Eliza: Deconstruction — Part of the Inner Journey


A Message from a Human Angel – “Deconstruction; Part of the Inner Journey”

by Eliza Ayres

The angels, who are ever hovering on the borders of consciousness, started a message: “We are the Angelic Legions of the Divine Mother. In supporting you, we serve the Mother in bringing heaven to earth. You are our family; you are doing the same by being human, and living through the experience of being in a body in a world going through a tremendous transition.”

And there the transmission stopped. Nothing more has come. No visitations. No insights. Nothing.

I let it go for the time being and did some housework, always a form of active meditation for me and some gardening. Still nothing came in the form of a message. And then it occurred to me – I’m in a state of reconstruction or rather, deconstruction, at the moment, in present time. All I need do is to simply be. Right. Well, it is far easier to write about “being” than to actually just let go. The ego or rational mind likes to justify its existence by setting up scenarios and what ifs; it takes patience and persistence to kindly say, “I’m fine doing nothing here right now.”

Last May, I started into the “Mastering Alchemy” work led by Jim Self. While I won’t describe the process, it is one way to approach “getting to know yourself” or connecting with the fullness of your Multidimensionality. In the process, you release everything that is not self, that doesn’t belong to you that was part of the conditioning that you soaked up as a child in order to survive in this world.

Focus, intent and attention are all important parts of the process of becoming reconnected, although at the same time, it is apparent that we’ve never really been disconnected; we just forgot who we were. It is easy to forget that we were the ones who came here, out of choice, and in so doing gave permission to forget who we were. In other words, we allowed ourselves to forget who we were so we could undergo the adventure of relearning what we already know. We voluntarily surrendered our sovereignty and took on the limitations of the Veils that had been artificially constructed around the world and each and every human being here. And now we’re in the process of ripping those same Veils apart, through our individual action, meditation, and purpose and drive to reconnect with the Wholeness that is our true being.

We are in the process of discovering that we are connected in a multitude of ways to the rest of the Universe, even to Universes, something that is hard for the rational mind to comprehend. We are discovering that we are human angels, that we are a part of the Creator, that some of us have been Masters, that we have connections to extraterrestrial civilizations, and even to other dimensions and timelines. We are discovering that each of us lives on a multitude of timelines, dimensions, planets, Universes and so on; it is somehow humbling to discover that there is no end to “us”. And yet, we still struggle in our daily life, in the simple yet complex world of relationship with the “self” mirrored in the other individuals who exist within the world that we have each created as a result of our focus and intent.


While each of us is in the midst of this period of deconstruction, of transition from an outwardly controlled life to one that is centered within, we need to give ourselves a lot of latitude. Just this past week, I have had to deal with the re-emergence of a profound sense of loneliness. I do live alone and actually enjoy the solitude most of the time, but there is always a sense that I’m not good enough to have a relationship, that somehow I have failed to meet my purpose by being socially inept. Truth of the matter, is that while I am in the process of deconstruction, it is better for me to be able to focus on my process rather than expend the time and energy and focus to build a relationship. Still, the rational mind wants to insist that I look outside of myself to discover connection. So, I continually have to battle myself, within, for command of what direction, what I wish to focus on, what my intent is, what is my purpose that lies before me… or simply let go of it all.

Being part Scot, I’m naturally stubborn, so I persist. I’m learning to like myself for what I am in the moment, even if that understanding is uncomfortable. Everything that isn’t me that my rational mind has sought to control me with (you’re not good enough, you’re too fat, you should… you ought to do this in order to be…) is in the process of going away, of being let go. There is resistance; it is natural. The ego or rational mind has been in charge for a very long time. It doesn’t enjoy being relegated to its real task of protection of the body. The discovery that the body of any given lifetime is simply a vehicle even negates this task. The soul is eternal. The body is temporal and ephemeral; it exists to house the soul so it might be able to experience life in form. And so the rational mind begins to feel threatened. It takes a willingness to reinstate your own sovereignty within to overcome this persistent assault. It is a simple process, but takes a certain firmness of will and intent. Aligning your will with the Will of the Creator is an aid in this process.

I’m not sure if I can even communicate much of the process that I am currently undergoing and will be for some time into the future, as much of the process exists outside of the ability of words to convey meaning. Yet words are all we have, currently, as means to communicate with each other. It is good to know that words will be eventually superseded by the use of our higher sensory gifts, namely by our feelings and through the use of telepathy.

