Eliza: Musings on a Gray Day



Eliza:  Musing On a Gray Day

This piece started with the phrase, “under the weather”, a precise if elusive (paradox here!) description of how my body is presently feeling as we (me as consciousness, body as vehicle for said consciousness) work together incorporating the latest energy influx from the Cosmos. So, as an investigation into language, at least my own, American English, the piece evolved a life of its own. If you have a short attention span, come back and read it in sections. Best of luck those who love to text message on your cellphone. I detest cellphones and happen to enjoy long, long novels and it is an attitude reflected in my writing. I make no apologies, but smile and lovingly offer you a sample of my musings…

Lately as my awareness has been expanding, my attention has been piqued by some of the unconscious phrasing that we use in our daily language, such as the title above, “under the weather.” As Americans using our version of English (and it is different than the Brits and Aussies!) we understand that when a person says that they’re feeling “under the weather” then they are feeling ill or fatigued.

I have always been intrigued by words, but recently, I’ve begun to take notice of language patterns that people use, for the most part, in an extremely unconscious manner, not realizing that words hold power. And the unconscious misuse of words continues to hold us in the third dimension matrix, even as our thoughts and actions do. It is up to each of us to learn to use words in a different way, an empowering way. And the best way to start is to stop talking without thinking first or feeling first into a situation. The old mouth blurt is the best way to get yourself into trouble, saying something that you don’t really mean… or did you really mean what you just said?

I’m as guilty as any person in doing this, although I am daily becoming more aware of what is going on. Part of the process of waking up is to observe what you do, say, or don’t do and don’t say throughout the day. A great deal more of the waking process is in becoming aware of how much we project our emotions and thoughts towards other people, blaming them for our circumstances, when it is our decisions and actions or lack thereof that have placed us in a particular, sometimes uncomfortable space.

Another blogger suggested that we need to be more like owls, say little and observe a lot, a wise notion if you excuse the pun. “Wise old owl”… another phrase that is embedded in our language, but from whence did it come? Have you ever stopped to think on these things and how language binds us or frees us, depending on how we use it or not?

The owl is a bird of the night. If you are a birder or a hiker or just someone who loves spending time in nature, you might come upon an owl perched in the bole of a tree, its body hunched, sleepily regarding the world and waiting patiently for twilight to come when its primary food sources (mice and voles) come out of their hiding places to scamper around for their food. Not all owls eat mice and voles, but you get the idea; the owl waits for its opportunity and food. It watches, observes, moving that marvelously designed neck that allows it to swivel around almost entirely to view its environment. It watches patiently, without betraying its position to potential prey and then it launches its great wings (always bigger than the owl’s body) into the air so it might pluck its meal off the forest floor.

Well, I’m not suggesting that we all go into the forest to discover our next meal, merely that we take some moments to observe where we are, what’s going on and then make a choice to “enter the fray” or not. Now that the third dimensional matrix has been disassembled (and it has) we have the opportunity to walk through our former limitations, but only if we choose to. If we keep ourselves bound up by continuing to use old ways of thinking, doing (without thinking), being unwilling to observe our feelings and acting unconsciously, we will continue to play out the old melodies and actions of the now departed third dimensional matrix… at least until another energy update comes along and strips away another old layer of crud from our astral or emotional bodies.

If you find yourself in a situation where you are expecting yourself to have an emotional sting, don’t be surprised if you do not “feel” the same. With each step up in frequency, bits and pieces of the “old” you are being stripped away by the massive energies. What is happening to each of us is mirrored in what is happening in nature, with the massive floods, storms, fires, volcanic eruptions … your astral body is being methodically deconstructed and is finally almost rebuilt. The process has already begun on your physical body… but the punch line here is that the final transformation of your carbon physical body cannot (and I repeat) cannot begin or complete while your thinking processes remain mired in the old way of thinking. If you continue to act and talk and think in the old ways, your physical body will begin to deconstruct and it will no longer serve your soul as a vehicle.


I am not writing these words to send your emotions or thoughts into a tailspin (a term from aviation, I believe!) but to encourage you to begin a quest of reviewing the patterns and mannerisms that you use in an unconscious manner during the day. Are you aware of what is going on? Are you in your body when you are driving your car? Did you actually want to say that (whatever you said) to your child? Did you want to lash out at your spouse or partner in that manner? Or could you have stepped back, observed, taken a deep breath, consciously grounded yourself, forgiven yourself for a momentary lapse, seen yourself in the other person and simply smiled, at their folly or your own?

Mastery is not won by blundering through the world, through our daily life, with our eyes shut. And by “eyes” I do not merely mean our physical eyes, for we “see” with the entirety of our bodies. We are not just our bodies; we are the consciousness that is temporarily housed within these marvelous vehicles of great complexity. We need to learn to see ourselves in a different way and in so doing, see our world in an entirely different manner.

Language evolved (or of late, devolved) from patterns of sound. Once, a few years back, I did a paper on the root races for a class that I was taking. Even as a youngster, I was fascinated by the movements of people, where they came from, what brought them into an area, how they mixed or interacted with the indigenous people, by the broad patterns presented in stories, personal and those written by novelists. I didn’t find the stories written by historians to be very interesting; they always appeared brittle, harsh and written to give laud to the victors of any situation or as propaganda for whoever was financing the book deal… Well, as a child I liked stories with some imagination, stories that had layers of meaning and in which there were layers of life, some mythical and some quite ordinary.

Well, in this paper, I came upon a description of how language started or at least the theosophists’ version. In this version, archangelic beings, the Masters of Venus, came to the planet as the earlier versions of humanity came into physical form. They first taught women to “see” with their physical eyes as before this time, our ancestors saw through their third eyes, not their physical ones which were still developing into their present form.

Do you remember the story about the natives not recognizing ships when they arrived at the shores of America? The ships were objects that were not within their collective understanding; therefore, the indigenous didn’t “see” them, at least at first, until they saw the hairy men dressed in strange garments embarking from the wooden hulks.

Well, imagine for yourself, the first people to ever use their physical eyes. What was seen was labeled, the tree was given a name, the sea another one. However, what the beings who taught the women conveyed to their students was that words have power and weren’t meant to be used in a foolish manner. Obviously we have forgotten the inherent power of words and the vibrations that are behind them or we have been made to forget that useful lesson.

