Higher Self: On the Lessons Gained from Experiencing Duality


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Higher Self: On the Lessons Gained through the Experience of Duality

by Eliza Ayres

What is the purpose of a light shining if there is no darkness to illuminate and define its brilliance? The Light requires darkness to define itself and to become obvious to those who have developed the needed sensitivity to comprehend, see and “feel” it within themselves.

In an email, one of my readers commented that our planet is the ONLY world that experiences duality. This statement is not true, but one that some light workers believe, perhaps out of fear of what they are experiencing HERE. It is a belief not grounded in MY experience of the Lighted Worlds, what I am beginning to remember. Duality exists up to the very level where Divine Mother split from Divine Father in order to create the physical realms. Duality exists up to the very Throne of the Creator and then ends.

However, the duality that we experience on Planet Earth, is that which has been drawn to the very extremities of what can be experienced anywhere within the physical realms of Creation, which are vast and currently incomprehensible to the human egoic mind.

A mind that is closed to the possibility that duality exists elsewhere, even on their own Home world is still not comprehending that darkness exists here, within themselves and within all other living creatures. There is a purpose for this, one that I am not sure I have the words to articulate, but that I feel.

On Earth, during the last 15,000 years or so, since the advent of the forces of darkness, or what has become known by various names as the Illuminati, Team Dark, the Loyal Opposition… etc., darkness has been used by these beings on purpose to induce fear in the hearts of mankind.   Even these so-called “evil” ones fear the darkness that they engender through their sadistic rituals. They have used the dark arts to manipulate the energies upon the earth so they can retain control of the people; the beings who are, in turn, THEIR masters, come from the higher dimensions, from the fourth dimension and on up into, at least, the sixth. Duality DOES exist elsewhere. These beings know it and use it. And they have purposefully used the metaphysical arts themselves while openly condemning those who would use the same forces for the purpose of enlightening the world, to keep the illiterate masses “in the dark” about the true power that EVERY human being can command IF they are ready to assume the responsibility that goes along with it.

Why would one want to deny the existence of darkness within when that very darkness can ultimately prove to be the source of their own power? I’m not talking here or suggesting that you take up the dark arts and mimic the actions of Team Dark. No… I am simply pointing out that the darkness that everyone seems to be afraid of is actually the Divine Feminine essence of each person, something that has been missing for centuries from our world. Our world is in trouble simply because the male essence of humanity has been allowed to command and destroy; the active element of our beings needs to be balanced by the passive, intuitive part, the feminine essence that dwells within each human being, acknowledged or disinherited.

Who was in power when the darkness fell upon this planet? The priestesses of the Law of One. Many goddesses reigned over the Earth, teaching their priestesses, and bringing enlightenment and culture to the indigenous people here. Have you ever wondered why anything feminine has been so hated and suppressed by the beings who have been in control for the last 10,000 years or so? They fear the power of a truly BALANCED being, a human being who has command over BOTH his masculine essence AND his feminine essence.

Why are women and for that matter, the people of indigenous cultures put down and marked for destruction by the forces of Team Dark?  It is because they fear the power that potentially exists within each fully balanced, ascending being. They know that if word were to go out to the masses that by becoming a balanced human, that you can transcend the influence of Team Dark, then they would lose control of this planet and many others that are currently under their sway, within this Universe.

The indigenous peoples of the planet have known forever how to live WITH the planet, within the rhythms of the planet, within Her cycles of destruction, creation and transformation. Their spiritual leaders often have carried down or experienced themselves visions of what is to happen. Their myths and legends are grounded in their unique experience of life here on planet Earth. They do not need books to figure out how a plant grows, what food is good to eat or how an animal behaves, for they or their teachers have observed all of these things with their own eyes and other senses. They are at one with the Earth and she holds these people close to Her bosom. Yet all who exist here can and will be tested and go through trials of fire, death and desolation, for that is the way of the extremities of duality that have been experienced within the last several ages of the Earth… for centuries.

