Eliza: In the Void

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Eliza: In the Void

The process of continuing to release everything of the old continues. Right now, I feel rather like I am within a complete void. Nothing makes sense any more. I am letting loose the old labels of way shower, light worker, anchor of light and everything else that I’ve identified with in the last several years. I do not resonate to any of it anymore and it would appear that little which I write now resonates with many people either, at least those who are still seeking answers from others “out there”.

Should I continue to write?

If I go within, the answer is “Yes!” So, I will continue to write for myself even if no one else cares to read my work. This is a very individual process that each of us is currently undergoing. I can only speak to what I am feeling and doing as I respond to the moment.

In response to this current feeling of being out of the flow of what appears to be happening, I am suspending any plans to leave my job and move to Costa Rica in the near future. Yesterday, and indeed in the past couple of weeks, I have come to realize that I have been, again, following the dream of another. It does not matter if they claim to be a soul sister or brother. If it is their dream and not your own, you are still being untrue to your own journey.

It would seem a bit selfish of me perhaps in light that I could possibly help others on their journey, but this dream was not one that emerged from my own heart. And so I walk alone, again, in a void.

What prompted this change of heart was concern about my furry friends. I could not contemplate carrying them off to a foreign land as both are of senior age and it would be very stressful for them. Never mind that the move would also be stressful for me.  Being of a particularly sensitive nature as I am, I do not respond well to huge changes.

I have discovered a great pocket of inner resistance within myself to the idea of moving to Central America.  It is what it is.  One can give it a label and declare that I’m afraid or resistant to change, but that’s not how I feel.  I was contemplating doing something that just does not resonate with my inner being and need to respect the feeling for what it is, my intuition telling me that this direction is NOT the one for me to follow, now.  Perhaps later, but not now.

I went to Costa Rica because I bought non-refundable tickets in response to some things that I was told by another person. Having spent a considerable amount of money for my tight budget, I was committed to the journey.  Before two days passed during the trip, my original plans were completely changed, through the influence of yet another person.  It was an interesting trip, but left me feeling unfulfilled as I did not get to see as much as I had wanted to after I got there.

I felt uncomfortable in Costa Rica not being conversant in Spanish, but it was more than that obvious limitation. I did not resonate with the degree of extreme poverty that I witnessed in Costa Rica.  The contrasts between rich and poor there are huge.  And the presence of rich Gringos, primarily living in gated communities or staying in exclusive resorts also did not resonate with me.

I would like to travel more and understand that part of my apparent discomfort stemmed from a lack of planning on my part, as well as a tendency to give in to the whims of my charming traveling companion.  So, I intend to study more languages so I can feel more at ease when I travel and plan a bit more the next time I venture forth from the borders of my known world.  The same understanding can apply to stepping forth into worlds that you cannot see with your physical eyes.  There, the knowledge of how to navigate exists within.  One can only access that inner wisdom by letting go of expectations.  The contrast between physical travel and inner travel couldn’t be more different, but in some ways they are the same.  One is stepping out of the known and into the unknown or rather, the still to be remembered.  It takes courage to do both.  Both methods of “travel” expand one’s horizons and awareness of the world, whether inner or outer.

Before I went to Costa Rica, I thought of the possibility of settling there in my retirement.  Now, however, having been there, I find it doesn’t suit.  Perhaps some other part of the world will resonate more… I have a standing invitation to go to France.  The ancient and modern cities of Europe might appeal more if I can discover a way to live there on a strict budget.  I can at least go and see what does resonate and what does not.  I may discover that I become quite the rover, ever seeking and never finding.  I feel no loyalty to place any more, just to my animals as they are my family right now.

Am I being a traitor to my own heart? I don’t think so. When I let go of these plans yesterday, my heart lifted immediately like I let go of a burden that wasn’t mine to keep. All I can do is respond to how I feel, not what is desired of me or for me by others.

Last night as I attempted to go to sleep with the boom and crackle of fireworks resounding in my ears, I called on the Angels. They responded immediately, “We are ever with you!” And indeed they are.  I no longer feel that they are “out there” but have integrated into my awareness.  I do not feel I need to channel their messages which, at least these days, have a tendency to be more personal and supportive in nature.  They are simply letting me know that I am not alone even though I am currently on a physically solo journey.

As I have said before in my writings, I do not want to be a guru or teacher for anyone. I need to follow my own inner compass even if it leads into places where others would prefer not to go.

I shall continue to write, if only to express my current feelings, but am letting go the need to please anyone else. So the stats on my blog are falling. It no longer matters to me. So what I have to write is apparently not of any relevance to anyone else. It does not matter to me. I am what I am. I am becoming more of my Self even as each moment allows for greater integration and assimilation of my higher essence.

I even have looked at a couple of unfinished paintings in my little art corner and expressed an interest to explore that area of expression once more. I am returning to myself and to my Self. It is all that one can manage in these days of tremendous change in the outer world.

I see myself as a tiny pool of calm within a crazy world. What goes on “out there” is of little concern to me now. How I feel within does matter. I am the creator of my own world. Eventually, perhaps, others will arrive who share my dream because it is theirs, also. Meanwhile, I will continue on as I am, exploring my inner world solo. Perhaps someday I will discover that I’ve been walking in a parallel path with another and then we can both walk together, if it suits in the Now. Meanwhile, I am not going to define myself with any labels or purpose that may have come before. The Void is actually a good place to be and one in which I shall immerse myself come the day when I drop this physical vessel and step into new worlds beyond this one.

Namaste.

I AM Eliza

Journal Entry 07.03.2015

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Journal Entry 07.03.2015

The West is having a heat wave of gigantic proportions, August heat in late June and now early July. And last night I woke up to hear nothing… the electrical grid had gone down. It was rather eerie and actually kind of nice to hear just soft natural sounds. There was no wind, but a slight hiss from the distant creek. The only light I saw was one about two blocks away, which was probably on a generator. Fortunately for the residents of this town and the contents of my refrigerator, the electricity came back on in a couple of hours.  Good thing as today’s high temperature is expected to be 104 degrees F!

It gives one pause to realize just how dependent we have become on the electrical grid. It wasn’t always this way. Many farms and outlying towns didn’t have electricity until well into the 1920’s and even 1930’s. People were much more independent for their energy needs, using wind power and utilizing oil and gas lamps. People were also closer to the soil and more in tune with the cycles of Nature.