The first words taught to the early women by their Teachers were used in a magical fashion. Through the use of these magic words and guided imagery, our early ancestors could and did manipulate the world around them. Our ancestors were able to manifest and transform their environment, but they did so under the guidance of great light beings and with reverence. The secrets of the power of words were retained by a few within each tribe, often a wise woman, who guided and taught her “daughters” as she had been taught by her inner guides, to the benefit of her tribe. This way of doing things persisted quite a long time, until the primitive mind began to develop and humanity began to individuate into singular beings. As the intellect developed, so did the egoic “mind” (which actually resides in the first chakra!) at least until their egoic desire bodies got the best (or worst) of them and then our ancestors, Atlantean and Lemurian began to manipulate the world and to purposely use misaligned energies to gain power over others.


Of course, this is a story. Our true history has been hidden or destroyed by those who wish to control us today. With the vast changes now currently underway throughout the earth sphere, we have the opportunity to take back the power of our ancestors and their teachers, to regain mastery of the world, our world, if we chose to wake up and observe and gain insights into our own actions and those of others. Each of us contains within the seeds of our future, but we have to plant them, till them, and water them so they will grow into new ways of living, so that we may experience the reality of our inner most dreams. We need to shed the old ways of thinking and the unconscious misuse of language, directed at self or others, and become aware of the power of words and of our own power to create.

We are those archangels who guided our ancestors; we have purposefully dropped our vibratory rates to be able to squeeze into a small physical body. I say small, because the vastness of our true beings is limitless. We are pure consciousness and we are one with Father / Mother God, Creator and Source or whatever labels you want to place upon those who have made us conscious beings. We are individuals and we are a collective. Together, we are repairing the great Christic Light Matrix around this planet as she rises, again, into the higher frequencies. But… gotta love that humble English word… but, we have to master our thoughts before we can rise, ourselves, in frequency. It is not a given, it is not a free ticket, the process that some call ascension.

Yes, there are wayshowers, gatekeepers, light workers and the like, but what is each of us? We are but masters, striving to regain our mastery over our creations, in some cases relearning the secret ways of our ancestors and in others embellishing our new creations. There are those of us, even among the ranks of light workers and futurists, who see us following the slow evolutionary pace of our ancestors, taking thousands or millions of years to evolve into our future. Or, there are the persons, now numbering in the thousands, who are taking the path of alchemy and are in the process of learning to use words and imagery in a way that opens up a new opportunity for humanity, a new world. We are walking a new path, but also an ancient one, where words have power and we have the power to wield them for the benefit of ourselves and eventually, the whole, as more people come into awareness and discover the path that has been set out vibrationally for them by the stalwart pioneers and wayshowers.

So, the next time you go to say something “off the top of your head”, pause a moment, consider the possible effect of your words and the energies behind them, to hurt, mollify or empower, and choose to say them or not. You do have the power to change your world, but first you need to wake up and take that power, not with a greedy, willful hand, but with a reverent and open heart. Be thankful that you have the opportunity to experience whatever you are experiencing now in your life and realize that you do have choices, with which you do have the power to create what you want in your world. Also, allow that this is a process of relearning and releasing everything that you were taught through the old ways of doing things. Be patient with yourself. Forgive yourself any lapses. Be easy on yourself and learn to feel into the love that lives as a golden seed within your breast. It will spring forth and blossom if you give it the attention and nurturing that it requires.

The old ways of controlling others for personal gain are falling apart; the gaps in the old systems are showing more clearly every day. It is just a matter of time before the old institutions will lie on the ground like decaying carcasses; right now they are being artificially propped up by the strained egos of those who detest the rest of humanity. Pity them for they know not what they do. See them for what they truly are–initiators and goads to get humanity to wake up. Without the presence of darkness in our world, complacency would continue to rule the day.

It is easy to fall into the old ways of thinking and doing, by detesting these warped beings, but, again… pause and consider. Our erstwhile controllers are in a panic. Some are still in fighting mode, trying to write laws so they can control and repress the rest of us and continue to poison us through various venues… Others are attempting to surrender, while retaining their own freedom and position. It’s like watching a crime story unfold, almost amusing in the predictability of the players. Well, it’s time that we stopped being predictable and in turning the tables on our erstwhile controllers and becoming like them. Instead, we need to go in another direction, one totally unexpected. Like Frodo, we are taking the Ring of Power into Mordor, to destroy it forever so it has no more power over us. By deciding to master ourselves, we are choosing to destroy our need to control others and to accept that we are powerful, that we can be responsible for our actions, our thoughts and words.


We can change, move from the old patterns to a new direction in this lifetime that has been granted us, this marvelous window of opportunity to expand, reconnect with Source, and to grow back into our mastery, which has always existed even whilst we have been temporarily submerged in the most difficult of our various embodiments on this planet. Realize that just by being here, we… yes, you, have changed the old prophecies, negated the expected outcomes that have been written down by the sages of every people throughout the ages. You were entirely unexpected. And now, the world has a chance to move into an unexpected future… one that has been seen by seers and yet is still in the process of changing, altering and becoming, because of you, the dreamer.

We are light beings, now undergoing a process of transformation, from living in a heavy low frequency world to one that is quickened with light and love, where there is color and textures and life, unknown except in the dreams and the imaginations of artists and musicians. We need to step forward and upward as each of the gateways opens for us, leave behind the old ways of thinking and being, and open to our own inner power and our connection with the rest of life.

Expansion of one’s horizons comes when you decide that you are no longer limited to being or acting the way that has come to be expected of you, by yourself, by your family, by co-workers and those people that you encounter throughout your day. The process of allowing yourself to be powerful can be scary at first, but with practice, you will start feeling better about yourself, when you are able to make decisions about what you want to do with your life, to discover what it is that makes your heart sing. It won’t make some of the people in your old life happy, but you never know. Just strive to be who you are and who you really are…

You are BIG, but first you need to grow into those shoes, slowly, allowing your body time to incorporate the frequency upgrades. Rest when needed, let go of what no longer interests you, be willing to change, expand and grow, no matter what your physical age is… there are no more limitations binding you or demanding that you do what other people expect of you. You are the only one limiting your choices. You are allowed to change, but only if you want to step forward and break through the illusion that has momentarily ensnared you.