The pain and suffering that has been experienced here has been labeled by many as being “bad”. To Spirit, to that greater part of You that exists in the Lighted Worlds, the pain and suffering has simply been the result of experience. You cannot truly learn what it is that another suffers unless you have walked in his or her shoes, i.e., been there yourself. How do you expect to teach the beings of other worlds to whom many of you will be sent in future lifetimes to enable THEM to break free of the bonds that have darkened their worlds?

Those of you who have experienced some form of trauma within your lifetime here, or are still experiencing difficulties, it is not that you have failed to comprehend the Laws of Manifestation or have failed some test… for you may be in the process of taking on the karma of many others, even thousands of other human beings in order to bring it back into balance. That is what karma is… balance. If you kill a person in one life time, you must go back and perform some deed that will energetically bring the balance back to neutral. That does not mean you will be killed in this lifetime, although it is a possibility if you do not work to clear all fear and negativity within your own being.

It is not wise to judge the sufferings of others. Some light workers take on the manifestations of disease or disabilities in order to balance great chunks of karma for others. Some light workers have also to balance their own dark roles played out in the drama that has been experienced within the last centuries.

A few days ago, I was watching a documentary on the great Shoguns of Japan. When I learned that my mate and I lived as husband and wife in Japan, I knew at once that he had been, at the very least, a Samurai warrior… and most likely a Shogun. In order to gain power in that extremely violent culture, divided as it was between warring war leaders, it was necessary to be “bigger and badder” than the opposition. I know that my mate holds rank as a commander in the forces of the Galactic Federation of Light. He is experienced in the arts of both war and peace. He was one of the great Shoguns who was able to command the military forces of Japan to such a degree that for a few golden years peace reigned in that benighted country. As military leader or Shogun, he commanded more power that the ineffectual Royal Court, and was able to give peace to the PEOPLE of the country. Under his reign and patronage, the arts were able to flower and flourish, for a time, until the next cycle of destruction began upon his death.

Such has been the experience of this planet, but that is soon to change. The extreme dualism that has been experienced here will be lessened to a great degree, but duality will STILL exist, for it is a necessary part of physical existence. And for those light workers who believe that living in the fifth dimension will be all play and no work, I have this to say, grow up. You will have jobs and careers, you will be mated and some of you will have children. There are different cultures and traditions and peoples who exist, human beings of other species, who exist on the lighted worlds within THIS galaxy and universe, who experience some form of duality or another. This is NOT the only world where duality exists; only one of the only ones where it exists in such levels of contrast to engender pain and suffering.

The experiences of the soul essence that I share with Young Joseph, the one whom his people called (in English) Thunder Rolling down the Mountains, were painful to the extreme. He was unable to fulfill the wishes of his father, Old Chief Joseph, and retain the age-old claim of the People upon the lands that extended from the Snake River well into the area now called the Eagle Cap Wilderness, as part of the lands of the Whitman-Wallowa National Forest. Due to the guilt he felt and took upon himself, part of his spirit remained, separated from the Light, to act as a Guardian Spirit for his people and the land from which his physical self was torn and bereft.

When I encountered the spirit of Joseph and he entered my body, I felt no fear. Our energies meshed as if they were meant to do. I didn’t fully understand what was going on then, but the process of re-blending our energies so that HE might go home with me began that day. All his suffering, all his lingering as a spirit guardian of the land has come home in the resurgence of his people and that of other tribes who are now returning to balance, able to reconnect with their spiritual essence and power as sovereign beings. There is much to be done among these indigenous peoples, as many of the souls currently embodied amongst them are the souls of those soldiers and civilians who took part in the destruction of the indigenous cultures. Thus, karma comes full circle and the Great Wheel of Life is remade; balance is attained once more by all who participated in the drama of life, in the great cycle of destruction, creation and transformation.

Last night, I performed a simple yet extremely powerful act of spiritual cleansing on the part of all who participated in that great drama, inspired by the stories told to me by a Sirian starseed.  A Pleiadian goddess, Lady Claudine gave my acquaintance a mission, to assist in the cleansing of the astral fields above the great battlefields of the Civil War in this country, which was fought between the North and South, allegedly over whether or not slavery would be allowed to exist. It was actually an economic war, but that is another tale best told by someone with more grasp of the manipulation of the world’s economies by Team Dark.

