Eliza: Musings on a Gray Day


Eliza:  Musing On a Gray Day

This piece started with the phrase, “under the weather”, a precise if elusive (paradox here!) description of how my body is presently feeling as we (me as consciousness, body as vehicle for said consciousness) work together incorporating the latest energy influx from the Cosmos. So, as an investigation into language, at least my own, American English, the piece evolved a life of its own. If you have a short attention span, come back and read it in sections. Best of luck those who love to text message on your cellphone. I detest cellphones and happen to enjoy long, long novels and it is an attitude reflected in my writing. I make no apologies, but smile and lovingly offer you a sample of my musings…

Lately as my awareness has been expanding, my attention has been piqued by some of the unconscious phrasing that we use in our daily language, such as the title above, “under the weather.” As Americans using our version of English (and it is different than the Brits and Aussies!) we understand that when a person says that they’re feeling “under the weather” then they are feeling ill or fatigued.

I have always been intrigued by words, but recently, I’ve begun to take notice of language patterns that people use, for the most part, in an extremely unconscious manner, not realizing that words hold power. And the unconscious misuse of words continues to hold us in the third dimension matrix, even as our thoughts and actions do. It is up to each of us to learn to use words in a different way, an empowering way. And the best way to start is to stop talking without thinking first or feeling first into a situation. The old mouth blurt is the best way to get yourself into trouble, saying something that you don’t really mean… or did you really mean what you just said?

I’m as guilty as any person in doing this, although I am daily becoming more aware of what is going on. Part of the process of waking up is to observe what you do, say, or don’t do and don’t say throughout the day. A great deal more of the waking process is in becoming aware of how much we project our emotions and thoughts towards other people, blaming them for our circumstances, when it is our decisions and actions or lack thereof that have placed us in a particular, sometimes uncomfortable space.

Another blogger suggested that we need to be more like owls, say little and observe a lot, a wise notion if you excuse the pun. “Wise old owl”… another phrase that is embedded in our language, but from whence did it come? Have you ever stopped to think on these things and how language binds us or frees us, depending on how we use it or not?

The owl is a bird of the night. If you are a birder or a hiker or just someone who loves spending time in nature, you might come upon an owl perched in the bole of a tree, its body hunched, sleepily regarding the world and waiting patiently for twilight to come when its primary food sources (mice and voles) come out of their hiding places to scamper around for their food. Not all owls eat mice and voles, but you get the idea; the owl waits for its opportunity and food. It watches, observes, moving that marvelously designed neck that allows it to swivel around almost entirely to view its environment. It watches patiently, without betraying its position to potential prey and then it launches its great wings (always bigger than the owl’s body) into the air so it might pluck its meal off the forest floor.

Well, I’m not suggesting that we all go into the forest to discover our next meal, merely that we take some moments to observe where we are, what’s going on and then make a choice to “enter the fray” or not. Now that the third dimensional matrix has been disassembled (and it has) we have the opportunity to walk through our former limitations, but only if we choose to. If we keep ourselves bound up by continuing to use old ways of thinking, doing (without thinking), being unwilling to observe our feelings and acting unconsciously, we will continue to play out the old melodies and actions of the now departed third dimensional matrix… at least until another energy update comes along and strips away another old layer of crud from our astral or emotional bodies.

If you find yourself in a situation where you are expecting yourself to have an emotional sting, don’t be surprised if you do not “feel” the same. With each step up in frequency, bits and pieces of the “old” you are being stripped away by the massive energies. What is happening to each of us is mirrored in what is happening in nature, with the massive floods, storms, fires, volcanic eruptions … your astral body is being methodically deconstructed and is finally almost rebuilt. The process has already begun on your physical body… but the punch line here is that the final transformation of your carbon physical body cannot (and I repeat) cannot begin or complete while your thinking processes remain mired in the old way of thinking. If you continue to act and talk and think in the old ways, your physical body will begin to deconstruct and it will no longer serve your soul as a vehicle.