Since it is so warm, or rather just plain hot, I was planning to do some chores early this morning, but realized that I would not be able to do a single one if the electricity wasn’t on. My lawn mower is electric. The gas pumps at the station are electric. The refrigerator that keeps and preserves food is electric. This laptop, while it can run on battery for a bit is usually connected to an electrical plug. And with the coming earth changes, everything… everything will change in our lives. How much we will all be affected by change will depend on us, our consciousness levels and that of those who live around us.

We have moved officially into the Age of Aquarius, the Age of the Heart. Much has to shift for the population to move gracefully into the new energies. If there is resistance, there will be suffering. Change is the only thing we can count on and for it to come with grace and ease, the change needs to emanate from within each individual and radiate out into the world through open hearts and open minds.

It has never been more important to listen to your inner voice and guidance. The Shift is here whether or not you are ready. You can be there, too, if you quiet down and tune into the natural rhythms of your body and the still quiet voice of your intuition. Seek guidance from within and use outer sources only for confirmation of what you are feeling. Each of us is entirely unique in our structure and make-up; what fits one will not fit another. It is like trying to wear a shoe size too small; it will hurt, until you fess up and find one that does fit.

The judgment that I see coming from various elements of the New Age movement are a distraction. It does not matter whether or not you are a Vegan or a Buddhist. If your mind is closed to the choices and the rights of others to make their own individual choices, then your outer world will reflect that closed mind. Personally, I am not a Vegan. I eat some vegetarian meals, but also eat some meat and chicken during the week. My body has an inability to assimilate B vitamins through eating only vegetables and fruit and taking vitamins makes me nauseated. So I eat a little meat. And I am still awake and aware.

There is a break up, dissolution if you will of all duality. As we move into the Unified grid of the Heart, all that reflects the old mode of dualistic thinking and feeling will be breaking up. There will be no more “right” or “wrong”, “dark” or “light” or even “Yin” and “Yang”. This dualistic mode of thinking and judging systems and people needs to fade with the light of the waning Moon. There is a growing union behind the two sides of Self, as reflected in the integration of “higher” and “lower” self, masculine and feminine energies and so on. We are all multidimensional beings who are waking up to that reality. The world, the universe consists of much more than we can see with our physical senses, but there needs to be a letting go of the lower mind’s need to judge, categorize and box up everything that it sees.

I see myself letting go, in a big way, as I prepare to undergo a huge transition in my own life. There are moments when I go into fear, which is the ego’s resistance to what seems an insurmountable amount of things to accomplish before I can leave my old life. However, proceeding forward, step by step, listening within and doing what must be done… in time all will be accomplished and I will discover myself in a totally different way of being.

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Right now, I’m glad that the electrical grid is up and running, but I hope to eventually have a residence with a good set of solar panels which will enable me to be able to exist without the need for reliance on a system that is about to self-destruct.

Choose a place to live where you can work with your neighbors and learn the value of place well. In the coming years and decades, as changes become more a part of everyone’s lives, we will have to rely more on ourselves and each other as we move into a more heart-felt way of living, in tune with our natural environment and the greater part of our Self, our multidimensional beingness.

Namaste.

I AM Eliza

 

 

Journal Entry 06.27.15

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Journal Entry 06.27.15 – Transformation from Within

Note to Reader:  This piece flowed forth this morning.  It may or mean something to my readers, but that is up to your personal discernment.  For more local news, I took a walk very early since at 08:00 hours, it was already 84 degrees F (over 32 C) and forecast to reach 108 this afternoon.  It is clear to me that our climate is changing, whether through the actions of mankind, the influences of our sun and even the position of our solar system in a new part of galactic space, unknown to our world for thousands upon thousands of years.  What happens within one lifetime is less than a second in Universal time or consideration.  A good gardener plans for hundreds of years, not one season.  Expand your horizons beyond what is seen in your physical world and walk the stars with the Angels.

How does one exist within time and space and not at the same moment? It’s all about realizing one’s multidimensionality.

As the last three weeks passed and I did not feel compelled to write anything, I mean ANYTHING, I could almost hear a few of my readers thinking to themselves, “Now, why don’t she write?”

How does one convey through a three-dimensional language the process of stripping away completely all implements and memories of former lives within this one lifetime? One doesn’t. One experiences the moment by moment sensations and realizations. One comes to an understanding that what one once was, even within their own perception, no longer exists.

I look at books that once inspired me. There is no longer any connection. I do not resonate, bad, good, ugly or indifferent. I am not depressed, merely aware of being, once again, the constant observer of the disintegration of what was once “my life.”

I am still working, but that part of my life, too, will soon come to an end. And I will be moving far, far away from where I have lived most of my adult life, the State of Washington, in the United States. It is almost like, overnight, I have become a citizen of the planet, free to move, to go, to explore, to visit… anywhere. I anticipate that I might be doing a considerable amount of traveling in the near future for one who has been rather solidly planted in the Northwest for a long time. When, where, how and with who remains unclear for now, except for my newly found sistar, Maria, who will be my primary traveling companion.

The direction where the flow of life will take me is changing, too. Writing, artwork, photography and more metaphysical endeavors promise to fill a life transformed. Play, exercise and being in nature and being natural will also take precedence over being proper and methodical. Balance will be rediscovered and gratitude for being alive and being on this beautiful planet will guide my every waking moment.

What I AM and what I am becoming is the revelation and integration of the higher essences of my multidimensionality beginning to successfully take “root” within my body and awareness.

No, I have not yet experienced walking between dimensions and worlds, or have had lucid remembrances of being aboard star ships or the like. It does not matter. I have changed completely and utterly from the person I once was, even just a short year ago. My heart is open. My light body is activated. I AM free. And I’m not going anywhere. I don’t need to. The assignment was to bring the Light to this darkened world, to be an anchor and transformer for the light so the energies might be stepped down and activated in all with whom I walked in this lifetime and others. Someday, I will walk out of this body and go “home” but that day is not now.

Krishnamurti once said that no man can lead another to God. Yet one can allow the energies of God to move through their life in order to light the way for others so that they might find their way with more ease and grace. That is my purpose for being here and it is enough.

