Sirians.

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Arcturian Message via Suzanne Lie: Releasing the Habit of Being Human

Eliza Ayres:

This is an important message for everyone to read, else I would not reblog it. Thanks, everyone. I am grateful for what you are doing. Eliza

Originally posted on The Culture of Awareness:

HigherMessageThanks to Golden Age of Gaia.

Arcturian Message: Releasing the Habit of Being Human Channelled by Suzanne Lie. November 3, 2013.

Sue: I found this message hidden in another file. It seemed so familiar that I searched my recent messages to find it, but I could not. Thus, I have decided to post, or re-post it, as it is information that we cannot hear too often.

The Arcturians

In order to return to the higher frequencies of reality you will need to release your habit of being human. YOU are not your human body. However, YOU are wearing your human body. This body is not YOU. It is merely the form that you must wear in order to engage in third dimensional life.

You do not even wear this form when you sleep and enter the fourth dimensional astral plane. You do not wear this body when you meditate and…

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Journal Entry 11.01.2013

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Oh, goodie… a day with the energies of 333. Angels, are you there?

Hope everyone who celebrates Halloween had an enjoyable one. I think I was somewhere else, on another phone call, this time with Jim Self. Jim is a very humble fellow. The work that his group has put together is directed by Metatron, the Archangels and some of the Ascended Masters, especially Kuthumi. And it is evolving even as the Shift accelerates. The overlighting beings are amazed at now fast humanity has progressed in just months. We’re ten years ahead of where they thought we would be now. So congratulate yourself for living in these challenging times; the Shift is accelerating.

I’m sure Jim will put out one of his monthly updates today, so, if you’re interested, there’s a lot to ponder. There is also a lot of free stuff on the Mastering Alchemy website so you don’t have to commit to it unless you feel it’s right for you.

This is not meant to be an advertisement as my piece about Judith’s teleconference was not meant to be. It is simply my desire that people be made aware that there are sources and people who can assist you in understanding what is going on. And I’ve learned some things about what we are and what we are doing here. This doesn’t make me more special, just different, but I have come to accept the difference with equanimity. Being at peace with yourself and your development makes all the difference. No more victim energy. No more judgment of yourself and others. No more cries of “why me?”

In some cultures, this is the beginning of the New Year. I have a young friend in India who told me that they would be celebrating the Festival of Light for three days. Now, that’s the way to start a year. In the north, enjoy the progression of autumn; in the south, the coming of spring. As our world turns, we are coming together. Look around and see the new positive signs of change.

Off to work and my day. More later,

Blessings, Eliza

Journal Entry 10.29.2013

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Journal Entry 10.29.2013

Weaving the Tapestry of Being

It’s nearing Samhain, or at least the present version of it, called Halloween. It is a period of the year when time seems to stop. The veils or portals between the worlds open and there is free passage in and out. Well, according to some sources, the veils have come down permanently; the fact of which few people have consciously registered on their waking awareness.

Right now, I seem to be in a gathering mode. I’m gathering words, phrases and concepts. Various words seem to leap out at me, “see me”, “understand me”… you already “know” me. For instance, what do ley lines, pine trees, spiders, councils, horses and staffs have to do with each other?

I woke up in the middle of the night and found myself having a discussion of sorts with my guides. In reading other channeled material, I have noted that many individuals who are now doing the channeling work seem to work with either a particular guide or a council. So I asked my guides whether they were a council and received back an affirmation.

If you have read my earlier material, the source of much of the messages was the Council of Nine, whom I understand to be Pleiadian in origin, although a part of the galactic councils that are currently overseeing the evolution of humanity. Some of the members of said council are my guides; they remain unnamed at this time.

Well, this morning I was dreaming away. In my dream, I was walking with a horse. As we came to an open field, I noticed a crowd of people walking along, heading in the same direction. Some were riding and others were walking. They all seemed to know each other and were engaged in lively conversation. For some unspoken reason, I joined the group. When the path began to be quite broken, I had to leave the horse behind, but I continued on, on foot.

Eventually, the group came to a building. I lost the flow of the dream right there, but picked it up again when two of the ladies in the group came out. One of them was holding a carved wooden staff. I instinctively knew that she was a leader of some sort, but that all these people were working together.

What has this to do with my current situation or that of other light workers? Well, I see us slowly coming into community. It may not yet be on a physical level, but that depends on your circumstances and how far along in the ascension process you are, remembering not to judge or compare yourself to others.

Where do ley lines enter into the picture? Remember the web of the spider? Spider woman is an ancient symbol of the energy lines of both the earth and the galaxy. It is a rendition of the underlying energy pattern that binds us together. Most of us are not outwardly aware of this web of life until we are ready to perceive it. Have you felt the tug of the web yet?

