Sundeelia: Have You Lost Your Way?
As my sister matured and began to fully wake up, she challenged the belief systems of her parents and extended family, disregarding their sensibilities as she was driven from within to discover her truth. It wasn’t an intentional, mean-spirited manner; she just knew she was different than other people and wanted to understand things here. A true wayshower, she sampled the wares from many different spiritual paths, sipping from one, then another, and giving disquiet to especially her mother when she went to live on the grounds of a New Age church located in Montana. A few years later, she left the Church and came ‘home’ for what was intended to be a few months and ended up being nine years. During this near decade, she transitioned gradually back into health and then took over the care of her own parents for the latter years of their lives.
During the course of these years, Tazjma lost many friends and even relatives who did not quite know what to make of her. No matter; she followed the deep inner guidance where it led her despite the discomfort and judgment of other people in her life. She became quite inured to being rejected. It wasn’t that she did not care about people. She was simply being herself, following her own inner guidance even when she would have been unable to describe it to anyone else.
With the memories of my sister’s experiences available for me to look upon, I see the current situation on the planet an even more intense polarization as people once content to remain oblivious to their own programming are suddenly confronted by the inner awareness that they no longer believe in the veracity of the belief systems into which they were born, taught, and matured.
I am sure that many of my readers probably share similar stories, having your beliefs challenged, and then either stepping forward into the fray or choosing to remain on the sidelines, confused as to which direction you should follow. Only each one of us can discern what is our own truth. It will not be the same for every person, which is why it is so important now to learn to be able to use both your critical thinking to carefully measure all information from any source, to question it and be open-minded enough to adjust and expand your awareness, but not until you check and re-check.
People in Western countries, especially the United States, have been hugely programmed by mass media, movies, and their public education. Marxist influences have infiltrated into every college and university across the nation until it is quite rare for a truly conservative campus to continue to exist.
My sister was never comfortable with the ideals of feminism. She did not feel that men were solely at fault for the ills of the world. In latter years, before her ascension, she encountered information that told her the feminist movement was a creation of the Central Intelligence Agency, designed to ultimately lead to the demise of the family unit. After several decades of feminism, are women better off than they were being mothers at home? Perhaps, perhaps not… that is a topic for another day.
These past four years with Trump as POTUS and then this past year with the Covid scamdemic going on, has seen many people begin to shake themselves awake, while their former lives are shattered, by loss of jobs, relationships, relocation, and sudden awareness that something isn’t quite right with this world. The article linked below is one such story which may or may not be similar to what many of my readers are currently experiencing.
Being a walk-in for someone whose family members long ago abandoned her and in turn, abandoned friends and acquaintances, continually pushing the envelope and breaking out of her shell, as a result, I have few friends here. Socially isolated, perhaps by choice, and focused on my writing for the past couple of years, I have done little to expand my friendships. Thus, I always feel like I am looking at life through the lens of others rather than myself. Still, I can’t say that I am particularly lonely. I sense and communicate with unseen presences throughout the day and sometimes when I wake up in the middle of the night. I know that while it appears I am alone, I know I am not.
A task that many people are taking on today is to become more sovereign, to take back their personal power, to break off relationships that are not working, perhaps to change jobs, and place of living. Circumstances may or may not compel you to go further and break out of family, leave behind old friends, especially those whom you no longer relate due to differences in perspective. It does not mean you abandon them forever. There will be sharp moments of loneliness and perhaps some confusion, so think through matters and consider what you are doing.
Sometimes we feel that we just made a mistake only to learn later that it was the best decision we have ever made. In coming to Florida, I have learned more about the East Coast and more about myself. In doing my writing, I am certainly seeing how life presents us with short and long cycles, where we are given opportunities to make choices, repeatedly. It is upon us to take responsibility for choices made and to go forth with courage.
I encourage everyone who is currently going through a rough emotional patch to focus on self-care, learning self-love, and getting enough rest, exercise, and good diet. If you are overwhelmed by the amount of conflicting information on social media, take a break. I know I have stopped watching as many intel videos as I used to. Remember if things look bleak, it is for a purpose. Keep your frequency up as much as you can and stand your ground. I know I will.
I am sending all much love and blessings in this Now moment.
I AM Sundeelia.