I have learned that one must seek within as the Universe truly resides within your own energy field. It is up to each individual to come awake to the realization that you are the center of the Universe, your Universe and the ultimate creator of what you experience in that same Universe. If you desire joy, you can simply turn your thoughts to joy. If you resist the reality of your great power, you experience suffering and separation. Only by joining Self within do you begin to sense the power of unity. What others do within their Universe is their decision and it is beyond your ability to control them if they no longer wish to be controlled.

When you fight or judge the effects of the world “out there”, you are judging your own creation. Yes, there are many grim things that one can see in the world today as those who have traditionally held control over the masses struggle to retain that control in the old manner of using deceit and manipulation of emotions, most especially that of fear.

When one steps out of fear and can face unflinching the realization that one has walked both paths, the dark and the light, through this world of duality, then one can decide whether or not one is to be forgiven. Experience is the purpose for which many souls came here, for the sake of soul growth. One cannot understand fully the vicissitudes of life without walking literally in the shoes of another.

Recently, I have worked full-time in a high security prison. I have made it clear that I am a highly sensitive person yet I have thrived in this challenging atmosphere and have learned to come into balance and acceptance of the essence of humanity that transcends the positive and negative aspects of judgment, of physical acts, the sheer scope of proper socialization of a nation’s children and young people, the failure of a “democracy” to provide for its people and so on. I have come face to face with the frustration, the stoicism, the cynicism of a people who society has shut out and attempted to forget. I have seen, first hand, the failure of the Western model of medicine that does not heal the body, but attempts to cover up pathology of bodies unbalanced by poor diet, ingestion and absorption of poisons in the food, air and water. I have heard of the failures of modern medicine, for example, in stories of the failure of even the more successful aspects of physical medicine, orthopedic surgery, as metallic implants have come apart within flesh, leading to still further complications and more surgery. I have seen a people completely consumed by the need to possess materials or each other for the sake of looking and feeling “better” than their neighbors, even if what they possess can be contained with a couple of boxes on a transport bus.

Western society has failed. We must move on. And I have chosen the only path that I can take, which is to move on myself and leave the rest behind. I am not in charge of the lives of other people. They will come to a decision to change or not. It is for me to allow that ability to make a decision or not to take place. If I make a decision now, I choose, also, to take responsibility for the consequences.

I follow no Master other than the conscience that resides within an opened heart. I have felt the compassion that transcends the need to correct or save anybody or anything. Perhaps there will be those who come to me with questions, but ultimately all answers will be found by each person going within and seeking there the answers that reside within the Universal Akashic Records, the Wisdom of the Ages.

There is a new sense of peace that transcends the need to prove my point to anyone or to argue or push concepts upon others. I have arrived at a place where the seeds sowed through many lifetimes can now push up through the soil prepared and take their place in the secret garden of my heart. I AM that Which I AM, a part of Source, an echo of the unknowable made flesh, if for but a transitory moment in the ever present NOW.

Namaste. I bow to the Divinity that resides within the hearts of all mankind and within all Creation.

I AM Eliza

Eliza: Tripping the Light Fantastic

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“Wild Orchid”

Eliza: Tripping the Light Fantastic

How does one describe a trip that is life-changing? How does one put the eternal into words? One does their best despite the challenges as others need to hear what has been experienced, even though the efforts may fall short of what truly happened, is happening and will happen in the eternal Now.

On the flights back to the States from Costa Rica, I pulled out a volume of “Navigating Dimensions” by Lisa Transcendence Brown, an author, teacher, ascension guide and wayshower of some note who currently resides in Hawaii, the remnants of ancient Lemuria.

I was cognizant of the fact that just being able to read the powerful yet simple prose of Lisa’s was proof of the progress that I have made in activating my own light body. Many who read her works fall asleep (makes good reading before bedtime) but I was able to devour a few of the short chapters between stopping for snacks and drinks on the plane and sitting in various airports between flights.

The material contained within answered and verified for me much of my own experiences that are now beginning to unfold for me and for others.

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“Marina Ballena”

As it has been written by Lisa and other wayshowers, it is all about frequency. Until you reach a certain level of frequency, you cannot and will not understand what she is (and others) are describing as part of their own journeys. Indeed, the human (egoic) mind will attempt to disengage and shut down in light of the information and light codes embedded in the words.

What lies beyond the fourth dimension does not make sense to the rational / logical mind, which was developed to keep us safe in the third dimension. To go further “up” in frequency, one must enter the irrational world of the heart. It is only irrational to the human mind since what exists there is in complete contradiction to what human experience has taught us how to live in 3d. Life in 5D and above exists beyond the boundaries and physical laws of 3D, and in the world of imagination, of mystery, legend, fairy tales and stories.

For myself, I am teetering on the edge of the break-through into this new world, proceeding through intent to listen to the urgings of my Spirit, as echoed through my own heart center.

For years now, I have worked to clear old time lines and “past” lives, now knowing that these “lives” exist simultaneously in the eternal Now. This past week, there was a collapsing and finish to the timelines through which aspects of “me” as an individuated consciousness has existed as a Native American and a French aristocrat. Other timelines might come up for clearing as well for me as my body continues to integrate and transform in response to the ever increasing waves of Cosmic light being flooded upon this planet and solar system.

As I have mentioned in past articles, change is the only constant in our lives now. We have a choice to allow ourselves to release all that serves as an impediment to our continued growth or to resist. Those who chose to resist will undergo further experiences to assist them to release. I have chosen to go forward with what my guidance has shown to me.

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I find myself being led into a more internal voyage, although I will be accompanied by others. For how long I walk with others cannot yet be determined. There are dreams and goals, but one must walk forward into the Light with a gentle hand and open heart, keeping the intent to follow guidance no matter where and when it leads you, despite the protestations of others who might well think that you have taken leave of your senses.

One must lose all to gain all. Whether or not this requires that you move, leave your job, your family and friends behind remains to be seen. One glance at world news will reveal that many are not being given the chance to choose but the choice has been made for them (or as it might appear from the perception of one still locked in 3D thinking) due to circumstances, whether through storm-wrought destruction, earthquakes and other natural disasters, or through financial loss, death and disease.

We are not victims here. Even if it appears no choice has been consciously made, a choice to not make a choice has been made. And all come into this life with a series of soul contracts. You can choose to release these, as well as all vows, pledges, promises and contracts made throughout any and all lifetimes, made on this planet and dimension and through all planets, dimensions and existences… as you are sovereign and free to choose. It is simply a matter of acknowledging that you are more powerful than your human mind can currently comprehend.