I find myself reading a different level of channeled material these days and finally understanding it. The old maxim, the teacher appears when the student is ready, still holds true. However, it should really be the knower knows when the knowing is comprehended.

You are both the teacher and the student… and not really a student after all. Every one of us, those who are consciously on the ascension path and those who are yet to wake up to its existence, move through various levels of understanding and comprehension. And it can be expressed as the knower in you coming awake.

Although I have encouraged everyone to go within to discover their truth, there is also a process of being open-minded to allow information from many sources to enter into your awareness. Be discerning, be “picky”… know that you have the choice to take some of it and discard the rest. Also, understand that you will be able to comprehend some things that are spoken or written, while the rest seems to be slipping through the space between your ears.

I have noticed that I have the ability or gift of synergy; that is, taking disparate bits of information and weaving them into a tapestry of understanding. It is not an intellectual understanding, but an intuitive one. It is an understanding that creates a picture, a story… a piece of music. The world that we are going into exists beyond the power of human language to express its qualities, so symbols, pictures, music, dance and ceremony take the place of books and files.

The world that is emerging through us is unexpected by the intellectual experts. We do not have to keep our coloring within the lines any more, but are free to expand out as far as we desire into the limitless vastness of imagination. Enjoy the ride!

Ah, time to stretch and begin my day. By the way, my natal chart was interpreted by one astrologer to indicate that I was here to initiate others. By my humble words and perhaps eventually through my physical presence, I am an initiator. I start things, but don’t finish them… except the occasional painting or writing piece, plus daily chores. It is up to those who discover the little gems that are thrown out amongst these words, to take up the mantle and the building of the new world.

No, I don’t know where some of this comes from, folks; it just flows out like a river. Take what resonates and the rest will serve as compost for the next garden.

May many blessings attend you on your journey. Namaste.

Eliza

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Eliza: On Being Highly Sensitive

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Note to newer readers: I published this post about a year ago before my blog was “discovered” by very many people. It is a timely subject for those who have felt different all their lives, as I have. Also, our being “different” is now starting to be recognized as a gift, an exciting development and one that is long overdue. I’ll be writing a new piece soon, as a result of my attending tomorrow’s (October 29) telegathering being held by Judith Dagley (see her blog: http://thecelestialteam.com, if you are interested in attending — starts at 6 pm Pacific Standard Time). Meanwhile, it is time to recognize our gifts and to utilize them for the good of the Collective.

Also, this is a personal story of my experience being highly sensitive in a blockhead world. There may or may not be echoes from your own life here. Blessings! Eliza

On Being Highly Sensitive

Western culture has not always appreciated the highly sensitive among us. I should know since I am one of the 15 to 20% of the population often mistaken as being “shy”, socially inept or socially backward. While I thought myself shy for many years, I have since found out different. I’m merely different. As I learn to accept what I am, I’ve grown more comfortable with being just who I am, without apologies to anyone.

The highly sensitive are just that, sensitive to loud noises, smells, strong emotions, confrontation and clutter. I feel more comfortable doing something alone than attending a party. As I have gotten older, I have learned that I require more alone time just to unwind from a day at work. I seek solace like many others seek company. I find my own company quite enough, especially when in the woods, hiking or camping.

For many years I didn’t understand what was wrong with me; then, I finally figured out that there wasn’t anything wrong with me. That someone can be different and be quite normal is not usually presented as an option in our western society. I have lived without television, cellphones and loud music for years and find no lack in my life. I would prefer to read, garden, hike and work with my hobbies, painting and photography.

Something in the 1990’s, I ran across a book called “Are you Highly Sensitive?” I read with some curiosity and was gratified to discover that there were other people like myself. Yet once I knew this, I didn’t depend on the book or its companion volumes that followed as guides on how to comport myself. For that, I have always used my feelings as a measure. Early on, even in the 1980’s I became aware that I was highly intuitive.

Once I was hiking on my own in a state park outside of Spokane. It was mid-Autumn, in November. The weather was rapidly changing and clouds were building up in the sky. I had parked my car outside the park boundary as the main entrance was closed. I followed an old road above the main canyon and then dropped down on unmarked side trails until reaching the main trail along the creek. Going upstream, I stopped as I saw a sudden movement on the far side of the creek; there was a wild mink. It looked at me for a few moments. Then, suddenly, I felt a kind of “click” in my head; I just knew that somehow I needed to return to my car, that the weather was changing. I started back. Within 200 feet of the car the rain started to come down very hard. Somehow I “felt” a change in the air pressure and was able to keep myself from getting too wet.