Simply put, the healing technique is to ask or command the Resurrection angels to place great pillars of Light within a certain landscape and therein invite all soul fragments who have lingered there, to break free of their perpetual cycle of suffering so that they might walk into the Light and return Home.  Archangel Michael and his legions will then collect and remove all the lower vibrational entities who have fed upon the suffering and fear of the victims of war and violence. I am writing of this technique so that other lightworkers might utilize it in their own homelands, for the astral realm is filled with the fragments of souls who have suffered long.

Why is this work so important? And why has it not been shared before? It must be done by people who have no interest in utilizing the energies of these stolen ones for themselves. You must be a balanced human being, capable of remaining neutral in the face of great suffering. The pain and fear suffered by these lost ones has served as food, literally, to feed the insatiable appetites of the entities who have sought to keep this world under their control.

Why must you be balanced in order to do this work? You must be strong within yourself, balanced and capable of shielding your auric field, because you WILL become a target of Team Dark, as a consequence of doing this work. It is a reality that many light workers do not want to face and perhaps are not ready to face for they have not done enough of their OWN personal clearing to be able to maintain the necessary stance of neutral strength and determination in order to accomplish this important work.

I’m not here to point out the weaknesses that I see in others, yet you must know yourself well enough to stand in the Light and to be the Light Warrior that you are in higher realms. It is easier to do in the Lighted Worlds than it is to do here, dear ones. Be prepared. Be strong. Be true to your own Spirit and those who look to you to act as an example. This includes, not only those who are currently wearing physical bodies, but also those who linger as “ghosts” or soul fragments in the astral plane and who can clearly “read” your energy field and “hear” your thoughts.

So… what did I do with this clearing technique? Since joining with the soul fragment or aspect that was Joseph, I have within me the memories of what he and his people went through during their flight from the American military forces. And within this lifetime, I have either lived or traveled through many of the lands through which the Wallowa Band of the Nez Perce passed. Therefore, I had a right, even an obligation to call upon the Angels of Archangel Michael to create great tubes of Light across this entire landscape, extending from Wallowa Lake to the boundary lands between the State of Montana and Canada. And then I called forth the spirit guides of BOTH the native people and the soldiers to stand forth and call out to their people. I did this before I went to sleep last night. When I woke up this morning, I could feel a great joy within. And Joseph told me, with tears in his dark eyes, that ALL of his people stepped forth into the Light. Now, he was truly free to go Home with me, and truly blessed for having been a guardian of his people for so long.

The human collective is one. That means ALL who are embodied here, whether conscious members of Team Dark or Light, or simply here, are all members of the human collective. The ones who agreed to play the roles of Team Dark in this lifetime, have, in many instances overplayed their hands and have become enamoured of power, position and wealth and are unwilling to give up all that they now regard as their own. They will be required to balance this misuse of power in future life times and they will. Do not be so foolish as to be required to join them by standing in condemnation of what they have done, for their departure from the letter and spirit of their soul contracts has enabled many a human being to break free of the culture of hatred and fear that has been engendered for long in order to control the masses of humanity from finally coming into their own power and beauty.

This special blend of humans that has been developed upon this planet has a great destiny before it. That destiny will be taken up when the race, that comes from the genetic material of many star races, finally graduates to adulthood. That time… the beginning of the cycle in which this great transition begins, is upon humanity. They have a choice – to linger in the shadows and to fall back into darkness or to step forth into the brilliance of their own Christ Light and claim their sovereignty, power, grace and will.

This choice is also upon those who are the Way showers for humanity, the volunteer light workers. You are the new leaders, perhaps not through the usual manner, but in how you comport yourself in your daily lives, how you take care of yourself and how you treat others. If you continue to wallow in the delusions of victimhood and turn away from the possibility that you ARE a being of great power and strength, you will continue to suffer along with the rest of humanity who are resisting the changes that are coming upon them, not just through outer circumstances, but also from within, from their own spiritual essence that keeps their physical vehicles alive and functioning.