It is not necessary to wait to find a twin flame or soul mate to enter your life and to make you “whole” again. You ARE whole NOW. No one can save you or rescue you from whatever circumstance that you wake up and find yourself in… but YOU. Each of us is responsible for integrating and allowing change, for acknowledging that there is a natural process to ascension that involves much letting go of what has been known and releasing all fear and resistance.

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Fear shuts us down in the face of the onslaught of change. When fear comes, breathe into your heart center, ground and center, in whatever way feels natural to you. It is not a matter of following the guidance of someone outside of you; it is a matter between your own heart and your consciousness. The way to ascension proceeds through the opening and expansion of the heart. Through the heart center, the other power centers of the bodies align and expand until the MerKaBa is activated. There are steps beyond where your Light Body becomes a glowing field and your physical body crystalline… but now take it one step at a time so that your body can integrate and adjust in frequency.

No one teacher or system can show you the way. If you are still following a specific channeler or system, you are still giving your power away and have not yet stepped upon the path to ascension. To ascend means simply to rise in frequency. “You” are not going anywhere, but your consciousness expands to encompass the Universe and beyond.

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You as consciousness are God and the Universe. The universe and ALL THAT IS, despite what you have been taught, is contained within as potential within your own auric field. With each activation and attainment of integration, these potentials are activated and your consciousness expands. There is no end in sight for those who walk the worlds and dimensions beyond this world and yet your physical body is still “here”, as we have come here to show what can be done to regain the freedom of spirit that has been denied humanity for untold thousands, if millions of years.

Recently I have participated in some gridwork, the first time doing so consciously. I know that I will probably do more as I am here to assist Gaia in her ascension. Meanwhile, as a system-buster and light warrior, I am currently engaging in ascending back to “higher” dimensions as a wayshower. I am, we are experienced in both descension and ascension, having done it countless times. It is a matter of expertise and a gift gained over countless experiences in other timelines, dimensions and worlds.

I see now that I am not limited to one existence in 5D, as a Pleiadian / Venusian starseed, that I am actually an aspect of consciousness that exists simultaneously in many worlds, universes and dimensions. In “time” or outside of time I will be conscious that I walk in other worlds. Right now I am not, as my primary focus is here and now, upon this planet, and in this lifetime while experiencing the extraordinary opportunity to participate in the ascension of an entire planetary body… and even solar system, as that is what is actually happening. And beyond our solar system, this Universe is undergoing its own transformation and rise in frequency. All is entangled in nature, seen and unseen. What a marvelous time to experience.

I encourage you all to let go of your wish to be saved and to take up your own “cross” and bear it with dignity. It is the marriage of spirit and body, the bringing of your “higher” consciousness into full awareness in and through your physical body. It is the marriage of heaven and earth and it can only take place within your Heart Center and within you.

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“The Path before You”

Each of us carries the Universes within. It is our choice to integrate and allow the knowledge and wisdom that exists within our magnificent spiritual heart center that will truly bring us to the edge of the fifth dimension and well beyond. Go within. Go within. Go within and seek the Peace that passes all understanding of the rational mind. Follow your OWN inner guidance and allow a marvelous world of joy, laughter and peace to unfold like a starry ribbon of light stretched out across the Milky Way. The true and only path is the one that you follow within. You will guide you into a life filled with untold wonder and delight if you but learn to trust, hold your intent and allow faith to guide you with surety. You are your own Guide who leads the way with lighted lantern. Seek the light and find the Love that awaits those who surrender fully to the Will of the one who is within, a shining Angel of Light, you.

Namaste.

I AM Eliza

All Rights Reserved, Elizabeth Ayres Escher, http://www.bluedragonjournal.com

 

 

 

Impressions of Costa Rica

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Impressions of Costa Rica

Note to reader:  This is a brief impression of this country, from the perspective of one who does not consider herself to be a very sophisticated world traveler…

We landed in at Juan Santa Maria Aeropuerto on a dark, rainy evening, arriving by Delta via Atlanta, Georgia. After maneuvering through Customs and Immigration, we found the area for taxis and shuttle pick-up. We had reservations at a hotel in San Jose, the Barcelo San Jose Palacio. While not the most expensive hotel in the area, it was impressive, considering I got the room at a considerable discount. The hotel also provided for shuttle service. The hotel staff were friendly and understood most of my broken Spanglish.

From our hotel room, we could smell the scents of Costa Rica, the smell of rain, lush greenery, flowers, and hear the sounds of the busy nearby highway and the call of parrots and other bright colored birds.

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Tired and exhausted from the trip, we decided to stay over another day, which proved to be more expensive. We also arranged for a brief tour to downtown San Jose. I wouldn’t recommend it, unless you’re ready for complete chaos. The traffic and sheer impact of compressed humanity in that old, disorganized town was mind-blowing. I suppose it is something other world travelers’ encounter in the large cities of India, Southeast Asia and other places, but the first time I had encountered the combination of human misery, vitality and frenetic activity. There are numerous one-way streets in San Jose; I could not begin to tell you how to get anywhere, save by knowing some Spanish and taking either a city bus or taxi to get you where you are going. We had a private driver, which was more expensive, but Achiles knows the city inside and out and watched out for us like an anxious cousin.

In going to this country or any other “foreign” country be prepared to spend more than you bargained for. Bus tickets were more expensive than I was told… being misled by an unfriendly ticket seller in Uvita. She charged us for the full price from David, Panama, rather than the price to San Jose from Uvita. Not all Ticos like Americans. In fact, quite a few proved to be suspicious of us until Maria would let loose a beautiful stream of Castilian Argentine Spanish. Then the suspicious faces would relax and open and become more helpful.

One vivid impression of Costa Rica was the vitality of growth in the vegetation. San Jose and its suburbs spread across the curving Central Valley, but the surrounding mountains are covered in thick vegetation. Smaller Tico settlements, villages and farms hug steep lush hillsides. We did not visit the usual suspects, the tourist areas and the Volcanos. There was so much of Costa Rica that we did NOT see on this one trip; all the more incentive to return and to explore some more.

