Journal Entry 10.02.2015 – Shadow Play
Wow! It’s been another tough week at work. The environment has been toxic where I work due to friction between staff members. How or why doesn’t matter; what does matter is the Shift is hitting the fan. The two worlds are noticeably separating. I managed to make another co-worker angry to the point of attempting to retaliate against me, which will, in the long run just serve to bring her own short-comings into sharp focus.
This came in from my team this past week:
“You are presently in the midst of a tremendous transition. It would appear that you are being rebellious and obstinate, but in actuality, you are finally standing in your power. You have drawn a line in the sand and the entities that live within those with whom you work will not be able to cross it. They are currently in the process of being unmasked and are very unhappy about it. They will attempt to hurt you but you are out of their reach now.
We encourage you to continue with your heart meditations when you are alone and quiet. It will help prevent any illness from being created during this time of tremendous stress as you will be able to clear your energy field each night of what is picked up during the day.”
After the Full Moon / Blood Moon / Lunar Eclipse the energies have been ramping up and people are beginning to show their true colors. The avid look, full of malicious intent, in this person’s eyes when she looked at me today informed me that she desired to take me down. Down to where, I might ask… knowing full well that it’s down to her level, which is fully 3D. This is an individual whom Denise LeFay would describe as a portal person or tool for Team Dark. I forgive her, but will not condone her actions and that of another co-worker in their long-term attack on other co-workers, people who do not deserve to be treated so, but who were at least initially hesitant to confront these people due to fear or the desire to “keep peace” by keeping quiet. I have broken through that false peace by blurting out a truth about the one who has attacked me, a truth that everyone in the office knows but, for one reason or another have been unwilling to state aloud.
It’s time to take a stand and stare right back at these portal people. They can’t harm me and I am fully aware that their attempt to take me down will fail and so likely backfire in their own faces. I did have to deal with the energies that I was receiving in the Solar Plexus for awhile today… and still am to a slighter degree. It was and is, plain and simple, an attempted psychic attack and the playing out of my own shadows.
Somehow I managed to get quite a bit done in the way of work, but it is difficult working in such a tense atmosphere of distrust and dislike.
Every night, to recharge myself, I have been giving myself Reiki treatments and heart meditations, basking in the high 5D / 6D energies. Not confrontational by nature, I have attempted to prepare myself to face the knowledge that at least a couple of co-workers are reacting quite violently to the energies that I am now carrying daily into the prison environment. This work that I am doing quietly by simply being there is demanding that I rest a lot in the quiet setting of my own house in the evenings. And I have managed to sleep quite well, as I am usually relaxed, calm and elevated by bedtime. It’s quite the balancing act. Good thing I’m a double Libra!
Be prepared for some people, who have been up until the last week or so fairly “normal” in appearance to suddenly turn rabid and hateful. The masks are off. The sweet and nice acts are no more. They can still change but it’s unlikely that these individuals even want to do so given the fact that they have already apparently succumbed to the pull of the lower energies. It’s best to release them and find other people more suited to your own vibrations, if you can.
I am aware that I am dealing with the shadows of my own “past”, whether genetic, individual or collective. These individuals are acting out for me the energies that I need to release now, to clear fully from the subconscious so I might walk in the higher vibrational energies freed from the “past”. I will continue to do my meditations and walk tall during the day while completing my work duties, to the best of my abilities and walk through the remaining fears that well up.
Ascension isn’t all sweetness and light and bunny rabbits.
At noon, I was reading through a portion of Cary Ellis’ book, “21st Century Superhuman: Quantum Lifestyle”, where this quote by Teal Swan, another Ascension guide, jumped out at me:
“Spiritual bypassing is the act of using spiritual beliefs to avoid your unmet needs, deep pain and unresolved wounds. Spiritual bypassing is a form of avoidance. Because it is a form of avoidance, it is a form of resistance. Spiritual bypassing is in fact the shadow side of spirituality.”
Teal goes on to say further, “Authenticity is the highest state of being that the spiritual practitioner can achieve. In fact in the years to come, authenticity will become the replacement for enlightenment as the true goal of spiritual practice.”
In short, it is not enough to sit and chant, meditate or pray for the “bad” things to go away in your life. They’ll just reappear in another form until you are willing to complete the lesson and move on.
So, that is what I am doing. As an empathic sensitive, working in a prison, it has been quite a challenge at times, but I have managed pretty well. In fact I have thrived in that I have been able to develop better boundaries and to get to “know” myself. And now I’m been tested to see just what I believe and if I have enough trust in Self to get through this apparent ordeal. And I’m learning to be completely authentic… and that it is okay. Remember, I came into this embodiment carrying a huge amount of fear. So, I’m still in the process of clearing the last remnants. The task is getting easier despite appearances to the contrary.
Thank Goddess that I have writing as a catharsis and friends who understand what I am undergoing. Having a way to express and release the energies, the tension, the fear or whatever else comes up is so very vital right now.
We are each in the midst of a tremendous time of change, transformation and transmutation. The old is being replaced, but some of us, at least, are still working on doing the clearing work, for ourselves and the collective.
When I inquired as to where some of this energy stemmed from, the answer came back, “The French Revolution.”
Interesting… as the Revolution devolved from a potential rebirth of a nation to that of a Reign of Terror wherein individuals were terrorized by those in power and those who were opportunistic and chose to attack and destroy old rivals and enemies. Now, we can collectively release the dark blood energies behind that revolution for the world is changing and the energies support the healing of our deepest wounds if we are willing to expose them to the air to heal.
Yes, we live in interesting times and they will continue to be so as that is how we grow and expand our horizons and become more of our multidimensional selves. We need to prove through experience that we are capable and worthy of a life of abundance and joy. We are… but humans need to really know it and do so through walking through the valley of the shadow of death and out the other side.
The journey is the quest and it continues on as the New Dawn shines upon us all.