Other events happened during the next couple of years. At one point, while walking to work, I suddenly knew that I would be moving in a short time. Within two weeks, I had moved back to Seattle. I started to get in touch with my intuition. In fact, it was almost like I was receiving some kind of instruction — follow your intuition no matter what. I learned later that intuition is how our guides speak to us, through the vehicle of the body. It is up to us to learn to decipher the non-verbal language of intuition.

Years later, I was driving my car up a forest road above the Hood Canal. It was spring, but snow was falling as it will sometimes when a cold front goes through that particular area. The snow was coming down quite heavily, covering the steep road. Unfortunately, I had taken off the snow tires of my car a couple weeks before, so the road surface was getting very slick. About half mile further up the road and I began to feel like I was sick; my “gut” was aching. I knew that I had to stop the car and turn around. I was concerned what my companions would think, but knew that turning back was the safest thing for us to do. So I carefully turned the car around. I found out later that the area where we would have parked for the hike was down a very steep side road; it would have been impossible to get out with the snow coming down as heavily as it was. We later found another hike on the coast where there was no snow and a good day was held by all.

A couple of years later, I received a letter from one of my sisters. I did not need to open it to realize that the letter contained some negative news for me. Indeed it did. The incident proved to be one of the first where my immediate and extended family and I began to go our separate ways.

For a long time I did not understand what was going on in my life that would cause such things to happen; I just responded at the moment as best I could. It wasn’t until within the last five years or so that I began to read things about the Indigo children, crystals and finally about ascension. Then, just this past spring, I began to realize that I was a starseed. This was the truth of why I was different. Although I had a genetic bloodline from the indigenous population of this planet (human beings of planet Earth) I also had an additional genetic connection to my Star Family. In knowing this, I began to understand in greater detail why my life had taken the direction it did which was so different from my own family, neighbors and co-workers. I had a purpose in being here, now, and it had nothing to do with the continuation of my Earth bloodline.

While I was married for a short time in the 1970’s, the relationship did not last very long. I was growing and exploring new avenues of spirituality, energy work and metaphysics, lines of inquiry that fascinated me and frightened my husband. Although we both were very devoted to our outdoor activities, we could not find common ground with my new interests. I needed to grow; my husband was not willing to, so I decided to leave the marriage.

Of course, I was unprepared to feel the depression and grief that descended upon me when I finally received the divorce papers. Still, I had made a decision and had to stick by it. Although I did not realize it at the time, marriage and children would not be a part of my future. I have remained single ever since, failing to discover anyone suitable and then finally coming to the realization, that marriage was not what I was here for. I had a mission and needed to concentrate on that. I was quite aware that many people would not understand my position and decisions. Still, I had to be true to my self.

Through the years, I have had visions of a sort, if “feeling” a vision can be considered one. I do have clairsentience. I have become aware that I am highly sensitive to other people’s energy when their attention is focused on me. For instance, I have a friend in England with who I am in almost daily contact. If I am not too preoccupied with a project, I can usually tell when he is writing an email to me. And as I have started publishing this blog, I find the same thing happening with some of the readers and commenters. I can feel their energy, positive or negative, as they read the materials on the blog or any of the other places my work has been posted. Of course, I cannot sort out just who is writing or reading the material, but sometimes I can if I am familiar with the person through previous correspondence.

And I certainly pick up on the material written by commenters who are having some difficulty understanding the material. For that reason, I will remove comments that do not resonate with me. It is nothing personal when I do this; I am simply removing something that doesn’t agree with me. See it like pruning an errant limb from a tree or removing a portion of a painting that doesn’t work. It is a process of discrimination and self-determination of what resonates. I realize by doing this I will potentially offend some readers, but I have come to know what I need and that comes first and foremost; I will respect others space when visiting their blogs and reading their writings, as well.

Questions are one thing. I will answer a few, but I do not want to be and do not consider myself a teacher at this point in my life. I am merely a person who is undergoing the ascension process. I have taken it upon myself to share some of my experiences, but my experiences and life is going to be very different from those people who are just coming online. This is not a criticism on my part of the newly awakened; far from it. It is merely that I incarnated in the first wave of lightworkers and star seeds that embodied after World War II; I’ve been on the path, in one way or another, all my life. It is what I came here for. It is why I am more sensitive in nature than many of the full-bloodied humans on this planet; I have a slightly different genetics, but I am one of you. I have grown up in this environment. I have incarnated many times here in different cultures, races and time periods, for a purpose – to further the light quotient of the planet so it could return to the Light. Also, it is important that each individual learn to follow their own inner teacher, not someone like me. My writings are simply my way of expressing what I have learned. See me as an example, not a rule.