Resolve to wake up and pay attention. Through your attention, focus and intent to change, to know yourself better, you will begin a process of transformation that will never end, but you need to make the decision to go there.

So… where did this all start? It started with the phrase, “under the weather”, which is how I am feeling right now, with a sore throat and tired body, as I adjust to another and this time, massive influx of new energies. It takes time for the body to adjust to the step up in energies and not all will adjust – there will be many who are unable to make the adjustment. These words are not meant to bring fear into your heart but to allow you to waken to the awareness that you are the driver of your chariot. Does it have the wheels of fully opened and functioning chakras or are the bodies misaligned and unbalanced?

Are you unwilling to let go of old baggage out of a need to punish yourself or another? Or are you ready to let go, forgive, learn from your lessons, and become the master that you already are by recognizing such? If you still linger in fear and judgment, then the incoming energies will meet the pre-existing misaligned thought-forms stored within the physical body and will manifest as disease or as severe circumstances appearing to impact the life form from the outside. Only through forgiveness and compassion can the old patterns be transmuted, transformed and realigned. Let go; there is no thing to fear.

There is no outside of you; your being encompasses the world and beyond. You are the dreamer and the dream; wake up and “smell the coffee”. Step beyond the matrix of old thinking and into the new dawn of the ever present Now that exists all around you, a bright world filled with love, light, beauty and abundance.

We can expand or contract, roll up like hedge hogs in a defensive mode or become the masters that we already are, in the higher frequency worlds. Step into the light and love that surrounds you, which defines and delineates a world filled with magic. You are light and love; you contain within your high heart the seed of a return to mastery, your Christic Consciousness. You are the Second Coming, but only if you step forward and reclaim what is yours.

Right now, I feel the presence of the angels and masters who serve as my guides. They speak to you through these words for all those who live in this world are watched over by their own set of guides. See yourself as being worthy of such devotion and attention. These beings know your worth; now it is time for you to see it also. Although our bodies need to rest as they adjust, our inner horizons can expand without limit. I hope to meet you someday on that path that leads to a city of light, through a multi-hued forest of great trees that loom above like Home Tree of the Navi. Our imagination is unlimited, our future is unlimited, if we but give flight to our dreams and release our fears.

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Many blessings go with you on your journey, wherever it takes you. Namasté.


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White Cloud: Opening to Spirit



White Cloud: Opening to Spirit with Personal Thoughts from Eliza

In the year 2013, I experienced an interesting encounter with the spirits or souls of departed Wallowa Band Nez Perce or Niimupu (The People) as expressed in their own language. As I had been camping several days in the beloved land of Wallowa, it wasn’t entirely unexpected, but not consciously looked for. When I got out of my car, after being tickled by a sudden inward nudge, I climbed up the side of the humped grassy moraine, thinking that I would take some photos of the mountains. Chief Joseph Mountain loomed up just to the south, Mt. Howard to the southeast, and Mt. Ruth to the southwest. The tilted flatlands of the Wallowa Valley extended to the west, north, and east. Beyond were the golden prairie of the Zumwalt and the deeply carved canyons of the Imnaha and Snake River drainages. It was a bold land, a powerful land and one that has attracted strong people over the ages. One of the larger bands of the great Nez Perce people, the Non-Treaty Wallowa Band, once claimed this land as their own until forced by the U.S. government to give it up in the late 19th century.

Slowly, very slowly, the Wallowa Band of the Nez Perce Nation are reestablishing a presence in the valley and the region, by buying Joseph Canyon, a deep rugged canyon that once served as a corridor to travel to and from summer camp in the Wallowa Valley to the winter camps in the warmer sheltered canyons on the Grand Ronde, Imnaha and Snake Rivers. The Nez Perce are also actively forging relationships with the communities of the Wallowa area, as well as with the visitors who are drawn to the beauty of the area. They are in the process of developing a Wallowa Band Nez Perce Trail Interpretative Center Site, where they intend to hold annual gatherings, teach visitors about the Nez Perce War and the flight of the Wallowa Band, as well as develop a community for their own far-flung peoples, the local communities and visitors.

Now, why would I mention this? Well, this is happening in what I could call, my neighborhood, the extended area of the Blue Mountains and related communities. It is also a manifestation of the cycle of return. The people, disenfranchised by a distant and disinterested government, stripped of their homeland and ultimately driven through river, mountain, canyon, and plains to be stripped unceremoniously of their freedom, belongings and even lives, are now regrouping, coming together and growing something for the future of their tribe and the rest of us. It is a positive outreaching that the Nez Perce are accomplishing in the Wallowa area. It has meaning for all of us. An entire people can overcome the trauma of the past and heal, and in doing so, help all of us to rediscover our personal power to be individuals and live together in beauty and harmony.

So, I topped the hill and looked out over the trees that line one of the numerous irrigation ditches in the area. The brown and red slopes of the imposing Chief Joseph Mountain rose above, etched against the blue summer skies, with the forested bench and lower slopes easing towards the lateral moraines that line the shore of Wallowa Lake. As I dropped down the hill, now beginning to realize that the area of the site, Iwetemlaykin, was far larger than I had previously thought. I also felt a rising sense of grief wash over me. It was not my own, but the lingering effect of the history of the place.


Arriving at the bottom of the slope, I stepped onto a flatter area and immediately sensed a presence that seemed to be looking through my eyes. It was male, strong, dignified, compassionate, quiet but at the same time, grieving for what was now gone. I understood this presence to be one of the Niimupu and part of the Wallowa Band who were driven from this place. One must understand the power of place and the intense love that the people had (and have) for this place, a love that I was beginning to touch within myself. In the words of Young Chief Joseph, “I buried him (Old Chief Joseph) in that valley of the winding water. I love that land more than all the rest of the world.”

Together, we walked along the gravel path that edged a tiny grouping of trees. The sense of sharing space with another being was very strong. I could also “see” him; tall, dark-skinned, strong angular bony face, dark eyes, black hair, but felt more of his presence with me. We talked. I asked for a name and received, “White Cloud.” I accepted this but also sensed he did not wish to reveal what was no longer important to him, his true name.