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Basilica of Madre de los Angeles, Cartago

The third day, we were driven from San Jose to San Isidro. We first stopped at Cartago to admire the grand church located there. The church was located on top of a natural spring, capped with cement. The edifice was dedicated to the Madre of Angels and was the most important church in all of Costa Rica, a very devout Catholic country. Our driver, Achiles told us that thousands of people make an annual pilgrimage to the location to honor the Black Madonna there.  The ruins of an older church, destroyed during an earthquake, are a stark reminder that this tiny country is a seismically active area, with an abundance of live and dormant volcanoes and thermal hot springs here and there.

“Ruins of older church in Cartago, destroyed by an earthquake”

We drove southward on the winding Pan American Highway, a narrow road often perched on precipitous slopes and ridges above the lush jungle-covered mountains. We passed numerous casitas, including small enclaves of Gringo-styled more expensive houses intermixed with the more modest Tico houses. Small farms were literally clinging to the sides of impressively steep slopes. We traveled through the odd area of the Cloud Forest, with its bizarre vegetation and passed on down the windy route towards the lush valley of San Isidro. We also stopped at a roadside restaurant which served traditional Tico food and other snack items in abundance.

Passing through the mountains, our driver told us how in the times before the highway was constructed, people attempting to reach San Jose from San Isidro and other outlying towns often became lost in the damp, cloudy treacherous reaches of the jungle-covered mountains. The mountains were called the Fields of Death; many souls were lost there, their bodies never to be discovered. The windy route is still challenging and very dark at night, having no lighting of any kind and few center lane markings outside the precincts of the larger settlements.

Winding up in San Isidro, we stayed in the Best Western there where I had, again, made reservations at through Expedia, utilizing my new tablet. The hotel at first seemed nice enough, but they gave us one of the worst rooms, across from the trash area in the back of the motel. Breakfast was nice, until we found out that the waiter had overcharged us twice the advertised amount. I wouldn’t recommend the place. Go elsewhere.

San Isidro is a bustling little mountain town and was quite strange to my eyes. We scrambled across the busy highway between bursts of fast-moving traffic, leaping deep ditches and grassy mounds. Best be in good shape with walking shoes suitable for slippery tiles, cobblestone and concrete / gravel roads and walkways. A couple of interesting revelations hit our consciousness as we walked the busy, wet streets. It was raining. People don’t wear jackets. I had a rain jacket on and was stared at by the locals. Most were carrying umbrellas or just stoically walking through the downpour. The women were wearing either fancy sandals or high heels, 3 to 5 inches in height.

The dress of the Ticos was pretty simple. Men wear t-shirts or cotton short-sleeved button-down shirts and jeans or long shorts. The women wear figure-hugging t-shirts and tight, tight jeans or skirts, sandals or high heels. I couldn’t help wondering how they could navigate the slippery surfaces without breaking their necks. Some of the older women wore dresses or blouses and skirts, still with sandals or high heels.

San Isidro had more zapatarias (shoe stores) than any other place that I have ever visited. There were sometimes five or six in a short block, with plenty of small boutiques, eateries, farmacias (pharmacies) or hardware stores. There was also an abundance of small bakeries, supermercados (supermarkets) and an assortment of other service-related, furniture, appliance and other types of stores.

The town’s lay-out was simple.   It is a cross-road between the Pan American Highway and a couple of roads that go to either coast. There is a volcan area nearby, a National Park or two and assorted natural reserves, but not having a car or knowledge of the area limited our ability to visit any of these places. Next trip perhaps.

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The next day, we got a taxi to the local bus station for the Blanco Line and caught a bus to Dominical, a small community on the Pacific coast. The ruta was definitely local, stopping every five minutes or so to drop or pick up someone from the side of the narrow highway. The road wound its way through the green ridges to a lush winding valley and eventually to the intersection with the Coast Road, Ruta 34.

Dominical is nothing but a small surfing village with a bumpy “main” road off the main highway. There was an up-cropping of ticky-tacky souvenir and surfer-related shops or eateries. Not really a place to live. The beach was nearby, briefly glimpsed through masses of swaying palm trees. At this point we thought we would hire a taxi to take us to our reserved rooms at a place just south of Bahia, but just as the bus pulled around, another bus pulled in. The bus driver indicated to Maria in quick Spanish that the new bus would take us to Uvita and beyond, as it was heading back to Puerto Cortez, or south towards Panama.

We weren’t too sure of the exact location of the next place we had reserved, so I showed the bus driver its name. He told Maria that it was a little farther than Uvita, but he would drop us off right there. So we drove through the area between Dominical and Uvita, with its various beaches, Tico houses and scattered businesses. Uvita was much bigger than Dominical and more like an established, although sprawling village, with the Coast Highway plunging through the midst of a small business district. The bus continued on until we reached our destination, Hacienda Coope Agri. We were to stay in this friendly location most of the remainder of our short trip.

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It was ironic that since my original destination had been Uvita, I did not actually spend much time there. A beach is nearby, some ½ mile or so through the jungle (I’m not sure just where the trail to the beach is located) and there are a few roads that radiate from the highway into the jungle through Tico neighborhoods and past a few businesses and modest hostel / hotels. The occasional Gringo house looks out of place in this modest settlement.

Later in the week, with the aid of a local Taxi driver, we visited the Uvita Cataracts, a series of small falls located on a nice creek. Frankly, I would save my money and go elsewhere. The falls were small and the pools green or brown. The rocks were slippery and treacherous going for the unprepared. Our driver’s son, Joel, was able to climb the slippery rocks with aplomb, but I had a difficult time just walking on the slippery path down to the creek. There were some other visitors enjoying the cool waters and a few attempting to dive, jump or slide down the rocks into the larger pool.

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Being from the Pacific Northwest and a long-time hiker and backpacker, I’m used to seeing beautiful areas and water features. The cataracts did not impress. You had to pay to get into them as you have to pay to get into most features in the area, including the nearby Ballena National Parque. It was to this other feature that we ventured, but were unable to reach the famous Whale’s Tail, a reef-like structure far out from the beach which is often cut-off by high tides. The waters were too high this time as well, as they were for most of our stay, yet we walked out to a depth of over the knee with waves coming in from both sides and spraying us with salt water. Using some discretion in order to save our cameras, we chose to return to the main beach.  The area is popular with the locals, too, who wait until after the ticket office is formally closed!