I am not writing these words to send your emotions or thoughts into a tailspin (a term from aviation, I believe!) but to encourage you to begin a quest of reviewing the patterns and mannerisms that you use in an unconscious manner during the day. Are you aware of what is going on? Are you in your body when you are driving your car? Did you actually want to say that (whatever you said) to your child? Did you want to lash out at your spouse or partner in that manner? Or could you have stepped back, observed, taken a deep breath, consciously grounded yourself, forgiven yourself for a momentary lapse, seen yourself in the other person and simply smiled, at their folly or your own?

Mastery is not won by blundering through the world, through our daily life, with our eyes shut. And by “eyes” I do not merely mean our physical eyes, for we “see” with the entirety of our bodies. We are not just our bodies; we are the consciousness that is temporarily housed within these marvelous vehicles of great complexity. We need to learn to see ourselves in a different way and in so doing, see our world in an entirely different manner.

Language evolved (or of late, devolved) from patterns of sound. Once, a few years back, I did a paper on the root races for a class that I was taking. Even as a youngster, I was fascinated by the movements of people, where they came from, what brought them into an area, how they mixed or interacted with the indigenous people, by the broad patterns presented in stories, personal and those written by novelists. I didn’t find the stories written by historians to be very interesting; they always appeared brittle, harsh and written to give laud to the victors of any situation or as propaganda for whoever was financing the book deal… Well, as a child I liked stories with some imagination, stories that had layers of meaning and in which there were layers of life, some mythical and some quite ordinary.

Well, in this paper, I came upon a description of how language started or at least the theosophists’ version. In this version, archangelic beings, the Masters of Venus, came to the planet as the earlier versions of humanity came into physical form. They first taught women to “see” with their physical eyes as before this time, our ancestors saw through their third eyes, not their physical ones which were still developing into their present form.

Do you remember the story about the natives not recognizing ships when they arrived at the shores of America? The ships were objects that were not within their collective understanding; therefore, the indigenous didn’t “see” them, at least at first, until they saw the hairy men dressed in strange garments embarking from the wooden hulks.

Well, imagine for yourself, the first people to ever use their physical eyes. What was seen was labeled, the tree was given a name, the sea another one. However, what the beings who taught the women conveyed to their students was that words have power and weren’t meant to be used in a foolish manner. Obviously we have forgotten the inherent power of words and the vibrations that are behind them or we have been made to forget that useful lesson.

The first words taught to the early women by their Teachers were used in a magical fashion. Through the use of these magic words and guided imagery, our early ancestors could and did manipulate the world around them. Our ancestors were able to manifest and transform their environment, but they did so under the guidance of great light beings and with reverence. The secrets of the power of words were retained by a few within each tribe, often a wise woman, who guided and taught her “daughters” as she had been taught by her inner guides, to the benefit of her tribe. This way of doing things persisted quite a long time, until the primitive mind began to develop and humanity began to individuate into singular beings. As the intellect developed, so did the egoic “mind” (which actually resides in the first chakra!) at least until their egoic desire bodies got the best (or worst) of them and then our ancestors, Atlantean and Lemurian began to manipulate the world and to purposely use misaligned energies to gain power over others.


Of course, this is a story. Our true history has been hidden or destroyed by those who wish to control us today. With the vast changes now currently underway throughout the earth sphere, we have the opportunity to take back the power of our ancestors and their teachers, to regain mastery of the world, our world, if we chose to wake up and observe and gain insights into our own actions and those of others. Each of us contains within the seeds of our future, but we have to plant them, till them, and water them so they will grow into new ways of living, so that we may experience the reality of our inner most dreams. We need to shed the old ways of thinking and the unconscious misuse of language, directed at self or others, and become aware of the power of words and of our own power to create.

We are those archangels who guided our ancestors; we have purposefully dropped our vibratory rates to be able to squeeze into a small physical body. I say small, because the vastness of our true beings is limitless. We are pure consciousness and we are one with Father / Mother God, Creator and Source or whatever labels you want to place upon those who have made us conscious beings. We are individuals and we are a collective. Together, we are repairing the great Christic Light Matrix around this planet as she rises, again, into the higher frequencies. But… gotta love that humble English word… but, we have to master our thoughts before we can rise, ourselves, in frequency. It is not a given, it is not a free ticket, the process that some call ascension.