Without thinking, I made a call to Archangel Michael to free any wandering spirits lingering in the place due to past trauma. As I climbed back up another portion of the moraine, I felt a release of some of the sense of grief and a feeling of gratitude and thanks filled me. As I reached the crest of the hill, I saw a movement to the west of where I stood and realized that it was a bear. Surprised, I prepared my camera in the hope of capturing a shot or two of my find.

It was a young black bear, gleaming reddish-brown in the sunlight. The sighting, coming so close upon my prayer, was to me, at any rate, a sign from the spirits of the place. The bear, especially reddish ones, are one of my power animals, a being of healing power and quiet strength. I knew that I was being thanked for being there and for making prayer on behalf of the people who once called this place sacred. And no, I never felt any fear for my safety. I seldom do when in nature.

I left that place filled with my own longing; to return again.

The next morning, I woke to feel my heart center burning. It is a sign to me that a presence wishes to speak with me. Being in that space of betwixt and between, when we walk in two worlds, the land of dreams and what passes for our present-day reality, I am particularly sensitive to receiving messages, not necessarily in language, but downloads of light frequencies, as well as feelings and sensations,  rushing through my body. Often, my body feels very, very hot, like the Kundalini fires are rushing through my meridians and power centers. So it was this morning. I had visitors. Plural. Five visitors. And now, here is their message delivered to me in a non-verbal fashion, through their “spokesperson”, White Cloud:

(Remember; always use your own discernment when reading any channeled message.)

A Message from White Cloud, via Eliza

I AM White Cloud. I come in peace for all humanity. I have walked upon the land in human form, as a man who was a chief of a proud people, one of many who served the people and protected the land upon which we lived. Now, I walk the path of Spirit and act as a guide to many who are open to being taught and receiving instruction from the realms of light. We serve the many; we teach the few who in turn will teach the many to see as we see and feel as we feel. We do not control, coerce or cajole, for we have been the unwilling recipients of these energies extending from others who lived in fear and hated the sight of a free and proud people. Instead, we embrace the path of peace and the way of community, growing relationships between individuals, the people and the lands in which they live.


We are a collective of spirit, who has lived lives most recently as those called Native Americans, the indigenous people living on the lands now called North America. We stood in the way of the westward flow of immigrants, who, in fleeing sore circumstances in their own native lands, now sought to find new ones. Some of these new people were willing to live with us in peace, ranching the land, raising cattle and horses. Others sought greedily to seize the wealth of the land for themselves. They wanted to tear the earth open, seeking gold, silver, and jewels for instant wealth. Others wished to plow the grasslands and sow crops. We tried to tell them that the soils were poor and only supported the wild grasses; that there were long periods of drought and short hot summers, but our words were ignored.

We were in the way of “progress”. The settlers wanted the land and our cattle and horses for their own. Being “Indians” we were considered by many who thought shallowly that we were subhuman; we did not deserve to thrive in these beautiful lands. And so, the government that had promised us these lands “for eternity” allowed the settlers to move us from them. And we were chased headlong through canyon, mountain and plain with an entire army after us.

Men, women, children, old ones, horses, and cattle died along the trail of tears, marked by the debris of a once proud people. We were followed by the weary, angry and confused soldiers who also died, from heat, cold, exposure and hardship and the occasional skirmish when our forces met each other. In the end, we stood defeated, but although we were scattered to the four winds, our people won the battle; we won the hearts of the people who now saw us as a symbol for what was the core desire of every American, the opportunity to live peacefully in freedom.

Today your world stands on the brink of great change and opportunity. The winds of change are tearing apart the veils of illusion that supported the foundation of the “modern” world. Its institutions are toppling and being exposed as bastions of deceit and corruption. The few have controlled the many and still the masses in some places like these United States are mind-controlled, locked into fear, corrupted by social conditioning into believing that they need to listen to someone outside of themselves for direction. Again, we stand in the way, but this time we have no bodies to destroy, no lands to seize. We are truly free from fear and while we would love to walk upon our beloved hills, we have chosen to remain in the land of spirit so we might serve those who are in human bodies now.

The headlines of the media sources are filled with fear-mongering stories designed to keep people from acting out of their best interest. It is desired by your so-called leaders to keep the people unsettled and open to be abused by authority. We have experienced such treatment. One can only oppose this kind of behavior and thinking by being strong and flexible; not by fighting, but by coming into one’s individual power. This way of being seems contradictory to all the fears being projected in your direction. It is natural to want to fight or flee; it is part of the hard-wiring that exists in herd animals for their survival, but you are not a herd animal – you are a human being, a soul temporarily housed in a physical vehicle. You have free will and with that will, intent and focus, you can create new opportunities and expand your world far beyond the boundaries in which your leaders and their controllers attempt to bind you.


Fear is a product of the linear mind. Fear was first used to keep you physically safe. In times of danger, you will feel a knot or tightness in your belly (abdomen); this is how your body communicates to you that you need to do something to avoid looming danger. However, this bodily function has been turned against you and used to control you from wanting to venture forth and to escape the unseen bonds. So now you must set aside the linear mind and discover the place where no thought exists, within your heart center. There, without words, you will discover how to recreate and direct your attention and focus, to become as quiet as a still mountain lake; to reflect into your waking consciousness the wisdom of your higher self.

It is one thing to think yourself as being an individual with free will; it is another to actually be free, free of fear, free of feeling obligated to take on other people’s energies, free to live as you want, free to be in command of your desires. Freedom does not mean that you have a right to seize from another person anything that you want, but that is how your leaders act. It is not the way of the spiritual person to do such things. A person who is control of one’s base desires will intuitively know how not to interfere, how to work cooperatively, how to dwell in peace even with those who are uncomfortable around their presence.

A man who is at peace with himself is seen as a threat to some for they jealously wish for that peace themselves but do not feel that they deserve it. The sense of self-hatred, fear, and loathing looms large for these unsettled beings and so they seize the belongings of others, thinking that by having more they will be protected from the chaos that is just around the corner. Destruction always comes to these people, in one form or another, because it is self-created, but they do not understand. They blame their circumstances and difficulties always on others, often on those who appear weaker than themselves. In doing so, they expose their own weakness. We see this attitude being played out today at the national level, as the United States imperialism plays out against the rest of the world and is increasingly being isolated by its war-mongering and attempts to intimidate and control other states. It worked in the past, but people are changing. The time for empires is over; the time for cooperation between peoples is now, here, for the sake of future generations and the healing of our Mother Earth.