A lesson learned in Costa Rica… don’t pay the full price until AFTER you arrive at your destination or the trip is done. Our taxi driver never fulfilled her end of the bargain and finishing up taking us to the agreed upon destinations. Most drivers are dependable… but use only the official taxis which outside of San Jose are red in color and marked with a yellow triangle. The bus drivers are also very helpful and business-like.

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Our temporary residence at the Hacienda was comfortable and we developed affectionate relationships with the Tico staff members, Christopher, Sonia and the chef, Omar. We were taken into the hearts of these wonderful people and feel like family. When Ticos accept you, you are family. No ifs, ands or buts. They are an open-hearted generous people.

During the remainder of our stay, we ended up going to a couple more nearby beaches, including Ventana and Tortuga, as well as a drive up the Coast Highway and back to the tourist destination “town” of Manuel Antonio. This “town” is strictly for tourists. From the looks of all the hostels, motels, hotels, cabinas, restaurants, surfer shops and tiny stores, it was clear that Manuel Antonio is NOT a Tico town. Nearby Quebos is the local Tico town, located downslope. Manuel Antonio is also a National Parque, requires an entrance fee and has lovely beaches and forest. We didn’t go into the park this time, not having the time to do so, but wandered around the steamy streets staring at all the Americanos who were wandering in bunches, either shepherded by a guide or on their own.

Costa Rica is a land of contrasts. There are the plush, gated residences and small communities of ex-pats in spotty areas, the tin-roofed Tico villages with their sprawling, haphazard neighbors filled with tiny colorful gardens, and busy little shopping areas. There are the huge ugly condominiums of Jaco… a popular tourist destination that the local bus driver warned us against. There are shiny office buildings and newer neighborhoods located in the suburbs around the complex, decrepit center of San Jose. There are shopping malls and mercados, neighborhoods fruterias (fruit stands) and Supermercados. There are expensive automobiles and rusty 4 x 4s (the only way to negotiate some of the rough secondary roads that are liberally spotted with huge rocks.

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We saw acres and acres of oil palm groves, fields of bananas, alongside modest little farms with bananas, coconuts, a few mangos and other fruit trees. Most roofs sported the colorful Claro sign of the local satellite television company. Many houses had laundry hanging outside if the weather allowed as few Ticos can afford dryers. Electricity is expensive, run by ICE, the national supplier of electricity. Few Tico homes have air conditioning or large refrigerators either, and many do not have ovens, only stove-tops. Most Ticos are blessed to have abundant food, most grown or made locally, pure water, good air and an environment that improves every day. The modest country has made huge strides in putting aside land for nature reserves and national parks, as well as increasing the amount of trees by some 25% in the country over the last decade.

Yet despite any lack of material wealth, we found the Tico people to be welcoming and open-hearted and more cognizant of the values of the heart than most Americans. Every night we heard much laughter and music radiating from nearby Tico houses, modest on the outside, but filled with love inside. With their roosters and chickens, cats and dogs, horses and an occasional cow, the Tico people in the country-side live a rich and simple life, growing and living off of locally grown produce, including coconuts, bananas and sugar cane.

After our time in Ballena was ended, we returned via the Tracopa Line to San Jose, leaving from the brand new and impressive bus station located in Uvita. The trip was more strenuous than usual as Ruta 27 was closed due to some unknown problem perhaps as a result of the landslides common to the area. The bus was forced to follow the older 27, a windy, dark and sometimes narrow road which was full of cars, trucks and buses all taking the alternate route. We drove into San Jose an hour late, exhausted, slept a little in a strange little hotel and were taken to our various destinations the next day by our solicitous driver, Achiles, who acted as our local protector and guide during our short stay in San Jose.

On my return to North America, I must say it was nice to be able to sleep in my own bed and to be greeted by my cats, but I’m already thinking about venturing forth again on an adventure of the heart.

I will say that I felt more enveloped with love and affection by the gentle Tico people who became my friends and soul family than I have ever felt with my fellow Americans. The Ticos respect and admire sensitive people such as myself and my friend, Maria, and showed to us what a true privilege it is to be fully accepted by these generous people.

Fin (for now)

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Eliza Ayres,

http://www.bluedragonjournal.com, All Rights Reserved.

Journal Entry 06.05.2015

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Journal Entry 06.05.2015

Home now.  Have 269 photos to sort as well as thoughts.  Trip turned out different than originally planned, but had a lovely if interesting time.  Costa Rica is a small country with many faces, most of them friendly.  Lots of rain periodically especially on Wednesday when riding the bus back to San Jose.  Quite the adventure for the challenged traveler.

WiFi coverage and lack of laptop weren’t conducive to attempting to publish anything and this trip was all about rest and experience… and meeting some wonderful new friends.

Much love to all,

Eliza

La Pura Vida!

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Journal Entry 05.21.2015

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Journal Entry 05.21.2015

88 energies.

How is everyone enjoying the Mercury Retrograde?

I saw this little photo today on the hiking blog which I still read periodically:

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Instead of “hanging” in the mountains, I’ll be splashing in the warm tropical waters of the Pacific Ocean.  It’s a big change from little ole Walla Walla and the wheat fields.

Be prepared for big shifts in the coming days.  A financial reset is on its way to your neighborhood.  Have extra cash on hand in case that bank card doesn’t work for a while.

Still packing… will sort through things again tonight.  Still getting my head around the fact that I’m going at all.

I KNOW that my life is going to change BIG time as a result of taking this trip.

See you on the other side!

Eliza

 

Journal Entry 05.20.2015

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Journal Entry 05.20.2015

I stepped out of my usual weekday activities these past two days to attend annual in-service training for work.  Just the slight adjustment was enough to make me realize that I probably won’t be working at the prison for much longer.

I’ve been fairly silent of late.  Prepping for “The Trip” and generally letting go of a lot of the emotions that keep surfacing for surrender.  I don’t really have the capacity to write much now.

On Sunday, I’ll be off for nearly two weeks.  I am NOT taking the laptop with me.  This is time to reflect on new possibilities in a totally different environment, both inner and outer.

The cycle of Ascension is accelerating and so is the velocity of change.  The earth herself is moving and adjusting, expanding into 5D and people are waking up.  Big changes are in store for the banking system and all other institutions.

During the trip, I may pop in on FaceBook once in awhile, but WiFi coverage is not always as reliable as at home.  If I feel like it, I might post a photo or two if I can figure out how do so on my tablet.