There are those who have questioned my use of metaphysical or at least quasi-metaphysical terms such as “I AM Presence”, etc. I come from a dimension where things spiritual are as natural as breathing is here. When I encountered such things during my life, I rejoiced; I did not turn away or wonder what my friends thought about me reading a book on shamanism or the Goddess religions or anything. I had the curiosity and the courage to explore what was not generally accepted by “society”. It did not matter to me, since I was different already. For me it was not a matter of being different as it was a matter of being “me”, being true to myself and following the intuitive nudges that took me in many different directions. I slowly began to realize that I was receiving a quick overview education on metaphysics and the New Age.

My understanding and conscious participation in Ascension came later. Part of what brought ascension to my awareness was the state of my health. In the late 1980’s, when many people were dancing to the tunes of the BeeGees and other popular groups, I was living in an isolated ranch in Montana, studying metaphysics and chanting for hours every day. As a result of this ascetic lifestyle, my health became affected. I came down with a heavy bout of influenza, lasting some ten days with a high fever and very little food or water. When I emerged from my bed, I was weak and had lost quite a bit of weight. In fact, I was soon about 115#, a good weight for a model, but thin for my 5’8” frame. I was plagued with constant fatigue and soon experiencing other symptoms, such as a strange toxic headache, where I could not concentrate, swollen glands, the weight loss, sometimes diarrhea, night sweats and chills. No medical doctor could explain what was happening. A few thought I was depressed. I wanted to say that sure I was depressed, but only because my body felt so lousy. After all, I was used to long days of hiking and being outdoors. Due to the work and degree session schedule at the ranch, I was not allowed to have any or much time alone. After about a year of this, I had to leave the ranch. I could no longer tolerate the schedule and soon had to move away.

In time, a doctor finally discovered a diagnosis, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. This grouping of symptoms has remained somewhat controversial among the medical profession, simply because it is difficult to treat. What I found was with the intensification of the symptoms, I learned how to listen to my body. I became, I had to become more sensitive to the needs of my body than most people. I have learned to pace myself; if I’m overly tired, I rest. Sometimes I can be quite active and then I get hit with a wall of energy and need to assimilate, rest and sometimes get extra sleep.

Around 2005 or so, I came across one of the first ascension “flu” symptom lists and realized that I had, at one time or another, experienced most of them. And then in reading Denise Le Fay’s work, I realized that what I had been dealing with for years was ascension symptoms. The fatigue, the headaches, the loss and then gain of weight, dizziness, feeling toxic, being overwhelmed at times by emotions (not necessarily my own), having intense but unremembered dreams, experiencing visions and receiving etheric “visitors”; all of these I experienced at one time or another over the past 25 years or so. Ah, so that’s what has been going on, I thought – good!

Once I began to understand what was going on, it became easier for me to concentrate on releasing any remaining fears I had about my future here. I was ascending; it was what I came here to do. As I gained confidence in myself and my purpose, I started feeling more grounded and comfortable in my body. I let go of my issues with being in the third dimension; after all, I had signed on in good faith. Now it was up to me to work through the medium of the body and anchor all the light and love that I could and can in this world.

I’ll never be an activist or go out and protest all the ills that I see happening in the world. To react to the negativity is to give it power. I have and am constantly working on the darkness that remains in me or flows through me. I view it as dispassionately as I can, release it and let it go. All of our bodies are interconnected because, in reality, we are housed in energy fields. What appears to be in front of you and me in the form of a house, street or car, is simply an agreed upon illusion that allows us all to do our work here on the level of polarity.

As we move up in vibration along with the planet, I feel myself being more peaceful and content to be quiet, releasing my concerns about the state of the world. It wasn’t always that way. When I first connected with reading about all of the conspiracy theories, alternative histories and the reality of what was going on in politics, religion, medicine, education and other institutions, I was very angry. I wanted to leave the planet right now. I cried and fretted over the things I was reading until I realized that doing so was not a healthy thing for me. So I gave all that up. Now I barely gloss over headlines; mass media interests me very little. Much of the news published is highly controlled and censored to reflect a mindset that is designed to keep people upset and in fear. I began to realize that the advice given by some spiritual teachers to go within was a valid one. I felt better once I was able to begin to unplug from media, especially television, which has a mesmerizing effect on people. I do watch DVDs of movies on my old television, but even with those I am getting more selective about what I watch. Watching violence and crass humor is not conducive to learning to calm and center in your heart. Also, I have watched a steady deterioration in the type of news that is covered on mass media outlets; much of it is no more than the latest gossip about celebrities and means little to the man or woman on the street.