Yes, there are wayshowers, gatekeepers, light workers and the like, but what is each of us? We are but masters, striving to regain our mastery over our creations, in some cases relearning the secret ways of our ancestors and in others embellishing our new creations. There are those of us, even among the ranks of light workers and futurists, who see us following the slow evolutionary pace of our ancestors, taking thousands or millions of years to evolve into our future. Or, there are the persons, now numbering in the thousands, who are taking the path of alchemy and are in the process of learning to use words and imagery in a way that opens up a new opportunity for humanity, a new world. We are walking a new path, but also an ancient one, where words have power and we have the power to wield them for the benefit of ourselves and eventually, the whole, as more people come into awareness and discover the path that has been set out vibrationally for them by the stalwart pioneers and wayshowers.

So, the next time you go to say something “off the top of your head”, pause a moment, consider the possible effect of your words and the energies behind them, to hurt, mollify or empower, and choose to say them or not. You do have the power to change your world, but first you need to wake up and take that power, not with a greedy, willful hand, but with a reverent and open heart. Be thankful that you have the opportunity to experience whatever you are experiencing now in your life and realize that you do have choices, with which you do have the power to create what you want in your world. Also, allow that this is a process of relearning and releasing everything that you were taught through the old ways of doing things. Be patient with yourself. Forgive yourself any lapses. Be easy on yourself and learn to feel into the love that lives as a golden seed within your breast. It will spring forth and blossom if you give it the attention and nurturing that it requires.

The old ways of controlling others for personal gain are falling apart; the gaps in the old systems are showing more clearly every day. It is just a matter of time before the old institutions will lie on the ground like decaying carcasses; right now they are being artificially propped up by the strained egos of those who detest the rest of humanity. Pity them for they know not what they do. See them for what they truly are–initiators and goads to get humanity to wake up. Without the presence of darkness in our world, complacency would continue to rule the day.

It is easy to fall into the old ways of thinking and doing, by detesting these warped beings, but, again… pause and consider. Our erstwhile controllers are in a panic. Some are still in fighting mode, trying to write laws so they can control and repress the rest of us and continue to poison us through various venues… Others are attempting to surrender, while retaining their own freedom and position. It’s like watching a crime story unfold, almost amusing in the predictability of the players. Well, it’s time that we stopped being predictable and in turning the tables on our erstwhile controllers and becoming like them. Instead, we need to go in another direction, one totally unexpected. Like Frodo, we are taking the Ring of Power into Mordor, to destroy it forever so it has no more power over us. By deciding to master ourselves, we are choosing to destroy our need to control others and to accept that we are powerful, that we can be responsible for our actions, our thoughts and words.


We can change, move from the old patterns to a new direction in this lifetime that has been granted us, this marvelous window of opportunity to expand, reconnect with Source, and to grow back into our mastery, which has always existed even whilst we have been temporarily submerged in the most difficult of our various embodiments on this planet. Realize that just by being here, we… yes, you, have changed the old prophecies, negated the expected outcomes that have been written down by the sages of every people throughout the ages. You were entirely unexpected. And now, the world has a chance to move into an unexpected future… one that has been seen by seers and yet is still in the process of changing, altering and becoming, because of you, the dreamer.

We are light beings, now undergoing a process of transformation, from living in a heavy low frequency world to one that is quickened with light and love, where there is color and textures and life, unknown except in the dreams and the imaginations of artists and musicians. We need to step forward and upward as each of the gateways opens for us, leave behind the old ways of thinking and being, and open to our own inner power and our connection with the rest of life.

Expansion of one’s horizons comes when you decide that you are no longer limited to being or acting the way that has come to be expected of you, by yourself, by your family, by co-workers and those people that you encounter throughout your day. The process of allowing yourself to be powerful can be scary at first, but with practice, you will start feeling better about yourself, when you are able to make decisions about what you want to do with your life, to discover what it is that makes your heart sing. It won’t make some of the people in your old life happy, but you never know. Just strive to be who you are and who you really are…

You are BIG, but first you need to grow into those shoes, slowly, allowing your body time to incorporate the frequency upgrades. Rest when needed, let go of what no longer interests you, be willing to change, expand and grow, no matter what your physical age is… there are no more limitations binding you or demanding that you do what other people expect of you. You are the only one limiting your choices. You are allowed to change, but only if you want to step forward and break through the illusion that has momentarily ensnared you.

