Facets of Wisdom: On Surrendering to the Love that You Are
by Eliza Ayres
Note to Reader: These “facets” are based on some of the writings of my elder sister Tazjma VaCoupe. I have edited this facet to reflect more of my own story.
Due to my experience in many lifetimes as a warrior, I have also experienced many dark timelines. The wisdom and experience gained as a warrior has allowed me to ground more deeply and to work harder with the process of integration light and dark. However, this intensity and determination come with a price, an unwillingness or inability to truly heal the darkest core of my being which has prevented my being able to evolve beyond my present level of attainment.
I understand the dualistic nature of combat and the amount of suppressed trauma that a warrior can take home if s/he survives and has to put aside often before it has a chance to heal due to the need to function in peacetime. Only during the Galactic Wars with the Orion Empire, I wasn’t given a chance to heal. I died twice as a male and then again as a female. Those wounds have never been allowed to heal up until now with this rare opportunity given me due to volunteering to act as a walk-in on behalf of my sister Tazjma VaCoupe who has now ascended Home.
Typically the active process of the healing ensues when my other sister, RaNia VaCoupe and I are together. We will be chatting about something and a word, a phrase or an image will trigger a sudden remembrance often accompanied by an outpouring of tears. Letting go and allowing the tears are sometimes difficult, but I’m coming to a place where I trust the process that I am undergoing. There comes a point when anyone on the path to mastery must surrender and allow the energies of the Higher Self to come in. This is when you let go of the need to understand – which comes from your lower mind attempting to direct the process – as well as releasing whatever fears come up.
There are moments of doubt, whole hours of feeling anger rising up… and then, suddenly comes a brilliant moment of surrender and understanding.
I have been told that I possess a great heart flame. Yet, as a warrior, this flame has been buried behind a very effective barrier… at least until I experienced a recent series of illness this year. As a Pleiadian, I am more accustomed to my highly evolved refined body that I wear when Home. Even though I have been on Earth for over a year now, I am not still not used to having a vehicle that doesn’t function at full capacity all of the time. In adjusting to this older Earth model, I have had to surrender, physically, to the process of allowing this body to recover further complicated by the need to also give it an opportunity to integrate the higher frequencies stemming from the intensification of the cosmic and photonic frequencies arriving on the planet’s surface daily.
Love… shouldn’t be a foreign thing to me, since I am both Venusian and Pleiadian, two worlds imbued with the highest frequencies of Love. Yet, I have felt estranged from this natural experience of love, put off by other’s attempts to express their love for me, perhaps because I did not feel that I loved them back or felt somehow worthy. The reluctance stems, in part, from the unhealed trauma suffered during the ancient Star Wars, which I have discussed here in other articles.
Obviously, there is something buried deep that has finally begun to emerge and the process of my illness allowed me to relax my guard enough to allow it to come forth for healing and to open to love.
Surrendering to love is allowing yourself to integrate the highest and purest essences of your Higher Self into your physical being. It is to allow those energies to braid through your etheric, emotional and mental bodies.
This love is not about romance, getting married, having a relationship, being a friend, yet it encompasses all those things and a lot more. This is the love that is the foundation of your being, your truth, your self-revealed before Father-Mother God. It is how they see you at all times, and it slowly becomes how you see and feel about yourself. It is an unconditional love that brings full acceptance of what you are NOW.
Surrendering to love is to come to a place where you can finally acknowledge that you have gifts that you can share. I hope that sharing my process is opening up a window of understanding for others, not to judge themselves by what I have or have not accomplished, but to know that we need to allow our body to slowly incorporate the energies and to be kind to ourselves while undergoing these tremendous changes.
I am still opening up to the idea that I can even love or be loved by others… but there it is. Surrendering has allowed me to open up to a tremendous healing and to release the darkness that has been within since the terrible day we watched in horror to see an entire planet destroyed by a new enemy and then died ourselves in fire and flame.
The experience of trauma creates a connection between the victim and the perpetrator. Only by forgiving self and forgiving the perpetrator(s) can you be cut free forever. Until you are able to do this it is as if there is a stone in your heart weighing you down. Try as you will, until the wound is fully healed within the emotional and mental bodies, there will be no going forward with your spiritual evolution.
Forgiveness does not mean that you approve of what has been done to you or others. It simply means that you have succeeded in dissolving the emotional/mental burden on your end. What happens to the others involved is their issue. You do not have to continue to have anyone who has hurt you in the past in your life, although you can forgive them for what they have done so you are set free from any karmic repercussions in future timelines.
Now, I can reintegrate what was put aside then and allow the darkness and the accompanying hurt and trauma to dissipate in the cleansing energies of the Violet / Purple Flame and the healing and soothing energies of the Pink Flame of Active Intelligence.
Now I can dispassionately look at what I still need to release and allow that to happen by calling on my Higher Self to assist me, as well as the Pleiadian and Sirian lords and ladies who have been with me of late, as well as the Archangels Michael and Zadkiel.
Love comes first and then the wisdom within unfolds. You cannot reach the higher mind through your intellect; you must first go through the heart center. It is a simple but profound truth that we all eventually come to understand. And until you can successfully open your heart center you will not evolve.
So, now, I am in the process of allowing the love of my Higher Self to fill up the areas where the darkness has been released, to bind up and heal the wounds, and to purge all remaining dark energies from out of my etheric, emotional and mental bodies. This process won’t be accomplished in a day or a month but will continue on even as I undergo my higher initiations in the Light and gain in mastery.
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