Stand tall, dear ones, and reach for the light. Discover the connections that you have with the earth, with your own heart, and with each other. Live in peace, prosper and be creative. You have the gifts of the spirit within, like dormant seeds. Find a way to allow the seeds to spring forth, in the bright sunlight, to feed and guide your way to new opportunities to live in beauty, power, and grace.

Each of you is worthy and loved by the Great Spirit who is the Creator of us all. We stand with you, as guides and mentors. We have stood there you stand now, but the cycle and energies are now supporting growth and change, even as the old world which destroyed our dreams of peace is now falling apart. Step aside from the toppling behemoths of illusory power and control; step free of those who would control you or kill you to keep you from connecting with the power that dwells within. It is your time to take advantage of the rising tide of energetic frequencies that support spiritual growth, for the individual and for communities as a whole.

You are a being of free will; now it is time for you to make a decision. Do you wish to continue to dwell in fear, self-denial, and self-hatred or are you willing to break free to the other side of the curtain and see yourself revealed as a radiant being of light, capable of living in peace and harmony within a physical vehicle, on a physical planet? We hope it is the latter, but it is your choice.

In spirit now, we walk through the hills and plains of our old homeland, but we can be anywhere at the speed of thought. So can you, if you can discover the ease and love of spirit that lives within each of you.

Go and walk in freedom’s light. We will be there, waiting, when you emerge on the other side in the lighted worlds.

I AM White Cloud and I speak in the name of my brothers and sisters of light and love throughout the world.


White Cloud, I am honored to bring forth your message.

Dear lady, we are grateful that you were willing to receive it. Many thanks. Go in peace.

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The Great Divine Director: “The Shift Continues”


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Lord Chananda:  The Shift Continues

via Eliza Ayres

I am Lord Chananda Gia, the Great Divine Director, also known as Lord Ganesha by our Hindu friends. I come today with tidings of great joy! You are ascending.

“What?” you say. “That’s news? I don’t feel any different than I did yesterday.”

Ah, but you are different and even those who are the most resistant to change ARE beginning to notice something has shifted in their world, but it couldn’t be them, could it?

We are here to gently say, yes, it is you. You are changing. You are changing your own world. You are changing your perception of your world. You are changing inside and the changes are reflecting back to you as you look outside of your energy field.

How are these changes occurring? Through a long, subtle process of rising vibration and frequency levels – the shift is happening and has been happening for a very long time. However, only in the last five years has the magnitude of changes accelerated and so most everyone on the planet are finding challenges, difficulties or opportunities cropping up for expansion in their lives, depending on their outlook on life and how they view themselves.

This shift “of the ages” as it has been labeled by the New Agers, is the movement from one age or the Kali yuga (dark cycle) of the Age of Pisces to the Satya yuga (light cycle) of the Age of Aquarius. And it is a part of a greater age involving the universe. Your sun is ascending, your solar system is ascending and your Universe is ascending. Everything is being stepped up in frequency levels. The shift started a long while ago, but has been accelerated due to the presence of lightworkers on the planet. And as the frequency levels increase, the souls coming into this world as babies are lighter in frequency, too. There will be no return to darkness for this world.

Long have the Powers that Be (now Were) fought and resisted the influx of new energies. Linear descendants of the black magicians of Atlantis, these beings long thought that this world belonged to them. Humanity and other life forms on the planet were considered property to be used or abused. And now they are being disabused of this cavalier attitude by the rising up of the consciousness of the multitudes of humanity, as well as the increasing intensity of Nature’s “attack” on the old way of doing things, through storms, earthquakes and the such.

What has been regarded as the only way to do things actually has not been in effect for very long. The grounded sacred approach of the indigenous peoples across the planet has been the target for attacks by the PTW for many centuries, starting with the European invasions of South and North America, Africa and Asia. With the ebb and flow of civilizations, from Rome to the Holy Roman Empire and then to wholesale economic enslavement of continents, the attack on the indigenous and peasant peoples was on.

However, cycles turn and life moves in a sacred spiral. What came down is now rising. The energies of the planet are rising every moment of every day. You see the rise of energies reflected in physical changes in your bodies, reactive modes in your friends and families depending on their level of acceptance, denial or resistance to change, and in the crumbling apart of institutions long thought the foundation of the modern world. What you call the modern world has been forced upon the people, upon the animals, upon the earth. Rape, pillage, wholesale destruction of species, environments, water, air, and soil… all that is needed to sustain life on this planet has been the subject of targeted abuse by international corporations and imperialistic governments, most especially Britain and the United States.

Enough already! Heaven has called a halt to the dark cycle. The Kali yuga is fading into the sunset and the new dawn of Aquarius is arriving. Transitional periods are always difficult, but this one is different than the ones before. With the fall of Atlantis, which actually occurred gradually, before the last cataclysms brought the physical demise of the last island continents, the dark magicians had discovered methods to harness the powers of crystals and of the atom. Much destruction was wrought in the name of power and control. What you are experiencing today is just a shadow of what occurred with the last violent overthrow of the Atlantean culture.

Many of the humans alive on the planet today were present during the long ages of Atlantis, both during the golden age and the long sunset eras of her demise. Many of you played roles on both sides of the game board, dark and light, and are now balancing for any acts of commission or omission during those times.

While these times are difficult, it is important not to judge the actions of others, outside of your energy field. Each of you was chosen to come here, to experience the transition, the bringing of the world into a new and glorious age of light and love. You have played many roles and must realize that even those who are members of the power elite have also played on both sides. The souls present are here to undergo the richness of experience as potential when such a transition is unfolding. This time period is like none other this world has ever experienced, so cherish the moments of feeling unsettled, up and down, the fullness of the sensations and sights to be felt and seen. It is a marvel to be alive, here and now, as the massive waves of light overtake and defeat the darkness that has prevailed for many thousands of years.

Many sources are reminding you on a daily basis to tune into your inner being, to listen to your heart, to find that quiet space called your higher mind, to spend quality time learning about what truly you and what is not. There is much social conditioning to overcome, but it will be done. Each of you is in the very individualized process of becoming reacquainted with your Self, the greater you who has always been here (not there) with you but who you temporarily had to forget in order to become truly “human” for a time.