So, I have been learning that in order to survive as a sensitive person in the third dimension there are certain things you must do. Keep in mind, this is what I have done – it wouldn’t necessarily meet the needs of someone who has a family or a lot of friends. I keep a simple diet, with lots of fresh fruit and vegetables. I get a lot of sleep and have begun taking naps on the weekends if I can simply to stay ahead of the energetic changes going on as we come closer to making the shift in the fifth dimension. And I have let go of a lot of expectations about needing to participate in “events” with other people. Sometimes I feel quite at home mixing with strangers, but most of the time I am content taking walks on my own, even going on trips by myself.

I have also learned that ascension for the starseeds and lightworkers often involves transmuting energies through the body, thence the widely divergent energy levels and symptoms that crop up from time to time, sometimes all the time. By accepting this as a matter of course, I have learned to relax more into the process. The energies are not letting up, but I am no longer concerned that it is something to do with my general health. No, I am just doing the work that I came here to do.

I have learned to let go of fear. Fear is widely used to control people and it has taken me qreat courage to do things that some people would consider foolish, like hiking by myself. Frequently I am asked by my friends if I am afraid when I go hiking alone. While I have seen animals sometimes, I have never experienced problems from them. I have encountered moose, bear, elk, deer and coyotes and have felt the presence of cougars watching me. I keep aware of my environment and know when to make noise if it’s appropriate or just to be watchful. I am also respectful of the forest and speak with the elementals present. Also, I have called upon Archangel Michael to protect me when I travel; he is ever present in my consciousness. Years ago, I have even learned to call out to him in my sleep. And so important, is the awareness that I am more than I seem. I am one with my environment. It is a reflection of my inner being; if I am at peace, I will experience peace when I walk in the woods. Of course, occasionally I get a test to see if I am really awake and aware. I was visited one night when camping in a mostly vacant campground by a heavily breathing animal. I didn’t see what it was, but got up, opened my tent door, shined my flashlight around and yelled real loud. Whatever it was, it left quickly and I wasn’t bothered anymore that night. And oddly enough, I wasn’t a bit afraid.

Years ago, I learned various techniques for centering as well as energy work. Periodically, I use Reiki on myself and my animals for a calming and healing effect. Reiki was very helpful in overcoming the effects of grief when I lost a series of relatives and abruptly ended a relationship all within a matter of months. I was overwhelmed and cried for long periods, until I was able to learn some simple Reiki commands and utilize them on myself. Other healing techniques will work just as well; each individual will have to determine what works best for them.

Listening to quiet music is helpful, but often times even music can be distracting. I love the sound of wind blowing through the trees, the rushing flow of a river or the patter of rain on the roof. I also use a fan or air filter at night to cover up vehicular noises coming from a nearby street.

Before I go to bed, I have learned to connect with my light team, my guides and Source. I meditate for a while, relaxing and then can go into my dreams with more purpose. And when I wake, I listen for messages for often I will be visited by angels or other beings who wish to chat with me. Occasionally I will see a vision or experience a sudden understanding on a question that I have been pondering.

There are many ways to deal with being sensitive in the world as it transitions. One way I have learned is to turn ever more inward, centering on my heart, meditating on the three-fold flame therein, connecting with the crystalline heart of the planet and to Source, inviting the presence of my Twin Flame, guides and the angelic legions to be one with me as I sleep.

In the past two years, I have changed quite a lot and feel more at ease today than at any other time in my long sixty-plus years. Although officially an elder, I am stronger physically than many women my own age or younger despite dealing with ascension energies. I haven’t experienced any serious illnesses for years and I do not take any medications. In fact, I rather avoid using the medical system even though I work in health care myself.

In all, I feel that I have been rather successful in learning to cope as a sensitive in our culture, even though it would not appear that way to many people. I simply live as I feel is comfortable for me and release any concerns about how others might view my activities or lifestyle.

Every day I am learning more and more what resonates with me and leaving the rest behind. It is a matter of being you that is most important in the process of learning to accept others. Compassion, self-acceptance, self-forgiveness, humility, courage and grace will hold anyone in good stead as the time for the shift approaches. Heart-centered joy is a good thing to practice, as well as gratitude for what you have, even if it doesn’t entirely meet the expectations of your ego. Gratitude is very important in helping to open the heart.

The Divine Mother, through Linda Dillon, recently spoke of Ascension as being a permanent heart-opening. I for one am looking forward to experiencing life with an open heart. Everything is more joy-filled, relaxed and balanced, and life is filled with endless possibilities and creativity. Sounds good to me!

Wherever you find yourself in the days to come, I send you my blessings and warmest wishes.

I AM your sister in the Light,

Eliza

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