Resolve to wake up and pay attention. Through your attention, focus and intent to change, to know yourself better, you will begin a process of transformation that will never end, but you need to make the decision to go there.

So… where did this all start? It started with the phrase, “under the weather”, which is how I am feeling right now, with a sore throat and tired body, as I adjust to another and this time, massive influx of new energies. It takes time for the body to adjust to the step up in energies and not all will adjust – there will be many who are unable to make the adjustment. These words are not meant to bring fear into your heart but to allow you to waken to the awareness that you are the driver of your chariot. Does it have the wheels of fully opened and functioning chakras or are the bodies misaligned and unbalanced?

Are you unwilling to let go of old baggage out of a need to punish yourself or another? Or are you ready to let go, forgive, learn from your lessons, and become the master that you already are by recognizing such? If you still linger in fear and judgment, then the incoming energies will meet the pre-existing misaligned thought-forms stored within the physical body and will manifest as disease or as severe circumstances appearing to impact the life form from the outside. Only through forgiveness and compassion can the old patterns be transmuted, transformed and realigned. Let go; there is no thing to fear.

There is no outside of you; your being encompasses the world and beyond. You are the dreamer and the dream; wake up and “smell the coffee”. Step beyond the matrix of old thinking and into the new dawn of the ever present Now that exists all around you, a bright world filled with love, light, beauty and abundance.

We can expand or contract, roll up like hedge hogs in a defensive mode or become the masters that we already are, in the higher frequency worlds. Step into the light and love that surrounds you, which defines and delineates a world filled with magic. You are light and love; you contain within your high heart the seed of a return to mastery, your Christic Consciousness. You are the Second Coming, but only if you step forward and reclaim what is yours.

Right now, I feel the presence of the angels and masters who serve as my guides. They speak to you through these words for all those who live in this world are watched over by their own set of guides. See yourself as being worthy of such devotion and attention. These beings know your worth; now it is time for you to see it also. Although our bodies need to rest as they adjust, our inner horizons can expand without limit. I hope to meet you someday on that path that leads to a city of light, through a multi-hued forest of great trees that loom above like Home Tree of the Navi. Our imagination is unlimited, our future is unlimited, if we but give flight to our dreams and release our fears.

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Many blessings go with you on your journey, wherever it takes you. Namasté.


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20 thoughts on “Eliza: Musings on a Gray Day

    • Thanks, Caroline. Just wish I could be more concise and limit the verbiage. Still, it flows out of me like a river and so I let it go until it reaches a conclusion of sorts, at least for the time being.

      I enjoy your work, very much, too!

      • Elizabeth, when it flows just let it come out. That’s the best thing. Sometimes I feel uptight if I don’t get it all out! It just comes………..and a flowing river is hard to stop once it gets going. 🙂


  1. Remarkable – I received a similar theme this morning, complete with similar “under the weather” feelings. Still it is hard to feel “under” the kind of weather that is really quite pleasant… So I guess things turned out pretty good despite my worst intentions… 😀 Well it’s always nice to stroll down a sunny path with a friend for a time. ((SUN))

    • Thanks, Troy. It is a funny thing, having the body be tired, yet feeling a smile grow within. Walking in the sun with friends, indeed.

      Love, Taz

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    • Brianna,
      When I write, I keep having this image of a stream flowing full force from a spring. I remember seeing one like it when I was a youngster, near Lassen National Park, in California. Mind you, I was only 3 years old, but even then very much in love with nature and wild things. I think it was Big Spring. I might have to travel to that area, again, to renew my acquaintance and perhaps visit Mt. Shasta…

      Musing, again! LOL. Glad you enjoyed the piece. Love, Elizabeth

  3. Thanks, Elizabeth.

    As I am reading messages backwards this evening, your words and pieces of encouragement feel so similar and in synch with what you channeled through White Cloud a day later.

    How interesting and, in fact, not so surprising or mysterious!

    Much love

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