For light-workers, forgetting who and what you are has had sometimes painful consequences but you can chalk it up to the wealth of experience that you have gathered during the course of your time here, assisting the “local” population to break free of the chains of economic and emotional slavery.

Not all the parts of this great story have been shared yet. The ascended masters and your galactic cousins have much to share with you when your energy levels rise enough so that you can both comfortably interface with the others on common frequency levels. We are here and unless you are an especially gifted clairvoyant, most of you cannot yet see us. However, you are becoming increasingly more sensitive to our presence and can feel us in a sudden increase in the warmth emanating from your heart center or a flush of heat in your body. Your “paranormal” gifts will continue to return online as you grow in your self-acceptance, adjust to the new energy levels and expand your horizons. What has been deemed beyond normal is actually just a part of what you will open back into. You are in the process of returning to the awareness that you are greater than you realize while at the same time, you are becoming more wholly human or humane with each other, all life and the world around you.

Human beings are not meant to be cruel, destructive or distrustful. This manner of behavior has been literally beaten into succeeding generations who were bred on fear and lack. None of these things are natural to this world or to you as a human being. And you need to forgive yourself for anything you feel that you have done “wrong” or out of alignment with some specious code of morals. Your leaders are in the process of displaying just how much they hold these same moral codes sacred by their insane actions of self-destruction and destruction of whole systems as they attempt to bring down entire countries in an undeclared world war of economic and physical terrorism.

Each of you will return to self-mastery where no code delineates your outward behavior, but where you follow the Will of the Creator because it is your will to do so. No longer forced to become anything that you are not, you will blossom into your true potential and be all that you can be. Perhaps this will occur for you in a couple of months, a couple of years or in an upcoming lifetime. Your path is set out before you by the dictates of your soul and soul family. You will discover what to do when you get there. Now, enjoy the moments as the transition occurs. You are witnessing a miracle in action, as an entire world and her population ascend from the lower third dimension to the upper fourth and eventually to the fifth. Physical ascension of an entire planet has never been done before, so it is an exciting time for us and the rest of the Universe watching to see what happens next.

When you get overwhelmed for a few minutes or even days, go within, dear ones, and find the smile that lingers in your heart. Know that we are ever present with you, to guide, mentor, heal and comfort. We share our love for your planet, for you and all life here.

Go in peace and go with our profound love and devotion to your heart flames.


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The Light Collective: A Message



The Light Collective:  A Message

via Eliza Ayres

In the ever present Now moment, we would like to take you on a tour of your Self. Each of you who read our words is beginning to wake up to the fact that you are more than a body or a single consciousness. In fact, you are a collective being. You exist in a Multiverse, more than one universe, in more than one body, on more than one planet. And yet, your primary consciousness is focused, here and now, in this human body and on this planet, Earth, located in a side arm of the vast Milky Way Galaxy. Why? You are here because the transition that this beautiful but humble planet is undergoing is unprecedented in at least one Universe and really all Universes.

Many of you, even those who have long been conscious of the transition are struggling with the issue of self-identity. Who are you, truly? Are you a human being doomed to struggle and slave for some three-score years and ten (often shorter) and then die, never to live again or are you something more? You really, really want to accept the knowledge that you are more, mainly because it gives you hope that you can change, that you will be given an opportunity to do it all over, again.

Dear ones, you are doing it, now. You are changing the game plan because you are in the midst of a Grand Experiment, one that is bringing light back into a darkened world and a darkened Universe, a Universe that was affected by an unintended mutation of creative energies. Step by step, your bodies are changing and being stepped up in vibration, in their ability to carry the light. This is the result of long-term planning by the Archangels, who oversee the rehabilitation of this world, its people and this Universe. This experiment is only in its beginning stages. What you do here, you will do the same and more on other worlds, because that is what you do. You are the explorers, the wanderers, the special light forces who have volunteered to undergo this process in order to transmute the imbalance back into alignment with the Will and blueprint of Creation.

We understand that it is difficult to see or believe that you have any hand in the changes currently happening across the face of your planet, but we assure you that you are heavily involved. Simply by opening yourself up to the realization that you have choice, you have stepped from a third-dimensional vibration to a fourth. By determining and realizing that you can change your world consciously, you begin to bring up your energy field closer to the fifth dimension. You are a powerful, creative being; now is the time to acknowledge that you are not a victim of circumstance unless you choose to undergo victimization as a means of gaining experience. You can move beyond experiencing yourself as a victim by simply tweaking how you view your world. You can begin to see energy as being neutral; it simply is. And then realize how you bind your thoughts and emotions, together, is how you attract what you see and experience into your daily life. By choosing to remain neutral, you release the emotional charge from events and can eventually choose how to consciously determine just what experiences you wish to have.

The experiment that you are undergoing is a rebuilding of the stepping stones of mastery– Self-mastery, which means that you are responsible for the choices that you make, each day, whether unconsciously or consciously. We hope that you feel that you are ready to be conscious so you can tune into the ways in which to channel energies and create the world in which you want to live.

We know that many of you will deny that you have such power of creation, but we remind you, dear ones, that each and every one of you is a creator god. Yes, you created the world in which you live and breathe. It is only one of your creations, but right now it is the focus of many worlds who wish to move into higher frequencies. You have a unique opportunity to prove to yourself just how creative and powerful you are. Do you have the necessary courage, determination and will to go forward? We feel that you do. We see the whole of you, not just the singular individual who appears lonely and lost, struggling to make ends meet, dealing with health issues, relationship issues, and emotional ups and downs.

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Are you ready to step up to the plate and learn how to master your experience, to master your emotions, to create your world, to be all that you already are within? If your answer is yes, and you give us permission to work with you, we will guide you in your discovery of your own gifts. Each of you has what it takes to be a master, carefully stowed within your own heart and mind. Through the pineal gland you can make connection with your soul and I AM Presence. Through the secret chamber of the heart, you make connection with the Creator and his rays of Creation. In working with the angels and elementals, you can change the focus of your life. By connecting with nature and the earth, you become grounded.