Meanwhile, take the time to relax and rest as your bodies process the latest energy surges.  I know that I’ve been feeling tired lately and more than a bit spacey.

Much love to all,

Eliza

Journal Entry 05.13.2015

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“Iris”

Journal Entry 05.13.2015

Synchronicities happen when you’re in the flow; it’s as simple as that. And when you can’t make things happen, it might be because you are trying too hard.

Last night, I was moved to listen to one of Bill Ballard’s videos from last summer (see: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w0yt4cDmr24). And this morning, I watched Sandra Walter’s latest: https://franheal.wordpress.com/2015/05/12/sandra-walter-embodiment-how-to-lose-your-mind-without-losing-your-mind-part-1-may-10-2015/.

Both of these presentations held little golden nuggets… or should I say diamonds for me.

One, Bill’s presentation was a kind of “get off your butt if you REALLY want to ascend ‘cuz it ain’t happen’ if you just sit there!” In other words, don’t expect someone to “grant” or “gift” you ascension. There isn’t any ascended masters coming to the earth plane to show you a life pod that will miraculously change your physical body from 3D carbon-base to 5D crystalline. Nor is a shipload or fleet of galactic visitors going to “save” your world or you… for the simple reason that those ascended masters and galactics are US… our future or multidimensional Selves!

This ascension thing is an INside job… within each person who REALLY wants to ascend.

In other words, all the excuses, dalliances, dreams and schemes, avoidances and perturbations of the egoic mind won’t get you there, if 5D+ is where you’re headed.

Yet, ascension is FAR easier than it was for the masters who came before us, thanks to the hard work of the forerunners, those who are carving out a pathway through the golden Christic light of cosmic intelligence.

Christ Light is a level of consciousness not a person. No “Christed” figure is coming to save you. Ascension is about SELF-mastery, mastery of the body, mind and heart; mastery of the four lower bodies (the number varies according to various teachings) and activation of the MerKaBa.

Last night as I lay in bed, I consciously began to draw light into my chakras, activating them with white light. This morning, as I watched Sandra’s piece I “saw” a piece of the puzzle fit into my understanding of ascension as she described the Diamond Center of the High Heart.

Mind you, I have probably listened and seen this piece demonstrated before, but I didn’t UNDERSTAND it until reaching a certain, critical level of frequency myself. That’s the way this journey works. First comes the prep, then you stand on the verge… and then “wham!” And suddenly there is comprehension, all in a moment.

Diamond heart… simply visualize a diamond in the midst of your High Heart, half way between the soft spot in your throat and the level of your physical heart (which is slightly off to the left of center). As you focus on this area, you will (might) begin to feel it heat up. As it does, pull in golden light, move it through the center and then RADIATE it OUT in six directions, down into the earth, up into the sky, left, right, front and back. This simple meditation, which I did while sitting at my desk at work in the prison, creates a strong field of pure golden bliss and is the BEGINNING of what it feels like to be really ascended while still living in a physical body.

And I was there, for moments… going back inward to refresh and focus… and feeling REALLY happy and light-hearted all day. I was interacting with my co-workers, doing my regular work and enjoying being alive. What bliss!

Of course, before the bliss comes the cleansing period(s) that EVERYONE must go through. We’re not just cleansing for ourselves but also for untold thousands of other individuals, including our own karmic and genetic lineages. When that’s done and for a lot of the forerunners it is or will soon be done, it’s activation and bliss time… as well as moving into SERVICE for Gaia and humanity.

Sandra noted that many people ask her why she hasn’t disappeared into 5D, like was done in olden times when a master ascended like Ezekiel before Elisha or Jesus before his disciples. Well, we are here to SERVE, to act as gatekeepers, activators, way showers for the rest of those who wish to ascend. By holding the Door open for others and demonstrating that this CAN be done while still functioning in a daily existence, we SERVE.

Even the forerunners and way-showers are functioning at different levels. Each of us has our own timing and motivation, as ascension is not a race. It is simply that in moving from Age (Pisces) to another (Aquarius) is a particularly potent window of opportunity for mass ascension. Still, each person who wants (or thinks that they want) to ascend does need to put forth some personal effort.

And so, apparently I’m on the verge and having felt the “bliss” as described by Bill, Sandra, Alexander and others… understand now where and why the effort is SO worth it.

Understand also, that we have ALL ascended before, on this planet and others, through various dimensions and timelines. You KNOW how to do this.

When I saw and heard Sandra’s description of the Diamond Heart meditation and its pure simplicity, I laughed with delight. Ascension is NOT hard and yet it is. There is that paradox thing. It does take intent and mind you, I’ve been working on this cleansing, clearing thing for DECADES, ever since the… well, probably most of my life.

There is NO need to struggle, but there is a need to surrender and BE. You do know this. We are all Masters in embodiment – which is why the ascended masters aren’t coming to assist – they’re already here. Each of us who are now in embodiment is most likely a fractal of one or more ascended masters, archangels, angels, elementals, galactics, etc. This is the reality of our multidimensional beingness, which you begin to touch into when you get past the point where I am now. Worlds and dimensions beyond this one are revealed, through lucid dreams, during meditation, and during visions.

There is SO much waiting for you – won’t you break through to the other side and join those who have gone ahead!

Namaste.

I AM Eliza (aka Tazjima Amariah Kumara)

©All Rights Reserved, Elizabeth Ayres Escher, www.bluedragonjournal.com

The Angels: Living with Paradox

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The Angels: Living with Paradox

Note to Reader:  It seems that whenever I determine not to do something, I end up doing it.  That is living with paradox and being willing to follow the ebb and flow of our inner being…

We are here alongside you in the eternal Now even as you step into a new sense of self. You are re-membering who and what you were, are and will be beyond the temporary boundaries of the flesh that you wear.

You are not your body.

You are not the ideas and conditioning of your childhood and culture.

You are magnificent beyond words and yet few of you have any conception of your true nature.

You ARE a fractal part of “God”, that unknowable essence of Creation that brought this world and trillions beyond trillions of others into being.

What are you?

Are you a man, woman or child?

You have been all of these and have lived in many races, tribes, countries and cultures. And yet these definitions do not encompass the real You, the one that exists outside of time and space.