As humans we already communicate to each other through non-verbal means, through body language, through feelings, through the subtle energy fields that each of our bodies carries; the etheric and finer bodies. We are all a part of a complex and beautiful web of life, through which energy and light travels at speeds well beyond the so-called speed of light as defined by earth physics. Our connection to each other, to life, to our planet and to life beyond, has been purposefully occluded by those who would control us from the outside. The controls are no longer effectual; that much is clear to be seen even by mass media sources, as whole countries are erupting into civil unrest against any kind of authority that does not emanate from within the individual.

All of us, whether currently studying consciously as part of the process of ascension or undergoing an individuated process guided by inner mentors or simply being a part of a protest movement – we are all undergoing a profound shift in our self-awareness. We are reawakening to the knowledge that we are gods; that we are the ones that we have waited for through the ages. We are the Masters who have returned as each of us discovers the mastery within, through reconnection with the fullness of our individual and collective divinity.

Through the alchemical balancing of feminine and masculine energies within, we undergo the birthing of the Christ within each of us. We are the Holy Family. Each of us is divine. Each of us is now in the process of learning the truth. For some, it will take longer. For others, those who are presently being called the Wayshowers, the process is already quite mature. The divine babe is being born; the chrysalis is breaking and the butterfly will come forth. We are evolving humanity, from within.

Whatever your life experience holds for you, know that it can be changed, transformed, but it takes a willingness to step into the great unknown, to relinquish control and to allow the spirit within to take command of the process. Letting go takes trust and it is this trust that I am currently struggling with, but I know that this is also part of the process of deconstruction so something new can be built in its stead.

So, after managing to get out a fair amount of words, I’m still not sure if I am clear in my meaning. It is certainly a time when we need to be kind to ourselves, to understand that while we might not appear to be perfect in our understandings and our actions, that we are perfect in our completeness. It is that paradox that exists beyond the understanding of the rational mind. You just need to experience it to understand without the need of words to explain. You just know. And the sense of knowing, the sense of feeling good about oneself is what will carry me through the process of birthing my divinity into the world of form. I hope it will do the same for you.


Some day we will all walk upon the earth in fellowship, brimming over with love, compassion and respect for each other. That time is not now, except within each of our burning hearts as we undergo the alchemical process of becoming what we already are, human angels, enveloped in glowing bodies of light, color and beauty. We will walk in human form but we will be more than human. And the earth will be more than a planet of rock, water and dust. She will glow with light and energy, a radiance that emanates from her great center, like a giant Heart, beating a rhythm that moves through all of us and those who visit her sacred presence.

Go in peace, dear sisters and brothers, as we travel together on the path laid out before us. It is a rare adventure to act as a midwife, assisting in birthing a world back into sacred beauty, even as we birth our own Christhood, but we are going there together.


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26 thoughts on “Eliza: Deconstruction — Part of the Inner Journey

  1. Thank you Elisabeth !
    I read that you feel a “lack of words”, yet your whole post just came as a beautiful RE-confirmation of all that I am feeling and going thru right now.
    With much Love and Gratitude to you, beautiful Sister. 🙂
    And Bubbles of Joy 🙂

    • Thanks, Brianna. Sometimes it’s just a matter of sitting down and seeing what emerges from the laptop… 🙂 Elizabeth

      • Yes 🙂
        It’s 8.20 pm where I live, and it really increasingly feels like “something is in the air” (air that is currently hot, almost clammy).
        Maybe tonight’s “supermoon” brings something 🙂 I mean something more tangible, along with the energy.
        Love to you !

  2. Thank you for your thoughtful words. It seems that many are facing what our minds believe isn’t right within ourselves. It makes me smile when I see what you have written, because it so often mirrors what I’m thinking. when i can get out of that habit, of thinking, the expansion is freeing… the trick is to stay out of my head. Being part Scot & Irish I too groan at my stubbornness and thank God for the sense of humour !!!!! Bright Blessings to you….

  3. ” ” It is that paradox that exists beyond the understanding of the rational mind. You just need to experience it to understand without the need of words to explain. You just know.” ” (As the Emperor penguin Mother returns & knows her baby within the mirrored group of hundreds)

    ” ” And the earth will be more than a planet of rock, water and dust. She will glow with light and energy, a radiance that emanates from her great center, like a giant Heart, beating a rhythm that moves through all of us and those who visit her sacred presence. ” ” (& so she Lives ‘Now’ for All those with Hearts to See !)