Step into that flame of living fire that you are and claim your Light and Love as your own. Be true to yourself and you will be true to others, for in Truth, you are One.


Eliza Ayres (Tazjma Kumara VaCoupe Dino)

P.S.  For those Lightworkers who feel that they are ready to do this kind of work, my Facebook “friend”, T, reminded me that it is on the Angels of Resurrection that you call.  Angels have specific “duties” and assignments, but do require the permission and participation of an embodied light being / light worker on the planet to go forth and complete this work.  For this we have come here, my darlings.  We are the embodied angelic beings who command our brethren to do the work for us — which we are ALSO doing in the Lighted Realms — for we are One.

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Eliza: On Team Dark Attacks


Sunset over Jack Mtn.

Eliza: Team Dark Attacks

Some light workers don’t want to admit that there is any negativity in the world, within themselves or around them. Others focus on it perhaps a little too much, which is a stage of coming more awake and aware of the world we live in presently.

Those of us who have stepped forward, through spoken or written word, will and do suffer from occasional attacks from Team Dark, as Denise LeFay calls the opposition forces.

This morning, I woke up abruptly out of a troubled sleep, to hear the usual telepathic banter going on, but this time it was different. There was a negative cast to it. In short, I was being “told” that my ascension date had been moved back, that I was being kicked out the council… etc., etc. Team Dark was pulling all the stops to make me feel like I had disappointed my mentors and brought shame upon myself. They WANTED me to be fearful and to take the blame for whatever…

In waking up and listening to this conversation but briefly, I “told” them out loud, “I AM withdrawing all permission to receive telepathic messages!” And went into protective mode, calling upon Archangel Michael to shield me, requesting the presence of my assigned Eagle to be with me… etc.

Next, I went to the laptop and messaged my friend, T, to verify or not what was going on.   After checking with HER angels and a couple of our shared mentors, she let me know that it was an attack from Team Dark. She had also woken up feeling sick and being threatened by images of vicious black dogs, etc. Team Dark will chose anything that might get you upset, angry, fearful or ashamed, just so they can get you, the light worker, to withdraw from their work.

My friend, T, also told me that most attacks do occur at night, when you might be unprepared or go into fear due to experiencing a nightmare or difficult dream.  As you pass from the higher dimensions where most of you go during sleep, through the lower astral planes just before waking up, you are at your most vulnerable.  Attacks can and do take place there… sometimes remembered just as waking as a “bad” dream.  Wake up a little, call on the Violet Flame and give yourself a brief “light” shower to cleanse your auric field and remove any “ick” that might be lingering there.  If you don’t practice this kind of spiritual hygiene as a matter of course, you might be leaving yourself open to whatever or whoever comes along to test your boundaries and resolve.

Once I had established that this was an attack, I could then shield appropriately and be on guard for any future “attacks” like this one. And I was thankful to have someone who understood exactly what I was dealing with, as T has experienced a lot of attacks while being here, simply for being who she is.

When you announce your presence and spiritual heritage to the world (or at least a very small part of it) you can be assured that you will, at one time or another, receive such an attack, and so be ready for it. Know how to ground and shield yourself, your house or dwelling, your family, your car and work space. Build up your Merkaba Body and reinforce your auric field. Do not pretend that it’s all light and love out there, for right now, there are still plenty of dark entities who can and will attempt an attack.

Why was I the subject of an attack? Well, recently I have divulged some bits about my being a light being, a blended Pleiadian – Venusian (from Venus) from 6D. In short, in just being here I carry and anchor a lot of light for the planet and the ascension process for humanity. Most of my life, I have operated in sleath mode, for my own protection and safety… and simply because I wasn’t aware of my real origins. Sometimes the dimensional amnesia or “Veil” that we receive when coming into incarnation or even as walking in, can act as a protective device for us until we are prepared to withstand attacks of this ilk.

All the attack this morning managed to do was to wake me up a bit to the need to reinforce the crystalline dome that I put over the house when I sleep at night. These things, such as grounding and shielding, are not done out of fear, but being prepared. I don’t dwell on the possibility that I might be attacked, for that would drop my frequency level right down.