It can be easy to lose yourself in the bliss of meditation, but grounding in the present moment is necessary if you are going to accomplish the work of changing your world. Each moment that you can be aware, even while you sleep, is another moment when you can accomplish great things and learn to bring the wisdom of your higher selves into manifestation. You are the anchors and bridges, bringing in the light of creation into manifestation. You have been chosen for this role by your selves, the parts of your multi-dimensional being that works closely with the Archangels, ascended masters and ascended galactic and extra-galactic races. You are these beings, true, but you are also human and here to experience all there is to experience of the ongoing transition of this planetary body and all life upon her. See yourself as an integral part of the transition, as an agent of change. And what you manage to change in yourself will be reflected back to you in what you see around you in the course of daily life.

Be aware that every thought you have, every emotion you feel, every action that you take is a part of the rays of creation. While you go through your day, you are creating. Will you choose to be conscious of your creations so you can align yourself with the Will of the Creator or will you choose to remain unconscious and seemingly helpless in the face of adversity? It is your choice and we will honor whatever you do, but know that mastery is self-determined, not something that some guru can wrap in a pretty package and hand to you on a plate. It takes intention, attention, focus and action.

We understand that our expression through this message may overwhelm and confuse some who appear to be struggling. Let the emotions flow through you like water without latching onto them. Let your thoughts settle at the bottom of the lake, clearing the troubled waters. Be still. Be calm. Allow for the wisdom of the heart and the connection of your higher self speak to you in a non-verbal manner. It is through this unspoken, non-linear method that you will receive your guidance, from within, not through the avenue of another person. Although others might serve as a guide, it is through following this inner beacon that you will find your way through the maze of indecision and inaction and break through to the other side of the matrix. Once outside the matrix of the rigid third-dimensional structure of thought and emotion, you can discover new ways to create your own world, as you, the master, so will it to be.


You are already free of the matrix, whose underlying structures have been withdrawn as of the 12/12/12; but you have to make the first move to go forward into the new dawn as a creator of all you see and experience. Go forth and discover for yourself, dear ones, what lies beyond the miasma of limitation, want and need. Many delights and wonders and beautiful worlds are there waiting for you, for you have already created some of what you will find during those moments when your linear thinking mind has been stilled, during sleep and dreams. And we await your coming, in robes of many colors as you again are clothed in the auric hues of mastery.

We stand in awe of what has already been accomplished. The transitional period from 12/12/12 to now, just now eight months in length, has advanced and heightened the frequency levels of this planet and her peoples so that even the sleepiest of its populace begin to stir and wonder what is going on. What is going on is simply the reconstruction of an entire world and its collective humanity into a star nation, a fully conscious planet of living physical ascended masters. It is something that has never happened before, but now you are well on the way.

Yes, there will be revolution, turmoil, death and destruction. What is old and broken must be destroyed and removed before a new world can come entirely into manifestation, on clean and cleared soil. Change brings challenge. Not all humans or life forms upon the planet today will survive physically the changes, but all are being given the opportunity to undergo the experiences contained within as they have so chosen before coming into embodiment. Judge not the actions of others; focus on your own choices and actions. Be focused on your inner development and see everything outside of your aura as theater being played out for your enjoyment and entertainment. We understand that some of you will be appalled that our seemingly callous regard for human suffering and misery, but we remind you that each human being makes the choice to be here before they are born. Their experiences are their own, chosen for the growth of the soul. And the soul is eternal even if the body is not. Those who are meant to be physical ascended masters will survive the transition; many others have chosen another direction, other timelines, but all, will eventually come into alignment with the Will of Creator and so it is best not to judge.

Understand that much is being balanced by various souls. Some souls have chosen short lifetimes. Their lives, cut short by violence, in turn act as a catalyst in order to awaken others; to create the opportunity for large numbers of individuals to experience a spontaneous heart opening that otherwise would not present itself. Honor these braves ones for their seeming sacrifice for many times they are balancing acts of violence that they, themselves, have committed in other “lifetimes”. What is termed an act of “evil” may be just the catalyst needed to break the locked in thinking of people, to move them to an opportunity to choose between anger and vengeance or into forgiveness and love. You have the opportunity to choose, every moment of your life how you will react or not to whatever “happens” around you. Become conscious of your choices; take responsibility for them and you will soon find yourself on the road to self-mastery. You are already on it, but have not thought to look down and see the yellow brick road beneath your feet, leading you on to the great Emerald City of Shamballa, with its gleaming crystal towers.

There is no good or evil, there is only You, the eternal dreamer of the one dream. You are the experience, the creator of the experience and the experiencer. You are the master of your world. Find delight and joy in creating the world that you want to be a part of, along with all your friends, the angels, the ascended masters, the galactics, the elementals and fairies, the wondrous creatures of “myth” and many others.

We stand at your side, ready to guide and mentor, ready to encourage and cajole, as brother and sister to you and one in the light of the Creator. Go now in peace and be consciously all that you already are.


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Great Divine Director: Climbing up the Spiral Staircase



Lord Chananda Gia: Climbing Up the Spiral Staircase

by Eliza Ayres

It is Independence Day in the United States of North America. All over the planet, people are coming together and declaring their independence from the decaying and corrupt systems of control that have dominated your world’s geopolitics and international relationships for some time. People are stepping forward outside the box of socio-indoctrination, outside of religion, outside of public education, outside of science, outside of mass media, and into themselves. People are waking up from the fearful dream that has been brought to you via your media sources in order to keep them in submission and unable to fend for themselves or to work together for a better world.

It is time to let the dark secrets that every individual, community and nation carry within their collective unconscious, within the vast astral body of this planet, it is time for these secrets to be brought into the light and allowed to dry and scatter in the wind of change. For change is upon you whether or not you are prepared for it or willing to release your fears so that you may go forth and claim a new way of life.

We are here among you. We walk with you throughout your day. We exist within your heart, within your connection to the unspoken voice of your soul and I AM Presence. When your heart is lifted up by the smile of a friend, the laughter of children, the antics of a beloved pet, by the sight of a beautiful garden, by the untrammeled beauty and grace of wild creatures and places… we are there. And we stand beside you in unguarded moments of doubt and confusion, waiting ever for you to reach out to us, for assistance, for guidance, for a simple blending of our love with yours within your heart.