    Thank You dear Elizabeth for this wonderful posting ‘a message from beyond, kissed by your own tender Heart’ !!! (My favourites as per above)….have a glorious day !………Bev~
    Are you familiar with –
    The Knot of Isis
    At the ends of the universe is a blood red cord that binds life to death, will to destiny, and each of us to the other. Let the knot of that red sash, which cradles the hips of the Goddess, bind in us the ends of life and dream. We are each of us with our own share of hopes and misgivings. Let our thoughts lay together in peace. At our deaths let the bubbles of blood on our lips taste as sweet as berries. Give us not consolation, give us magic. Give us the spell of living well.

    We rise and walk. The sky arcs ever around and the world spreads itself beneath our feet. We are bound mind to Mind and heart to Heart. No shadow exists between our footsteps and the will of Goddess. We walk in harmony, heaven in one hand, earth in the other. We are the knot where the two worlds meet. Red magic courses through our veins like the blood of Isis ~ magic of Magic, spirit of Spirits. We are proof of the power of Goddess. We are dust and water walking.

    • Lovely, Bev. Thanks for sharing. I have known the Goddess better in other lifetimes than this one. Still, I am close to Her, as we all are whether we are consciously aware or not. Elizabeth

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  6. Dear Elizabeth, you totally nailed it. It’s funny, I’m part scot and socially inept too. Must be a lightworker thing! 😀 From the scot side in fact I’m a descendant of Robert Burns, and I feel you draw a direct connection between your nature-images and his poetry. It’s very heart-warming. There was a guy who “got” it – probably a lightworker himself. God bless my friend and you are far from alone.

    • Hi Troy,
      A couple of years ago I relived through brief glimpses a series of lifetimes spent in the wilds of Scotland, both as male and female. Druid, healer, wise woman, warrior, loving wife to a warrior… etc. Quite an experience. And I’m not just Scot but also Irish… so a double hit of stubborn. Survivors of a long lost civilization that will sometime be revealed to the world, again… I love the wild places and I find them in the hills and in the gardens. We don’t fit in because we’re not supposed to fit. Creativity doesn’t fit into logic; it emerges from the non-physical, paradoxical world of spirit. Much love, Elizabeth

  7. Thank you so much Elizabeth, you speak to my heart. I too am in a process of releasing, accepting and trusting. I had my share of disappointments, yesterday I wrote an article about that and am on my way back. Some days of rest and the messages of the Divine will come back to me. She told me so. Just being, yes. We have all the help we need and the best adviser is our own heart. Love and divine blessings for you! ❤

  8. Just wanted to say thank you for following your heart and writing this message…at times I feel very alone. Some parts because I am alone, like you, to possibly better focus on stabilizing through the ascension process in this body, and other parts because of the magnitude of my perception sometimes makes me feel alienated from other people. I believe I am an empath but work hard everyday to not let certain sensations take over me so that I can take hold of myself, neutralize energies coming in to me and transmute them back into positive light for others. It’s a constant roller coaster but I’m getting the hang of it..and that excitement keeps me goin. Like other friends on here, what appears to be going on with us isn’t easily put into words, but what you were able to articulate was beautiful and really touched my heart. Thanks for the thruster : D Congrats on finding one of your paths and look forward to coming across another glimpse into your life! Much Love and a big hug from me,

  9. I AM not part scot, but as german I AM stubborn and socially inept too.

    Ohh and trust is an issue too.
    “The Astrology of the Black Moon: A Guide to Healing the Shadow Side (2011)” which can be downloaded at http://oraclereport.com/books.html fits perfectly for me:
    __Black Moon in Pisces
    __Theme: The Shadow of Trust
    __Primary Fear: fear of vulnerability
    __Self-judgment: based on how stable one‟s emotions are
    __Issues: trust issues

    Ek Ong Kar Sat Gur Prasad,

    • Quite. Thanks, Stefan. And I don’t think stubbornness has any particulars borders or nationalities. Elizabeth

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  11. Thank you Elizabeth! You just put into words my path of the past 18 months, as well as what I’m feeling right now. So much transformation going on and trust is a big part of it. I especially resonated with the loneliness part. I’ve been “on my own” for the last 2 years, sometimes by choice as I realize that going within requires total focus of self, and sometimes in frustration wondering why Spirit is not delivering someone for companionship! There’s rhyme and reason for everything so TRUST TRUST TRUST but yes, that portion of this journey is challenging. Thank you so much for sharing your journey…we’re clearly on the same path 🙂

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