Until the astral and emotional bodies of the collective consciousness are fully cleansed and clear of all remaining negative thought forms, this kind of thing can occur, at any time and to anybody who shines a little brighter than the people around them. I’ve been told by several people that my Higher Self is a high level light being, so this is not a matter of ego for me. I am simply stating a fact that has been presented to me over a matter of 30 years or more.

All those who are intent in ascending with the planet, will have to do their own work in clearing their astral, mental and emotional bodies. That means accepting responsibility for doing the work yourself or with some assistance from qualified spiritual healers. I’ve been working on this process for over 20 years, while partly conscious of what I was doing.

It’s not important to learn from whence you came, just that you are here to do something. Everyone on the planet is meant to be here whether or not they are currently enjoying the experience. All light workers volunteered and/or were sent here as emissaries and because they had specific talents and abilities that could be utilized to the benefit of the collective. It’s up to you to discover your own talents and gifts. If you wait around for someone to tell you what they are, you may be waiting for a long time.

I’ve been consciously working with Archangel Michael since 1986, when I first encountered the Ascended Master teachings. I took Him immediately to my heart and learned how to speak His name even when in the midst of a difficult dream. His energies and love have carried me through many difficult times.  I have had a light team working with me as well, changing as I have grown and taken on more responsibility for my own process.  I haven’t known the names of my guides and mentors, at least until quite recently, but I did learn to recognize their “energy signatures.”

Learn your own energies and that of the Lighted Ones who work with you. By their frequency and vibrational “tones” you will know whether or not a message that you are receiving is truth. If you have doubts or want verification have someone you trust who can check in for you, but depend first, always, on your OWN intuition. This is the VOICE of Spirit working through your own physical vehicle. It is subtle, but always right on target; however, it’s up to YOU to listen to the subtle voice inside.

If you are subjected to an attack, spring into protect mode and then sort yourself out. Do something to calm yourself and then assess the situation. Don’t act from impulse as I was being urged to do… For instance, it was being subtly suggested that I close down the blog and my Facebook page… effectively cutting off communication with other people. Wouldn’t that just delight Team Dark to push someone off balance and plunge them into all kinds of woe. Sorry; been there, done that. I remember my experience with entity-induced psychosis. It was NOT a pleasant experience, although I learned a lot about how resilient the human spirit can be.

Well, I’m fine now, relaxed and determined. Still, I have remained closed to all telepathic communication through the day… just for drill. Remember, you ARE a sovereign being; you can “turn-off” communication with ANY unseen entity if you feel uneasy about it. And they have to respect your wishes as this is Cosmic Law, whether you are a Light Entity or from Team Dark. In truth, once beyond the realms where duality exists, these sides are non-existent, but that is currently a concept that few seem willing to understand such is the heavy conditioning that humans have received regarding “bad” and “good”.   Another time, perhaps…

All that exists emanates from the Divine Father through Divine Mother. The Mother is the highest aspect of ALL sentient beings, which includes planets, galaxies, moons, stars, the soil beneath your feet, the birds in the sky, the elemental beings, devas… etc., etc.

As all things emanate from the One Creator, there is no separation in the beginning. What people call the “Devil” is simply a dark reflection of the “Angel”, as it exists in duality; the Yin and the Yang. Another time, perhaps…

I’ve been assured that I passed a major test. If you have not encountered such a test, begin preparing now, for if you mean to ascend, you will be tested along the way.

I would like to add, for my faithful readers, thank you for your comments and emails. As for questions that are not on topic, save them for someone else. I am not a spiritual encyclopedia. What I know now has taken me years to absorb and comprehend. The ascension process is not the evening news, filled with sound bites. It takes dedication, effort, time and focus. If you think otherwise or are trying to discover an easier way, then good luck. Of course, the efforts of the ones who have leading the way, the First Wavers, has made it easier for you; still, there will be challenges and tests. Buck up your courage, open your heart and mind and go for it.


Eliza Ayres

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