On a day like this, it is a good time to ponder what is independence, what is freedom? What is it to you? Is it the ability to vote for your leaders? Is it the freedom to speak your mind to whoever and whenever? Is it the freedom to carry a weapon with which to defend yourself and your family? Is it the opportunity to have a public education provided to your children? Is it the freedom to eat a holiday meal with loved ones without fear? Is Independence Day just another day in a mundane life? Or is independence and freedom an opportunity to step beyond the limits of the old paradigm and into the vast unknown, unquantifiable regions of the fifth dimension. Is it the time to step out of an illusion and back into the reality where each of you is a light being and already walk in mastery, wisdom and beauty?

Each of you, both those conscious and those who remain in denial of the vast changes sweeping the planet, are now embarked upon a sacred dance up the spiral of evolution. Your species is about to be completely transformed into something unexpected and quite beautiful; words are not capable of describing what is to come to past. And each of you is a part of the change and challenge that exists within this period of transition and transformation. For those of you who have consciously chosen to step forth, you are more aware, yet all who live on the planet are aware in their feeling bodies that time is being squeezed into shorter increments and the tempo of change is increasing. What once took thousands of years to come into being has now been compressed down into minutes. Each of you is living through the effects of hundreds, if not thousands of lifetimes, during the period of a day or a week. No wonder the most sensitive among you feel exhausted and worn out by the effort of just holding a body form intact.


As the frequency levels of the planet increase, due to the barrage of cosmic rays, coronal mass ejections and plasma filaments from your own star, there are those who are choosing to depart from human form. Do not judge them. The oversoul or I AM Presence and the soul choose the path for each individual, what is to be experienced, what opportunities or challenges to be confronted, at least in general.

For each, there is a choice now: to leave, to flow with the tides of change, surfing on the edge of the wave or to be the wave, to be the pioneer, the wayshower, the gatekeeper for those who follow. Each of you has their own traveling papers as it were, internal codes to be followed as they open up within. Do not be surprised if those who appear to be asleep around you suddenly wake up, even as those codes come online. It is so for the plant as it patiently lies in the ground in the form of a seed, waiting for the warmth of the sun to activate the codes that will start new growth. Then, as the plant grows, it continues to change its shape, transforming until culminating in a flower or fruit, only to change into a seed, again.

Cycles and spirals of cycles are upon you all, in an ever increasing tempo. Yet, you can discover calm and serenity within even as you dance to the sound of your own drumming heart, even as you step forth first hesitantly and then with greater confidence, the ancient sacred dance of evolution. The dance will take you both out of your limited sense of self and into your unlimited multidimensionality. It is time to declare your independence from limitation, from social conditioning, from having to listen and obey the voices of others. It is time to regain sovereignty over your own being, over your body, and over the future of your world.

Control is meant to come from within and to act as a guide not a deterrent to creativity. The masculine energies are meant to give structure while the feminine energies flow, spiral and curl, expanding and contracting as the tides move across the planet. With a balance of these energies within your own being, an acceptance of both the dark and light aspects of your own self, there emerges a new willingness to allow others to be true to their own inner voice and guidance, as well.

Humanity is coming into a period of beginning to understand that it is a collective being, made up of individuals, but living together on a planet that has a special place in the Universe. Together you are creating and building the first step for the entire Universe to step upon, as each level and dimension of being rises in level. Your skies will be enlightened by two suns. Your climate will be moderate the world over. There will be no polar ice caps or great frozen wastelands or even deserts.

Arid places will bloom, again. The seas will rise, some islands will be inundated but other lands will rise up above the seas as volcanoes channel the energies of the expanding planet. Your planet is a dynamic changing being as are you. Accept the possibility of change in your life and look forward to the opportunities that come your way. There is no way that you can fail upon your journey. We have seen paradise return to the earth as we live in the eternal Now and can see all things as they play out simultaneously. You contain the same ability to see in this manner within each of you. Open to an awareness and acceptance that you are both a simple individual and a grand being of light, grounded and powerful, capable of great things, wonders and potentials.

Right now, there are those who dismiss our words, either out of fear or a desire to hold onto what is known. This attitude of denial will no longer be possible. The voice of the collective is coming awake; it is the roar of a lion and will not be ignored. The powers that controlled your world no longer can hold back the tide of change and transformation. Their time is over; it is your opportunity to declare your freedom from domination and to allow yourself to respond to the call within. Discover what it is that brings joy to your heart and follow that siren call. It will transform your world if only you trust and have faith that within you lies everything you need.

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The explorers go first, breaking trail and forging new pathways. Next, the pioneers arrive, building community and forming new groups who will explore together ways of living in harmony with nature and her cycles, rhythms and flow. Next will come the weavers, those who will weave together new ways of being in community across the entire planet.

Teachers and students will exchange roles, leaders and followers will do so also as the needs of the collective and individual change and evolve. New patterns will emerge to form a beautiful fabric of a new society, one that engages everyone, and brings abundance, opportunity, beauty, grace, wisdom and strength to all, no matter their location or place upon the planet. No one person will be greater or less than another; all will be special in their own way, supported by the collective and encouraged to explore their own gifts both for their own benefit and growth and that of the community at large. It will be a new world and it exists within your heart and dreams already.

Step forth, lightly, upon the spiral dance, beneath sun and moon, following the trail laid out by your ancestors and the elementals, by the ascended masters and star warriors. You are in the process of embarking on a whole new way of existence, one that is free from worry and fear, one that is free and independent from control, one that is both ancient and timeless. We stand with you, guiding and lending you our support when it is called forth, but each of you must take the first step on the way to becoming more of your Self.

See the spiral steps before you and do not hesitate to listen within as the heavenly songs of angels call to you, engaging your attention and intent to embark or continue on the journey home. We will be there to welcome you home, dear ones, our brave brothers and sisters who willingly forgot who they were for one moment in eternity, in order to bring a world back into the light. Our blessings go forth to all.

I AM Lord Chananda Gia the Great Divine Director and serve the Will of the Mother / Father God of your local Universe and the Creator who is all things, both seen and unseen.

Go in peace. Namaste.

Copyright © 2012-19 by Eliza Ayres. All Rights Reserved. Permission is given to copy and distribute this material, provided the content is copied in its entirety and unaltered, is distributed freely, and this copyright notice and links are included.  Recordings and/or videos of this written material is no permitted.  http://www.bluedragonjournal.com/