Eliza: Challenges

Holidays… it’s considered “normal” to get excited about the holidays and everything that comes with them… that is if you have an unusual family that actually gets along well with each other.  For nearly two decades holidays have been for me something to dread, other than getting to spend some time away from work.  There wasn’t any Thanksgiving feast and no gathering of friends or family.  Most of the day, I was alone and this year I felt very cut off and detached from the rest of humanity.  For some moments at least I wondered what I was still doing “here” and if there was anything still on the agenda as it were.  A whole lot of angst felt by an isolated person, who has recently questioned just why I ended up where I did.  The answer is still pending… although there are glimmers of understanding and comprehension…