Are you black, white, brown, red or yellow? The color of your skin does not determine or define or limit the real You. Flesh is but an envelope sealing in the corporeal material… what appears to be solid, yet is not, that makes up your temporary home on this planet.

Are you a star seed, a way shower, a gatekeeper… someone who is just waking up… someone who is still asleep? These are conditions and labels that have nothing to do with the real You.

Step beyond the need to label, to define, to limit, to divide, to section off… one from another, individuals from groups, groups from other groups. Step beyond duality, the need to defend yourself, your family, your country from an enemy “out there”.

All that you see is a part of your body. All that you are unable to see with your physical body is a part of your body… that body that exists outside of form and limitation. You contain within the Universe and the Universe contains you within itself.

To live in Unity with Self, your multidimensional Self, is to accept the existence of magic and to live with paradox. Not all is what it seems.

The chair that you sit upon is not solid. It is a whirling spiral of electrons and protons, united by magnetic forces and taking the appearance of solidity within a collective hologram.

You are here, now, because you have chosen to be here, for a specific purpose or many.

You are more than your past lives. You are more than your existence in other dimensions and star cultures. You are more than the summation of your days here, within this lifetime.

What you see as “the world” is a result of a collective consensus. That consensus is changing, altering and transforming. How quickly the changes come depends on your input, your intent, your willingness to expand your consciousness to see, feel and be more every day. This is a process that is both individual and collective. Let us say here that some of the collective have decided to step out of the collective consensus and to act as way-showers for those who will follow, in their own way and with their own timing.

You have NO conception of how powerful you are.

You are not alone, either. You are about to be joined by those who have watched over your evolution for untold centuries and years.

Everything that you think you know, what you have been told is a lie. Only you can determine what you DO know, by going within and taking stock with the true compass of your being, the intuitive voice of spirit that speaks to you through heart and body.

The voice of spirit is soft and gentle. Many people chose to ignore the nudges, the whispers, the gentle tugs at the heart strings.

Those people who are listening often appear to do things in opposition to what is generally acceptable in society. This is because they have chosen to no longer identify or to be defined by the brittle boundaries of the collective. They are reaching for what cannot yet be seen or felt by those who listen to the loud voices outside.

In your society, love has been defined as being accepting, selfless, conditioned on getting something in return (gifts, devotion, etc.). Love is far more vast and complicated than a simple emotion or feeling.

What is the force that binds planets and stars together? Love.

What is the force that keeps the galaxy rotating around its center? Love.

What is the force that brings life into being and destroys the form only to bring it into a higher frequency? Love.

Love is.

As those who have been called to move into a higher way of being on your planet seem to separate and go their own way, leaving family and friends behind, understand this, beloved ones, that they have received the Call of Love, the call to serve Gaia.

Gaia is at the center of a determined and preordained effort to bring light and freedom to this Galaxy. Many there are the worlds that have been darkened by the shadows that have disturbed your world and impeded the ability for humanity to evolve more quickly into a fully conscious galactic civilization.

Many of the individuals who are now moving into greater service for Gaia are in training for other roles, in other places, timelines and worlds, far beyond your skies. Let them go.

There is nothing in your world that is permanent, which can remain the same forever. To think that it is possible to retain a friendship or relationship “forever” is to limit your choices as you grow and change. This is especially true now. It also does not mean that the particular relationship cannot undergo changes and transitions and transformations if each individual or members of a particular group can allow the changes to occur organically and without judgment.

Paradox exists and you will come to know it better even as each of you strives to come into a renewed balance between the masculine part of self (logic, rational) and the feminine (creativity, intuition). You can use both on the path and will need to, as the masculine lends strength and boundaries to the creative process that might otherwise scatter before the winds. It is when one energy dominates and seeks to repress the other that imbalance occurs.

So it is with the return of the essence of the Divine Feminine to your planet that it appears chaos is ruling the day. Lives and institutions are being turned upside down and sideways… yet it is a personal choice for each individual as they decide to flow with the changes and transformations or to resist.

Your ancestors knew that the physical world is subject to cycles. There is an end to all things, but there is also a beginning to be found within the end. This is paradox and it is becoming your new reality.

The energies of the Cosmos are flowing and crashing upon the shores of your world, causing the break-up of entropy. The destructive forces of creation have been unleashed. You may not understand that it is for your benefit to let go of all that no longer serves you. It is a necessary part of growth and expansion into a higher frequency range. That which belonged to the old energy will no longer function in the new.

Perhaps you have lost a loved one recently to disease. Perhaps you have lost your job. Perhaps you are feeling confused, lost, at a loss for words and sense of direction. What to do? Where to go? Where should I turn?

You know the answers even though at first you may not like them, for the silent voice that emanates from higher self pushes and tugs at you to expand. Whether or not you obey and commence the transformation is determined by you… at least at first. For when change is resisted from within, it will manifest from without.

What you are seeing in your world is changing, coming apart at the seams. What has been hidden is now being revealed. Where there is still darkness is being shown. Many are the revelations to come, many unpleasant as much has been hidden from the general populace. And yet… all of you are in this together. Much will be demanded of you in the days to come. Much will be dependent on how you choose to react or flow with the changes that are here… not just coming, but here now.

The definition of “life” as lived formerly within the rigid paradigm of 3D is no longer. You can re-create yourself and re-member the wholeness of what you are in the greater part of your Being. Allow the energies of heaven (the higher dimensions) take anchor in your flesh and transform your consciousness, waking you up to what exists beyond this narrow and limited view of the Universe. By anchoring to heaven and earth, you become a conduit of powers of creation.

These powers can only be used by one who has surrendered the little will (the ego) and lives by the laws of the Universe, which are not the same laws to which you are now subjected. You lose yourself to become your Self. You join the One and become the Many, while at the same time retaining an individualized consciousness. Paradox. This is unity consciousness. This is love. And this is but one step on the way to reuniting with ALL THAT IS.

Feel the way through the words that we have used. Your language is limited, by design, to fit the paradigm from which you are now emerging. You have not yet mastered the language of the Stars or the ability to convey your thoughts through images and symbols. You will arrive there, eventually, even as you surrender the life that you have known before to another one.

Will you step through the Doorway that leads to the Infinite? It is your choice.

We are the Angels and we bid you well on your inner journey.

Namaste.

All Rights Reserved, Elizabeth Ayres Escher, http://www.bluedragonjournal.com